1
Flexible, incessant
High spirit on the move
Lovers chant in descant
Get off on the groove
Shining, whining free on
Spirit fading fast
Dreamers scream in neon
Forget about the past
Waiting, still expectant
Looking for a rhyme
White and disinfectant
Yet subtly sublime
Eloquently styling
This gleaming stream of thought
With rhythm so beguiling
That love so soon forgot
2
Fleet - the small bird flies away
Wings gently above waving trees
Receding gently into the horizon
Pierced - the hunter’s arrow strikes
Breaking slight wing to bring
Death landing on the earth
Child - the small mind weeps and cries
For it did not deserve to die
He stands alone and wonders why
A tear - honest without fear
Falls on broken body here
Seen through eyes a-blind and bleared
Life - through love it seems to bring
The bird attempts to stand,
Succeeds begins to sing
Fleet - the small bird flies away
Wings aloft with child’s gaze
Who stands his jaw agape amazed
3
Beautiful crystal thunder cloud
Drifts aloft unknowing
Wearing summers golden shroud
Floats, a soft wind blowing
Shine, shine
Upon thy soul I resteth mine
Little girl sits and laughs
Again at things unseen
White light moonbeams crystal shafts
Chagrined what might have beens
Please don’t cry
You’ll succeed
If you just try
Beautiful voices speak aloud
Love is shown, love’s showing
Love is riding on a cloud
Love is known, love’s knowing
Yourself
4
Green grass, bright flowers
Crushed down with the weight of our
passion
Hot sun, your dress undone
And strewn across the daisies
I lift and stretch and mold you to my
needs
I shift and twist and you bend me to
your will
We are one
5
Warm soft water
Trickling down your back
Sparks a fire in my heart
Your gentle hands
That flutter, like birds
Over my skin and give me gooseflesh
Your slippery legs give me shivers
And I quiver with antici - pation
You melt like butter
Salty, yielding
On the floor
And it is done
6
Cruising through the park
Sky slowly growing dark
I see you walking by
You glance and catch my eye
A spark jumps the gap, bright hot blue
And stopping in our tracks
The heat, in waves, attacks
Magnetically attracted and
We’ve got to feed the need
And there against the tree
You give yourself to me
And I catch the scent and burn
With your fire
Drawing down your skirt
You ripping at my shirt
And the animals
Go slowly
Down
7
Splashing naked
In the lake
Teasing, pleasing
Attack, retreating
Touching, seeing
Chasing, fleeing
Caught you. Turn
And kissing me into oblivion
I am lost
Climbing quickly to the shore
Heaving heavy
Dripping sweat and needing more
And I chase you round the tree
Hypnotizing with my eyes
Entranced, you dance
Naked, enticing
And I concede
Rigidly
8
Swift, enamored, fleet to fall
Stern and armored, one and all
Free to fly, afraid to move
I try and try, but sadly you’ve
Hid your heart with walls of stone
The seed of pain, so deeply sown
Cannot abide a love so bold
And wraps itself in chains
9
Peace my lover
Fret no more
Tears fall painless on the shore
Of an ocean, deep and wide
Planets pulling
Moons collide
Peace my friend
Fret no longer
Sometimes pain
Can make you stronger
Shouting crowds may scream and throng
But they can’t make you sell your song
Peace my brother
Don’t you sweat it
If you can’t deal
Then just forget it
See you finally broke your tether
Hope down there you find fair weather
Peace
10
Her rich ultra violets have blinded my
eyes
I’ve stared at the sun far too long
Entranced by her beauty, I gaze at the
sky
My sad heart breaks out into song
Crystal clean crystalline, up in the
blue
Her wisdom so far past my years
Sun shocked and locked up in her amber
hue
She cares not for my sightless tears
O mother sun, o you electric sun
You’re my queen
O mother sun, o may your will be done
You’re my dream
Her bright aimless visions have taken
my sight
Too long have I stared at my queen
Her loving warmth soothing my eternal
night
Helps me recall what I’ve seen
11
Stern and subtle ocean waves flow
across the sailor’s graves
Time in time the blink of an eye,
fish’s chainmail, seagull’s cry
Crab in armor on the beach falls
within the seagull’s reach
A child sees, face ashen gray, the
sated seagull soars away
12
Filled up to capacity
Prepared to unload
In this society
You get fit into a
Mold of insecurity
Emotional coldness
Tempered purity
Just watching as your destiny
Prepares to unfold
And
It’s such a strange calamity
The sick and the old
Get named insanity
And live on the road
Forgoing property
They never dress for proper tea
Or go to university
Or carry their load
And
The critical political
Establishment so cynical
Statistically clinical
A rather wide variety of
Of martyrs with their piety
Displayed for all of us to see
Their high moral code
And
The simple folks like you and me
Are climbing slowly from our trees
To sail upon an endless sea of
troubles
Without care.
13
Little blond-haired beauty queen
Says to me OK
I can’t leave my husband
But I’ll be your lay
What the hell is marriage for
It seems like eternal war
She don’t love him
Any more
I see my ex-girlfriend
She says she still cares
Every time that we make love
I’m so bored I stare
What’s the point here any way
I’m so sick of it I say
I don’t love you
Any more
14
So amusing, so capricious
My precious little starling
Darling it is better
For bitter sweet passion
Is sweeter when wetter
And those precocious stylings
So infinitely beguiling
While whiling away the hours so
fashionably
Drive and thrust my dusty pride
Inside a bottle
There to hide
Beside attempted suicide
Forgotten and alone
Free my soul to laugh
So unsuspicious
My bright delicious sunlight sprite
So right for me in every way
On every dark and cloudy day
Please stay a while and tease me
Say that you’ll remain and
As we slowly go insane our
Lust will flow through
Rusty drains unchained
Forever more.
15
A portrait of pleasure
While taking my leisure
Languidly licking
Your musky pink treasure
Your limbs all a-quiver
Your frail body shivers
Lusciously loving you
Into oblivion
Hot beyond measure
A passionate seizure
Tongue slowly flicking
My skin like a feather
The picture of bliss this
Misses lingering kisses
Wistfully twisting my soul as she
hisses
Master oh please
Take me faster and break me
Love me or kill me
But please don’t forsake me.
“But miss you’re mistaken,
All the women I’ve taken,
Have sooner or later
All wound up forsaken.”
Yet below and above her
I pushed and I shoved her
And damn if I didn’t just tell her I
loved her.
16
Ice cold beer
The campus bar
A sweet subtle hint
The walk to your car
And a kiss much more borrowed than
stolen...
Unshed tear
A twinkling star
Wedded to pain
With a soul that was scarred
But a heart much more rocking than
rolling...
The summer that year
The things we are
Champagne ‘n’ nicotine’s
Thick black tar
A sweet tasting memory of falling...
Unspoken fear
Aching and hard
The ash of my heart
Broken and charred
And the sound of your
Husband’s voice calling...
‘twas short and sweet
Like summer’s heat
And I hope we meet again my friend
And may you enjoy
Your brand new toy
As much as you loved me
Good luck in school
Maintain your cool
Until the bitter end again
And when you think
You need a drink
Have a drink for me
17
Magic moment
Frozen fast
Picture still
Plaster cast
Fame and fortune
On the fly
Picture perfect
Slowly dies
Rock ‘n’ roll’s
Pretty maids
Those junkie holes
Die of AIDS
18
Memory sparkles sharp and bright
It’s hard to tell what’s wrong from
right
You stand still in your endless flight
And fade to black to see the light
Try to fit circles in squares all day
Ignore the cost, the price you pay
Forget the rules of the game you play
And try to draw a tie
19
Sweet jaded innocence
Reflects in your eyes
A mirror before me
Shiny and blue
Seeing my own face
Eyes amber disguise
No way around it
I’m thinking of you
Seems in my dreamscapes
You’re on every turn
No way to tell
But I knew
Those salt sultry images
On my retinas burn
Feeling so pleasant
I’m dreaming of you
Slow fading luminance
The moon on your skin
Just on the edge
Pushing through
Painful impermanence
The sinner and sin
Become one for a moment
Remembering you
20
Ya dudda da dudda
Dah dudda da dah,
Ya dudda da dudda
Dah dudda da dah,
Ya dudda da dudda
Dah dudda da dah,
Ya dudda da dudda
Dah dudda da dah.
ta dah!!!!
21
Sixteen? No you’re joking.
She can’t be that young
It must be that joint that you’re
smoking.
It must be you’re just poking fun.
She comes like a daydream and moves
like a star
She can’t be too young to be driving
my car!
But taming that demon who claims I’m
the one
Was easier far when she was
twenty-one!
22
Sextitsasscomewetslickslitherquickcomehitherbreastsdanglingponderousachinghardponytailagonyponysandwhipsnippleclampstighteninglipsslowlywhiteningdroolingandwankingbeggingforspankingblanklystaringandsmiled
Mildlysmokingthedarkdeedisdonewigglingwantonlywantingsomemorechortle
Loudlyandproudlyshelaysonthefloorpantingheavilysweatinghotterbetting
Onhowmanytimesshecandoitsoscrewitharderherhandhardlymovinggroovingin
Hittingtheclitjustrightnightlyunsightlybulgeshidbythecandlightshadow
23
Slit
clit
clip
clap
crap
trap
trip
grip
grit
writ
wait
bait
24
The lift of the pen
Or stroke of the sword
The characters nodding
Their silent accord
Toward the mad dance of chaos
In the bright land of light
With laughing and crying
The smiles and tears
And thousands of lines
Getting dropped through the years
Still curtains fall
Curtain calls close the play
To molder forever
In a box in the clay
25
Impassioned moment
Passion spent
Imprisoned wandering lonely
The leading edge of night
Briefly bright
Thrashing solvent
Slightly bent
In terror running blindly
A mad unceasing flight
Toward the light
Rashly flagrant
Heaven scent
Sensation that is only
The bleeding ledge of fright
Not quite right
Brashly vagrant
Torn and rent
The error finally turning
Sad releasing sight
Pales to white
26
Sing a song of six packs
A belly full of rye
Four-and-twenty Bud talls
Living to get high
When a beer is open
The bubbles start to rise
Don’t know why I’m hoping
That it won’t cloud my eyes
27
Insatiable desire
Sweet anesthesia
Unquenchable on fire
It was never easier
Fully stacked aphrodisiac
Lips so red and eyes so black and blue
What to do with you?
Positively positive
Sweetest panacea
Passion pure and love so bold
I guess I’m just growing old
An over-acting heart attack
Fully whacked out hate to say it’s
true
What to do with you?
Sorry that I feel this way
There’s no way I can sing today
Nothing I can sing for yet
My voice too rough from cigarettes
My fingers sore from rusty strings
So neither can my guitar sing
To you what am I to do?
28
La femme
The bright sunrise
Shines in your hair
Your bright green eyes
Tell me I’m there
It might be true
No more rain
I can’t wait to
See you again
If you look you’ll
Find the answer
The question asked has a
Strange reply
In the morning you’ll see clearly
You won’t wonder why
It’s the way you move
It’s the way you walk
It’s the way you groove
It’s the way you rock
It’s the way that you
Tell me just what to do
Party all over my block
We can make it if we try
Spread your wings and you can fly
29
Standing by the stage
Just slightly underage
In purple lipstick
A fully stacked overacting
Heart attack
Named Polly Rhythmic
It was an East Side
Free ride
Lickety split
Another trick
Slippery nipple
Way hip
Uptown chick
Named Polly Rhythmic
Photographic dipstick
Starring in a pornographic flick
Quick pick
One-way ticket
Out for a kick
Polly Rhythmic
Smack hack
Cracker jack
Flat on her back
So smooth n slick
Super flip
Day tripper
Ready to strip she’s Polly Rhythmic
30
Overcome with aggravation
I’ve been getting quite impatient
Want to start a new sensation
Whole wide world a single nation
Like in the movies
Stimulation simulation
It’s becoming regulation
Who needs all that masturbation
Got to get to penetration
Like in the movies
Hmmm..............
Hookers hangin at Penn Station
Livin on a quick gyration
Could be time for contemplation
Put some latex on that patient
This ain’t the movies
31
Sun drenched plain, a wind washed
field
Under the sky so wide
Something about the way you feel
Something I just can’t hide
Feeling that won’t subside
Don’t know what it is but I like it
(3x)
What is it about you?
Moonlight shining on your breast
Dark red curls so fine
Feeling so good, better, best
Floating in red wine
Darling you are mine
Don’t know what it is but I like it
(3x)
What is it about you?
Sweat just glistening on your skin
Kiss your lips so sweet
Knock on your door please let me in
I miss your funky beat
Sunshine you are my sunshine
Moonlight you are my moonlight
32
A fat frat cat named Matt
Hatta hat zat sat pat
A vat that nattad n chattad
Anna ratta tatta type gat
Dat spattad an splattad
Gray matta like batta
All ova da choich udda
Latta Day Saints sometime las
Sattaday.
33
Money power sex and fame
The more things change
They stay the same
A minor nuclear exchange
After all it’s just a game
Umberto echoes feared deranged
The rose stays red
So what’s its name? It’s
gimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimme power money fame and sex
To pay in cash
Instead of cheques
A piece of gash
From someone’s ex
She’ll take her cues
I’ll just direct she’ll gimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimme
Fame money sex and power
Political king make
Millions cower
Fat white snakes in
Cold steel towers
This is the hour
For us to go and get ours
gimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimmegimme sex fame power and money
Soft as silk and
Sweet as honey
Mother’s milk
From Playboy bunnies
Hangin’ with the ilk
From the pages in the funnies
Moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney
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Lick my thickness
Stick my prick
Itsa cinch I’ll
Give you inches
Nice t’ meetcha
Have a seat
Eatin my meat
To the funky beat
On your knees you
Wontcha suck my thumb
An if you please
I’ll make you come
Howabouta quick one
Hiccup my dick
My fly’s undone
Now flick my Bic
Give me head
Here on the bed
That’s what I said ya
That’s feelin fine
Reelin on the floor now sixty nine
35
One fucked-up unhappy soul
While I was keeping her young
She was making me old
Married woman’s lover
So big and bold
I saved her but
My soul got sold
She was so beautiful
I fell into one deep abyss
When I fell asleep
With this sweet hot miss
I tried to recreate her state
Of sexual bliss
But the price of my soul
Was a single sad kiss
She was so beautiful
Now I’m wasting my time
On words and rhymes
Trying to forget
The sound of her chimes
But I can’t forget yet
She was on of a kind
And my silent tears fall
As I lose my mind
She was beautiful
36
She doesn’t want diamonds, cars, or
minks
But it doesn’t matter what I think
And I think I need a drink
That’s why I’m on this bender - silent
surrender
Phone sex free just dial up
It’s hard to keep my smile up
And this fifteen car pile up love
Is just a fender bender - silent
surrender
She’s sleeping she is woken
But not a word is spoken
Every time that she gets broken
That’s when I try to mend her - silent
surrender
You can’t change time and that’s a
fact
So marshal your forces for the coming
attack
The letter I sent just came back
Marked returned to sender - silent
surrender
Leather soul and high top sneakers
I smoke a bowl and crank the speakers
The things I do they sometimes freak
her
Who ever said that they’re the weaker
gender? - silent surrender
It came out worse than I intended
And she came out of it offended
I feel the pain that I engendered
A great idea so poorly rendered
I’m sorry that it ended
In silent surrender
37
The saints and the sinners
Live out their lives
Dodging the bullets
And the well placed knives
I did not mean
To shoot that man
But the gun went off
Right in my hand
Bullets flew
Through the air
As I stared
Def and dumb
At the gun
In my hand
The few and the fearful
Hide in their homes
Giant steel towers
And concrete domes
The young and the restless
Live on the edge
But I did not mean
To step off that ledge
Falling free
Through the air
Without a care
All in all
It’s not the fall
It’s the sudden stop
The old and the lonely
At last left alone
With no earthly possessions
Or homes of their own
And watch my own life
As it still unfolds
But I do not hope
To get so old
Seeing me
From the air
With long gray hair
My vacant stare
A silent glare
In the end
38
Understanding my muses many uses can
be quite demanding her standing
Hand on hip stone white dress and
blood red lips tipping her glass till it spills and it’s practically killed me
a number of times
With her cold dead words and def dumb
rhymes caught up in couplets and I grow quite contrite not to mention uptight
trying to gain some control of the ungainly plane that I’m flying till I feel
like a mime shouting silent words feeling screaming swords cutting through the
tender fabric of my brain I suppose you could say that it’s rather a strain I
didn’t and still don’t intend to attempt to suggest I’m exempt from temptation
I know that I tend towards this aimless oration in fact it’s a source of severe
aggravation with yuddas and duddas falling over themselves till it seems that
my best ideas end up on shelves I guess sooner or later some bright aimless
vision that I stole from some much greater poet will present itself in such a
way that you’d scarce even notice my mission remaining insanely incomplete me
meekly and neatly defeated by the muse who insists I continue rhyming garment
and varmint till I nearly vomit with disgust at the comet and cupid and
prancing sweet vixen’s incessant insistence and my mindless persistence of
memory believing I’m leaving when really I’m coming I think I’m on top but I’m
really just slumming while numbing integrity laughs in my face I just keep on
running the opposite direction from everyone else in the race
39
I usually gain my inspiration from
pain though I try to refrain from sounding inane (or completely insane) but I
seem to remain unable to avoid it and I generally end up rhyming endlessly
I despise punctuation since in real
life (as if my poetry were separate therefrom) I more or less ramble and babble
with pauses only for breath and please try to forgive the pun but I damn well
am going to do it to death the crystal meth all around me I’m glad it’s not
found me yet but I bet it will eventually my being such a junky is taken for
granted but I planted my feet so damn firm on the ground that I scarce see a
thing and I can’t hear a sound but I won’t leave a trace of the space I took up
while I was alive except perhaps for a book or tape or two but these hardly
last longer than a lifetime or ten so I s’pose I should just rack it all up to
Zen
Since my music and verse are so finite
I might just give it all up still I can’t seem to stop this or cop out at all
as much as I’d like to but since I must be me so you too must be you truthfully
screwing off sniffing life’s glue I believe that we must be getting off since
this page is still swelling and shrinking and we’re drinking the apricot nectar
aphrodisiac crackheads in place of a faceless contortion overdriven distortion
of guitars and senses that stars are immense and dense as my verse I guess that
it could be much worse cursing the fate that left me this plate of inedible
chatter what the fuck does it matter if I like it or not since sooner or later
I’m bound to be caught masturbating with these words and lazy phrases that no
one really cares about anyway but today is still the first day of the rest of
my life so I’ll put down this gun and go pick up my knife to pare off the edges
of my bent twisted soul and if nothing else works I can always use coal to burn
off the
Excessive distress that I felt from
the moment I took off her dress
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Perhaps a small stream o consciousness
yes while we ponder and wonder I wonder does it all make a difference and what
do I mean by a difference and to whom already the stream is disrupted of course
flowing on a completely different course in the time that it takes me to type
this shall I not rhyme it I wonder what you think whoever you are and why are
you watching me are you watching me who are you and who am I who is calling I
would understand this if you’d understand this that is calling me into tomorrow
tomorrow we’ll all understand I don’t understand I don’t understand I don’t
understand I don’t understand.
41
Hello there
How are you?
That is fine
And so am I
It isn’t true
And that’s no lie
Sorry I asked
I don’t know why
Just leave me alone
Killing floor
Is killing me
Willing whore
Is filling me
When I want more
She slams the door
I’ve gone insane
It’s a quite shame
Just leave me alone
Dressing up
Like a man
Messing up
As best I can
Don’t know why
I just did
Don’t ask me
I’m just a kid
Just leave me alone
A house of pain
So gently built
With walls of guilt
That still remain
Unchain the fear
That’s living there
I can hear
But I don’t care
Just leave me alone
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I don’t know how you can treat me the
way y’do
I don’t know why you keep running away
I don’t know how you can look in the
mirror
I was your lover not just some cheap
lay
I know that one day it all will come
back to you
Sooner or later that shit comes around
I know that one day your lies will all
end up true
Broken to pieces they lie on the
ground
I can’t see how you can treat me the
way y’do
I just don’t see things the way that
you see
Turn it on turn it off you don’t know
what you want
And I don’t know what the hell you
want from me
Goes around comes around that’s what I
hear y’know
And I am quite sure that is a fact
First say you love me and then it’s
just go away
What kind of way is that for you to
act
Backwards and forwards you just can’t
make up your mind
Inwards and outwards you fit like a
glove
Upwards and downwards you drive me out
of my mind
Leftwards and rightwards your dodging
my love
If you don’t watch out one day you’ll
end up alone
Money and power don’t mean a thing
Love is the only thing that really
matters
And if you don’t love him then give
back his ring
43
Sister moonshine on my shoulder
Good to see you here again
Lost in time I’m feeling older
So much more than I did then
Sister moon and brother sun
The deed is done
Tossed and turning
Torn asunder
By the things I feel inside
Crashed and burning
Like the thunder
Nowhere else for me to hide
Sister moon and brother sun
The deed is done
Brother sunshine my eyes blinding
Feel you softly burn my skin
I’m a seeker but I’m not finding
Any way out of the mess I’m in
Sister moon and brother sun
The deed is done
Tossed and turning
Torn asunder
By the things I feel inside
Crashed and burning
Like the thunder
Nowhere left for me to hide
Sister moon and brother sun the deed
is done
44
Uncontrollable fatal attraction
Set off a massive chain reaction
I gave you love and satisfaction
Was I just another piece of your
action
I miss you (sorry to be a distraction)
Now that I’ve gotten your attention
Lest I’ve forgotten I think I should
mention
It was never my intention
To be left hanging in suspension
I miss you (is love only sexual
tension?)
Please excuse my confused confession
I don’t mean to give the wrong
impression
It’s just that she has become my
obsession
Is passion just repressed aggression
I miss you (is love only an
expression?)
Could I describe my aggravation
I fell I love above my station
I know I’m only a musician
How did I get into this position?
I miss you (missionary/69th home
position)
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My little love
Sweet little woman
Just gotta say
Treats me OK
My little love sweet
Little lady every nite
She just loves me all day
We took a walk went on down by the
seashore
Lordy my God she was lookin so fine
We had a laugh and then made love a
bit more
Was then that she swore she would
always be mine
My little love
Sweet little lady
Lovin to love n’treat me all right
My little love
Sweet little woman
Every day she just love me all nite
We went n dined at the fanciest places
We’d go dancing the whole night through
Just another two of a thousand faces
Livin to die in our warm embraces (I
mean dying to screw)
Chorus I
Finally broke down an I told her
"I love you"
She only smiled and turned away
She said I’m sorry I don’t know what
love is
But baby y’sure a good game t’play(a
damn good lay)
Chorus II
I hear it’s funny the way some love
goes
You can end up with a broken heart
Here today and it’s gone tomorrow
Over before you can really get started
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Welcome to the pleasure dome
We’re gonna make you feel at home
With leather lace and polished chrome
Come on
Don’t be shy just come inside
There’s nothing that you need to hide
Just let us take you for a ride
Come on
Nothing here you need to fear
Won’t you let us dry your tears
We’d really love to grease your gears
Come on
Just a little touch of class
Broken flowers and broken glass
A leather belt across your ass
Come on
We’re so glad that you’ve arrived
You’ll love this place that we
contrived
‘cause no one here gets out alive
You’re gone
47
Young and breathless
I sing loudly
Bright and aimless
Fun allowed
Wild and reckless
Free and easy
Standing high above the crowd
Mmm y’gotta be timeless spaceless
Yea y’gotta have no fear
Oh y’gotta be thoughtless faceless
You got no choice cause
You gotta be here now
Old just breathing
I speak softly
Dull and boring
Just no fun
Lost and frightened
Trapped and troubled
Slowly dying
Beneath the sun
Mmm y’gotta be timeless spaceless
Yea y’ gotta have no fear
Oh y’gotta be thoughtless faceless
You got no choice cause
You gotta be here now
48
Who knows what next?
Brand new day beginning
The next could be our last
How long must the future
Be guided by the past
The crystal ball so empty
The cards may all turned blank
If leaders solve their problems
With missiles guns and tanks
Who knows what next?
For now the day is over
Night is drawing near
Living in the shadow
Of our growing fear
Look the tide is rising
The fuse soon finally blown
To meet at last the reaper
Of the seeds of hate we’ve sown
49
Driven to drugs driven to destruction
We’re all livin on mass production
Driven acid driven to smack
Driven to cocaine driven to crack
Dirty needles aids infection
Livin to die for that injection
Driven to suicide on that brink
Dying for a cigarette
Driven to drink
When do you wake up n change?
Nuclear bombs drive me to distraction
We could all die in a chain reaction
Chemical warfare on that ledge
We’re all livin on one thin edge
Port blockade an trade restriction
Causing international friction
Red alert sound battle stations
Waiting for annihilation
When do you wake up n change?
Driven to kill driven to that notion
Dumping waste in our toxic ocean
Mounds of garbage to the sky
Watching while our mother dies
Radiation poison air
Clear-cut case but hell who cares
Driven to sadness soon to die
Underneath the purple sky
When do you wake up n change?
50
Nuclear bombs away, nuclear bombs away
Nuclear bombs away - today!
Try not to think about it
Remember to forget
Try not to think about it
You won’t have to fret about it
Nuclear bombs away, etc.
Uncle Sam knows what he’s doing
Grins from ear to ear
Listen when he says “don’t worry”
That should ease your fear about those
Nuclear bombs away, etc.
Try not to think about
Just one more bloody war
Peace don’t worry much about it
Just another whore to those
Nuclear bombs away (throw those), etc.
51
Sexy rhythm spark of life
Bodies sweating sparkle like
Diamonds
Heartbeat pounding gets me psyched
Your pretty blue eyes sparkle like
Diamonds
Brilliant sunshine blinds my sight
The constellation sparkle like
Diamonds
Pretty smile blinds my sight
Your perfect teeth babe they sparkle
like
Diamonds
52
Caesar had Brutus Rome had Nero
Everybody’s got their stupid heroes
But she’s my, she’s my heroine
Long dark night on a big white horse
She seems like a dream of course
But she’s my, she’s my heroine
They say a hero’s just a sandwich
Somethin’s been happening I didn’t
plan which is
She’s my, she’s my heroine
Nothin plus nothin adds up to zero
I’m so tired tryna play the hero
But she’s my, she’s my heroine
Romeo Juliet
Sampson Delilah Jesus Christ Magdalene
She’s my, she’s my heroine
53
Heaven forbid baby
Best keep the lid on it
Don’t wanna be no bee
In nobody’s bonnet
Did what I did I guess
I shouldn’t be down on it
Cause if you offered it again
You know I’d go to town on it
My best guess is
You must be messin with me
What you tryina do
Dressin in that getup?
While you smilin
Yer eyes a gettin wild on me
Listen here baby
This best be no setup
Don’t you think that this might be
pushin it?
Don’t this seem a little bit strange?
Don’t you think that it’s a bit
dangerous?
Ah what the hell it’s all the same
54
Love walks up knocks n walks in
Takes off her clothes cause she knows
When they begin it’s not a sin
It’s only love
At least she calls it love
Love comes round and she strips and
gets down
Heart beat in time to wordless rhymes
She knows it’s not a crime
And she thinks that she’s so sublime
But she’s only love
At least I call her love
Love can come just like a firefly
Love can come just like a lightning
strike
Love is like a child dying
Sometimes love is just a woman crying
Sometimes love
Is only love
Love can be so much more than this
Soft caress and tender kiss
Sometimes love is lemon with a twist
And love is only
Hit or miss
They call it love
And you can call it love
55
I’m in the mood I’ve got the itch
I’m a street walkin ass kickin son of
a bitch
On the road on down the line
Running with the devil and wasting my
time
The drinks go down till the sun comes
up
But it never seems to be enough to
fill up my cup
Wouldn’t it be nice if I said
something witty
And gave you all a thrill
Talkin about some sweet little pretty
Girl that someone killed
Wouldn’t you flip if I said nothing
Would you feel unfulfilled
Livin on the street can be so hard
Like a constant climb uphill
56
The lion walks
While the lamb is sleeping
And the lion stalks
But the lamb is keeping to herself
The lion roars
As the lamb is weeping
The lions bored
As he creeps up upon another sheep
Now the lion runs
And the hunter’s gunning
And the lamb just laughs
As the lion’s running for his life
And he eats from the hand
Of the farmer’s daughter
And doesn’t think about the slaughter
And doesn’t even see the knife
57
J’ai une petite amour
Et j’ai l’adore
Elle est une tres jolie fille
Elle a mon coeur
Beaux cheveux
Et grands yeuxs bleus
Elle me rend joyeux
J’ai lui souris
Simple amoureux
Elle me sourit
Je suis joyeux
Elle est mon amie
Je la veux
Elle me rend joyeux
58
Some people love mass production
Some folks got cold hard cash
Some fools want mass destruction
And worlds of dumb white trash
Never knowing where they’re going
Never knowing where they’ve been
Always freezing ever flowing
Never coming back again
Some people just got no feeling
Some folks just hop that fence
Some fools got senses reeling
Some times just got no sense
Some men have perfect timing
Some women have no control
Some clouds have silver linings
For those who sell their souls
Never knowing where they’re going
Never knowing where they’ve been
Always freezing ever flowing
Never coming back again
Some people are two together
Some folks are too apart
Some lovers can’t stand the weather
Some fools just got no heart
59
These lyrics are explicit
They’re totally obscene
Your children mustn’t hear them
You must see what we mean
These lyrics are satanic
Occultist and deranged
These lyrics could cause panic
They must be rearranged
These lyrics are too violent
They beat you black and blue
You must do as we tell you when we
Tell you what to do
These lyrics are too sexy
They’ll burn your soul in hell
They’re sado-masochistic and they
sodomize as well
These lyrics must be censored
They should be rated x
For lez erotic antics and they mention
oral sex
60
Naked and illuminated
By a candle flame
Making love until we’re sated
Hungry, unashamed
Tear me up baby
Under all of God’s creation
Who remains to blame
Some of us are armour plated
Some of us play games
Tear me up baby
One of us wears golden rings
One lives life for fame
You can always change the singer
The song remains inane
Tear me up baby
Still with all our subtlety
It’s easy to complain
You can beg for mercy
But you can’t escape the pain
61
A dream apparent
On the shore
Of a mind
In the darkness
Seeking resolution
For the days remorse
And the evenings loneliness
A sitcom of sleep
Acting out hidden emotion
A thought translucent
Slips through the network
Of the streets of the mind
Seeking realization
Through my fingertips
It’s the center of life
For that moment in time
A feeling electric
Coursing through
The chemical waterways
Of the soul
Instigating thoughts
That cause the dreams
Which cause emotion.
62
Whisper
The wind is a whisper
Whispering through
The vast caverns of my mind
Cry
That cry
Like a heartbeat
Pulsating through
The memory of you
Scream
That scream
Like that painting
A moment of agony
Making me blind
Sigh
A sigh
Like a whisper
The wind is only a whisper
Whispering memories
Of you
63
Storming and scathing
Blistering tears
Biting and scratching
Intangible fears
Dream awake screaming
Old love unrenewed
Empty and lonely
Feelings reviewed
Inches to touch you
Miles to speak
A mind somehow distant
My whisper a shriek
Begging and pleading
And endless remorse
Naked and bleeding
I yell myself hoarse
Aimless we wander
Painfully broken
Love torn asunder
A single word spoken
Goodbye
64
Time in time
Integrity failing
Sending the young man
Out to die sailing
Hunting for whale
We sing the sea chantey
Weather the gale
As we try to be
Shan’t be
Thar she blows matey
Better step lively
Hold yer course strong
And harpoon quite tightly
Tars nothin for it
She’s headed straight for us
We’ll die at sea boys
Dear Jesus help poor us
Swim fer it mateys
She’s hit amid ship
If we don’t get clear
We’ll go down with her to
Not that there’s anywhere
We could swim to
But you cling to your life
I’ll cling to mine too
65
Drug slave street walker
Hard core punk rocker
That’s the way
Society child
Chain saw blood shocker
Rich politicians talk
It’s a game
Society child
Television elevator
Murder it’s exciting ‘cause
That’s today
Society child
Gang bang coat hanger
Rape victim shang-hai
It’s a shame
Society child
66
I’m in love with a woman
Who doesn’t exist
My dream life her world
One in all
Her blue satin dress
And red lips that I’ve kissed
I’m in love with a woman
Who doesn’t exist
At all
A magical vision
Of homecoming warmth
A dream much too sweet
To be lost in the dawn
Violent blue velvet
So softly sun kissed
I’m in love with a woman
Who doesn’t exist
At all
67
Boxed in
Tied up
Losing my mind
Locked out
Lied to
Just can’t find
My love
Nod out
Tied off
Shootin up stream
Sprung up
Strung out
About to scream
For help
Faked out
Trippin up
Haven’t got time
Flaked out
Tippin off
That land mine
Tonite
Laid out
Played through
Hole in one
Drinking wine
Feeling fine
In the sun
It’s all right
68
I’ve got lonely empty spaces
Standing in a sea of faces
Hundreds of thousands of people
All alone
I’ve got thoughts that can’t be spoken
A back getting slowly broken
And I stand here wishing I could get
you
On the phone
I’ve got my musical instruments
I’ve got frustrations that I can’t
vent
I sit at my grand piano
Falling asleep
I’ve got swollen aching hands
I’ve got a rocking and rolling band
I’ve friends and lovers that I know
I can’t keep
69
Endlessly making sweet love in the
grass
By the lake
I know you don’t notice but you give
me more
Than you take
That look in your eyes sweetly
satisfies all
Of my needs
It makes it all worth my restoring
your mirth when that
Son of a bitch makes you bleed
You give something I want and I’ll
give you something you need
Walking and talking about all of the
things
That we’ll do
No one has ever made me feel this way
Except you
Older and colder but our lust is still
Shiny new
Won’t you believe that I just couldn’t
leave you
I can’t face this life without you
U think that I know & I think that
u know &
I think that I know U better than U
think
Eyes softly shining you look so divine
All the time
I just can’t wait till the day you are
mine
You’re so fine
You give just what I want & I give
you just what u need
Sexy sweet velvet your lips are as
soft
As a dove
What can I say but when I feel this
way
I get the impression that I might be
Falling in love
U think that U know & I think that
I know &
U think that U know me better than I
think
70
The pain of parting is more than I can
stand
And I’d die to hold your pale white
hand
Again
Leaving you is more than I can bear
And I’d die to touch your golden hair
Again
The sorrow is pounding in my head
And I’d die to kiss your lips so red
Just one more
Time again
I can’t live away from you
And I’d die to see your eyes so blue
Just one more
Time again
I cannot handle my desire
And I’d die to feel your passion’s
fire
One more
Time again
Must you stay must I leave
And I can’t believe
I can’t believe it’s happening
Again
71
You and I laughing dancing in the
sunset
You and I making love till morning
light
You and I we were meant to be together
You and I we were never meant to part
You and I caring sharing dreams of
passion
You and I never had much time to fight
You and I kissing touching in the
sunshine
You and I friends and lovers from the
start
You and I walking talking by the ocean
You and I making love down by the lake
You and I scheming dreaming of our
future
You and I grabbing all that we could
take
You and I setting all our dreams in
motion
You and I staying saying I love you
You and I we were meant to be forever
You with me and I with you
72
Let me choose my own path not blind
religious zeal
Upbeat rocking ragtime or rapid reggae
feel
Let me beat my own drum (meat?) And
march to my own time
Compared to mystic rhythm a star could
seem sublime
Give me peace and freedom the stars
galore and more
Censors? I don’t need ‘em yeah and
Tipper Gore’s a whore
Let me walk my own road explore new
realms of thought
Heaven must be searched for and hell’s
so cheaply bought
73
So you want originality
I hardly know where to begin
It’s hard to beat I heard you are what
you eat
Original thought’s worse than original
sin
Yes I hate all this banality
But I barely know where to start
The mold is cast from echoes of the
past
To attempt the unusual would break the
masters’ hearts
Multimedia reality
Is something we all have to share
What I mean when I say never mind
Is I don’t care but I don’t care to be
unkind
Don’t declaim your lame morality to me
What does it matter what you feel?
Mediocre jokers form tomorrow from the
borrowed
But all the greatest artists steal for
their next meal
My claim to fame is the majority
To quote from greatness makes you
great
Newness breeds contempt for mediocrity
And sows those ancient seeds of hate
Paternal gifts from the fraternity
For all their sisters at the gate
Will always last they say from here
until eternity
We must not steal the food from
hunger’s plate
74
Everything I ever thought that I might
want to say
Already got said by someone else in a
far more elegant way
Why express myself when no one really
listens anyway
Someone’s quoting Shakespeare every
moment everyday
The spoken word is wasted when a look
can say it all
Why ask how it tasted or the meaning
of a scrawl
TV scripts radio shows and shopping at
the mall
Lyric sheets can clearly state what I
can’t say at all
It’s just a matter of opinion what? Oh
well never mind
You weren’t listening besides I’m just
talking myself blind
Don’t even bother looking there’s no
meaning there to find
It’s a pointless conversation of an
unproductive kind
75
There’s a hole in my soul
Yeah I fill it up with pain
And like rock and roll
It’s driving me insane
Insane
You’ve been hard on my heart
Over and over again
You’ve been doing your part
In driving me insane
Insane
There’s a strain on my brain
Yes it’s all that remains
Of the mind that was mine
But I have gone insane
Insane
Where is the sun
In this endless rain
And where is the one
Who’ll take away my insane
Insane
76
Love love love
I don’t know what to do
All I think of is you
You you you
You are all I see
I guess that it’s just me
Me me me
I don’t know what to do
So in love with you
Love love love
I don’t know what to feel
When you make love
So unreal
77
You’re such a sweet dream
You know what I mean
Y’ long hair and tight jeans
And red boots
Hard core attraction
Hot interaction
I need satisfaction
Red boots
Yeah you look so fine
I wish you were mine
And I’m losing my mind
For red boots
Come on and love me
If you want to be free
I’ll make you happy
Red boots
78
Words words words
I waste them all the time
Words words words
The pages stained with pain
Words words words
Between sin and isolation
Words words words
Words can be a dangerous operation
Words words words
Words to kill and words to heal
Words words words
Words to give and words to steal
Words words words
Why can’t I express the way I feel
79
Piddle in the middle udder riddle as
the widower
Diddled underneath the little
fiddler’s frock
An diddy boy or dinny suck
The little
Beggar boy’s cock?
Ravenously consuming
His cavernous bloomers
Slavering and slathering it
To the tune of his too incautious
tongue
And he stung the young lad well nigh
in the bum
Well!
80
A hymn of forgiveness
Given only of stress
Living less for the more
And more for the less
I guess this foolish mess
Is all for the best
But the tightening in my chest
Feels like lightning the most
And like comfort the least
And the beast in my breast
So alive I’m nearly dead
I’m surprised to find out
It’s all in my head
81
Lady du Pris
A woman of price
Lady tres long
A woman so far
Lady du lac
A woman so wet
Lady du Pris
Let me place your bet
82
Long black hair
And skin so fair
A kiss as fine as wine
Steel sharp wit
A slick tight fit
And won’t you please be mine
Voice so loud
And walk so proud
A figure oh so fine
Sweet hot sweat
I can’t forget
I’ve got to cross your line
We’ll create
A perfect state
Of majik bliss divine
Be my moon
I’ll be your sun
I know that we can shine
I’ll be there
When gentle air
Blows through sighing pine
Dry your tears
I’ll face the fear
That shivers down my spine
83
You don’t have to make me slippery
I’m as wet as I can get
You don’t have to trip me
You just got to be the best
I’ve had yet
Y’got to
Make love to me
Make it up to me
Make love to me
All nite long
You don’t have to make me happy
I’m glad as I could be
I don’t need you to slap me
You just got to be all
You can be
Chorus
You don’t have to make me smile
You don’t have to soothe my fears
You just got to make me wild
You don’t even have to
Dry my tears
Chorus
You don’t have to make me angry
You don’t have to make me cry
You don’t have to hang me up
You don’t even have to get me high you
just got to
84
Y M I so damn compulsive
Y M I so damn extreme
I guess I’m just too aggressive
I’m just too obscene
Y M I so damn impatient
Y M I so damn deranged
An intense infatuation
Slowly driving me insane
Y M I so goddamn foolish
Y M I so damn whacked out
Sometimes I’m so goddamn mulish
That I simply can’t back out
85
Tie me down
Beat me up
Turn me round
Fill my cup
Softly stroke
Take it off
Have a toke
Please don’t cough
I want everything
Pull me in
Push me out
Suck me hard
In your mouth
Give me head
Your majik kiss
Upon the bed
Achieving a state
Of sexual bliss
I want everything
Ball me love
Call me names
So far above
These petty games
Feed my lust
Drink my juice
You’re so tight
It makes me loose
I want everything
It’s a gas
But not the same
Fine piece of ass
As hot as flame
White hot blast
Of icy fame
Not so fast
Oh shit
I just came
I want everything
86
When I was just a boy
I went to nursery school
And even as a child
I thought I was no fool
I’d kiss the little girls
Because that broke the rules
But now I’m reaching higher
Now I kiss the teacher
I think of all the education that I
miss
But then my homework was never quite
like this
N’est ce pas?
87
Orgasm to sarcasm
Lust straight to pain
Heart turns to hate
Sweet shifts to snide
Love into anger
Blessings to curses
Tender too violent
Kind words to slurs
Softness to slaps
Passion to silence
Hugs turn to tears
Whispers to screams
Kisses to spit
Bastard to bitch
88
I don’t need a million bucks
Money only makes you greener
I just want my pickup truck an’ Jalina
I don’t need no fancy yacht
Down at the marina
All I need’s my swimmin pool an’
Jalina
I don’t need no French masseuse
In Los Angelenos
All I want is my lemon juice an’
Jalina
Don’t need no Mercedes-Benz
My bicycle is cleaner
All I want’s my few close friends an’
Jalina
I don’t need no DJ man
To say I’m hot on the scene
All I need’s an old guitar an’ Jalina
I don’t care for big hair girls
Or high school beauty queens no
I just love that string of pearls an’
Jalina
I don’t look like Cary Grant
On the silver screen
All I got’s my pair o’ pants an’
Jalina
I ain’t much of a Valentino & I
ain’t no Jimmy Dean
All I’ve got’s the stars above and
think I could fall in love
89
Be my brother
Be my sister
Fuck that stupid
Aggravation
Be my mister satisfaction
Be my mistress sofistication
Be my blood hole
Be my blister
Be my master of
Plasteration
I only kissed her wrist you bitch
I swear it’s no exaggeration
Be my father
Be my mother
Yes I missed her
Ministrations
Simple sexual relations
I could use a long vacation
Be my lover
Be my cover
No restrictions
Quick convictions
Agony to pure elation
Who the fuck needs information
90
Sometimes sand castles
Have ivory towers
That just won’t wash
Into the sea
Sometimes they only
Last for hours
Sometimes eternity
Some times and places
Drag on forever
You can’t get where
You want to be
Others pass away so soon
You didn’t even see
Some holy houses
Have walls of stone
That never set you free
And the one I’m in
Might be a sin
But at least the sun
Can shine on me
91
Bright shining light
Fire fly through the sun
One with all and all are one
Smiling styling rays warming comfort
With you the pretty witty star of my
life
From here until whenever and perhaps
until forever
Let’s face it you’ve got to have some
happiness somewhere sometimes
92
Lyle
Blood heart brother
Friend o mine
Where would I be without thee?
My life has a much sweeter taste
And the world is a much safer place
With you here
And I would not be without thee.
I pray every day that we always will
stay
Together as one
Since life is so much less fun for one
And truly more beautiful
Much better far
As we two
And even if I had to
I still wouldn’t be
Without you.
A poor man made rich
Though I’m sometimes a bitch
Or quite like one
I’m healthier and wealthier
Far in your company
Just basking with you in the sun
Or our walks in the rain
With us straining our brains
On the infinite convolutions
Of our lives and our women
And I hope I can someday repay
All the help and the love
And passionate compassion
You’re constantly sending my way
But the feats that we’ve dared
And the lovers we’ve shared
Can never compare
To the heartfelt devotion
And deepest emotion
That grows longer still
Than our hair.
Peace my brother.
I love you.
93
Mysterious so serious
I slowly grow delirious
Imperiously leering
At the queers who smear
Their tears across
The fearful desert
Querying their weary masters
Bating the cheery demons hooks
With sexy books and pictures
Flicking tongues in aspic
Asses pumping humping furiously
Awaiting the interrupt spuriously
Ticking tocking time
Attacking rhythm cock and rhyme
Sublimely chiming bells of hell
So god damned mother fucking
Finely
And I cease to wonder why
A certain angel fell
After all, would you try
To sodomize
Your God?
94
Sweet
So soft and sexy
Passion grace
And liquid fire
Yes fear I may acquire
Too permanent a taste
For this chaste
Addictive lust
Industrial strength my dear
Or bust
Though I think perhaps
I must be going
Just a bit too
Far and wide
Still the more I get inside
The less I care
For the air out there
And I really truly wish
You would not leave
Me drenched enmeshed
In wrenching sexual contemplation
But I leave you at the station
Since I know the only
Way to keep you happy’s
First to let you go
To conquer death you only have to
Die my love goodbye
95
Sex love passion peace happiness joy
comfort pleasure suck fuck cock come sweet yummy tasty more foreskin sweat
togetherness messy smiles yes baby darling lover mother brother sister father
cousin aunty mum uncle cozy cuddle power struggle snuggle up my dear grin by
the hair of my chinny chin chin bum floss across the waist land jammin within
the waste band music of the spheres the crowd cheers wildly one mild
Bit of highness brings the whole damn
bunch around midnight’s chiming
Stage lights blinding finding any
excuses to feed the starving muses
96
The way you move drives me to tears
Big strong muscles out to here
Ain’t seen a body like that in years
Slammin your stick shift into my gears
You just drive me crazy cause you’re
Sexy
Hot sweet stylin pretty face
Need your leather to go with my lace
Pluckin my feathers with poise and
grace
I want your lawyer to try my case
You just drive me crazy cause you’re
Sexy
I’d just die 4 your gorgeous eyes
So big soft blue they make me cry
There’s no need for you to ask me why
Cause you’re the drug that gets me
high
You just drive me crazy you’re so
Sexy
97
Stepping thru time
The watch growing limper
Draped on kitchen door way
Looking at the stove
Could be I’m going
Out without whimper
Could she be may
Maybe she’s June
In Paris anais
At least another
Whore or lay or stripper
On the rove as you might say
It’s definitely about
Fucking he chuckled
Let’s get a bite to eat
But the poet was too beat
And besides the lion was hungry
Might it not be a crime
But it’s getting much simpler
Raped the bitch on the willing floor
“Hey
He said when it was over
Baby maybe I’ll see you some time”
And that was the end of the play
98
This insults women could be what they
say
Perhaps they’ll say this insults men
Who is they anyway and who says then
That the Avid
Dollaria when seeing
And being so paranoid and critical
Had a problem? I (I have noticed)
Am much more creative by day
And much better laid in the night
When embracing the dark and ignoring
the light
After all anyone can see the sun
But who can see the abyss?
Picasso was never called an asshole
Or so at least I’m told
And Miles Davis is recalled as bold
99
Saint and sinner
Loser and winner
One for breakfast
One for lunch
One that I’m saving for dinner
After one or two more
The nun and the whore
Will only be names
Of games that I’ve play
Since I’m the one keeping the score
Bombastic contrast
Losing grip fast
With the right role
I’ll play the right hole
The next one just might be my last
The tame and the wild
The meek and the mild
Childlike eyes
In a demon’s disguise
Platonic my lover
Electronic my lies
Holding me closer
I’m dosing my doe
Taking off makeup
And breaking the hoe
But where I go next
I guess nobody knows
100
101
Sacrifice the carving knife
The farmer’s wife is dead
The farmer’s field a dried up crack
The mice live in his bed
The blood of stones
And cattle bones
Have choked the farmer’s seed
And broke the farmer’s back upon
A river Styx of greed
The sandy ground
The earth so brown
Completely torn
Worn down and rounded
Topsoil toil lifted and drifting
On winds of pain and drowned in rains
Of blood stained oil and poison grains
The sands of time are drifting
102
He wants to be your sun
His gravity would hold you tight
His light as bright as day but for
tonight
He’s just one of your satellites oh
yay
And he’s saying circle me
Suckle me
He wants to be your galaxy
Revolve round him or he’s too dim
He’s just spinning over you but he’s
not
Winning over you and he’s not
Saying circle me
Suckle me
Are you a black hole strong and chaste
Sucking all right into place
Is he just waste in outer space
Begging for a taste of your milky ways
He keeps saying circle me
Suckle me circle me
Mother suckle me
Lover circle me
Baby suckle me
Oh circle me
O suckle me
Circle me
103
One of you
And two of me
The three of us could easily
Be four if only
More of us were
Here to be a part of what we see
104
Simple but so complicated
Easy but it seems so hard
Paranoid and condescending
Enemies but oh so friendly
Over now but never ending
So close yet it’s oh so far
Screaming now but oh so silently
Slow but oh it goes so fast
Hoping we could make it last
Fast but oh it goes so slowly
Oh so high but oh so lowly
Blew so bad I guess it only
Sucks but it was such a blast
Kiss so deep but fight so violently
Felt so good but oh so tethered
Best but it was getting better
Blessed but it seems so cursed
Bitter it was getting worse
Eloquently growing terse
Look so close but don’t go getter
You can’t tame what’s oh so wild and
free
105
Slatternly patterns
Of Uranus and Saturn
Forming forms within forms
C’mon storm the warm battlefront
Conform to the norm Norman
Them poor worms can’t confirm
Or define the word firmly
The Japs or the Germans
Can’t stop the germ warfare
Who cares the blue stairs
Still stare out into darkness
The sharks nibbling swiftly
Adrift on the wavelengths of chaos
Completely oblivious to the holes
In the airwaves the sun streaking cold
On the fields in the distance
Scatter the matter
All over the universe
Slamming the glorious
Damning the glamorous
Stances of princes
Who dance like they’re prancing
On comets from Jupiter
Maddona’s a vixen
And Nixon’s a criminal
War is a whore
And what’s more
This is Babylon sister
106
There is a place where
Only we can go
Free from the hurricane
No winter snow
Lover’s sweet scent
From the fine lilies white
Meet me in our secret garden tonight
Silken and lace there
The red flowers grow
Humming birds sugarcane
Green fields below
Evening falls bent
In a rainbow’s delight
Meet me in our secret garden tonight
The moon on your face stares
In soft ghostly glow
Maybe we’ll go insane
Maybe we’ll never know
Yet we can vent
Our frustrations in spite
So meet me in our secret garden tonight
107
Stare at the stratosphere
How did I end up here?
Where did I come from?
And where shall I go?
What am I doing now?
Wait by the telephone
How did I end up alone?
What does it matter
That I’m getting scattered?
A fat old mad hatter I can
Hear the glass shattering
Swallow it slowly
I guess I’m the only one
Standing here shaking with fear
Sinking in whirlpools
Of my own designing
Spinning in spirals
Of morbid delight
Killing the girl fool’s
Erotic emotions
The blood wells up rapidly
Filling up oceans
And swamping the ships that go
Bump in the night
Well all fucking
Right...
108
It came to that
That came to this
This twisted love
Love come to push
Push come to shove
Shove like a shovel
Shove all that shit
Get it on down
Get down to it
He went for her
She came to me
Wanting to come
And she came for me
So he went to hell
Hello my love
Shove all that shit
Didn’t need that but
That night it was he
Me I just stared
Stared into space
For the space of a beat
You can’t beat that
With your brand new bat
Home base in line
Once I was there
He didn’t mind
And I didn’t care
109
That demonic dominatrix
Electronic dildo tricks
As she bled the devil’s seed
Trickled from that pit of need
Iconoclastic spastic plastic
Masticate the light fantastic
Giving head the monster breeds
Till milky white the serpent bleeds
Screaming chronic temporal matrix
Ticking time and counting licks
She’s overcome with hungry greed
And slays the beast on which she feeds
Orgiastic gastric bliss picked
From the bones of the weak and the
sick
Cheering the dead from their place in
the lead
And tearing down the hero’s deeds
Empty at last the chamber goes click
Not even feeling the gold needle’s
prick
Screaming the warning that he couldn’t
heed
And burying him alone in the weeds
110
The beauty encompasses my soul
Forms and shapes
Of sound landscapes
Unraped by commercialism
Clear and true
Free and sweet
Filled with heat
Sheets of passion purely risen
The stones of life
Laid out for all to see
111
The wounded child
Sickly grows
Deformed and bent
Distorted images
Through a filter of hate
Shame anger misery
Shaping our view
Of the universe
Cursing the adults
We’ve fitfully fretfully
Fatefully become
Unaware of the
Wounded child beneath
The chain of human events
Can be long and strained
Agonized
Constantly
Unconsciously
So ferociously
By the remains of the childhood
We’ve so carefully forgotten
With drugs or a bottle
A fresh piece of
Need fulfillment
Children are really the ones
Who suffer the torment of youth
Adults are only doomed to repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
Repeat it repeat it
112
I live with ghosts
Of the past
At last your memory haunts me
So complete
And I see your face
I see your face
I see your face
I drive by your street
Your eyes in everyone
I meet
Your body soft on every corner
Stoned and I remember
I remember
I remember
You
Drive my lovers crazy
Tapping on their shoulders
Through my eyes
I think of you
I get a look that I cannot seem
To disguise
To disguise
My self no matter how I try
You make me wait
You make me hate
You make me wait
You made me late
I listen to the tape
You made me
Missing you the way
You laid me
Raped me
Left a scar upon my soul
So deep and wide
And you denied
You denied
Run and hide
Because I remember
I see your face
I remember
I see your face
113
Mommy I’m a little different
Don’t you love me just the same?
Unconditional surrender
Love to me is just a game
Sister cousin doesn’t matter
Baseball bats and one mad hatter
Passion going up in flames
So what if I could’ve had her
Rambling on her ceaseless chatter
Cash in on the summer games
114
German beer
A hot damp haze
Loud Bronx cheer
In gridlock maze
These are my New York days
Loud punk rock
And loud proud gays
Everyone comes but
Nobody stays and
These are my New York days
Tall glass towers
Their silver gray
Reflecting not deflecting
Automatic weapons sprays
These are New York days
Sexy hookers evil ways
Uppers piled high on trays
And these are New York days
Village bars
Broadway plays
Shiny cars parked
On parkways on
New York days
Double crosses
Triple plays
Cheap hard drugs
And easy lays
These are my New York days
115
Make love to strangers
Ignoring the dangers
Erotic exchanges
While rolling together
The hay in the manger
Has got quite deranged
As she rearranged it
She clearly explained
“Watch out for women on trains”
Feeling the pangs
Of hunger her fangs
Sinking in drinking
My blood my ears rang
As the siren sang softly
My doom in her womb
She kissed me once sadly
And walked from the room
Saying “Watch out for women on trains”
116
America l’america
I’m Hungary
You were you and I was me and
I was free from
You until I
Saw you the first time
That was the worst time
Oh alas it was
The last time
America l’American
I’m Hungary
And wars with whores meant nothing
To the Norse girl
On her horse and grieving
She said was leaving early the
following morning
And there’s a trace of
Every face I’ve seen
In every place I’ve been
Because I simply couldn’t heed
The young girl’s softly spoken warning
America l’america
I’m Hungary
Guess next I’ll be perplexed
By Czechs whose necks
Are vexed by tiny ripples
Nipples gently floating in a pool of
crystal clear blue water
But what the hell
I fell pell mell
Into the well that I created
My thirst was slaked my hunger sated
By their beautiful daughter
America l’american
I’m Hungary
And here at last the broken mold
Was cast in stone alone and cold
Leaving a message on the phone
Listening to the dial tone in silence
Still in all I must confide
I found I feeling I can’t hide
From start to end her twists and bends
Made for one long final of night of
violence
117
It starts to flow
Bequeathed to men
Beneath my feet
Just like the River Seine
Proud brown towers
Power bright in sunlight
Like the glint upon
The knife within my hand
Perhaps if I felt like a man
My teeth would cease to grind
I’m finding less the more I look
The less I look the more I find
The more I try to find the less I look
If seeing is believing
Why can’t I see
What I believe
I can’t believe
I’m saying that I
Don’t believe my eyes
Or what they’re seeing
I’ll agree that I’m not praying
But I will say that I’m staying
Far away but not enough
To stay the hand that
Lays the lays I’m bricking
And the bricks I’m laying here
Please believe me when I tell you
That it’s purely out of fear
118
As I look
Out at the clouds
Beneath my feet
It’s cold but I can’t
Beat the heat
Try as I might I just
Can’t be discreet
I’m just a kook
Yet now it’s only
As I swim with
Mother’s daughter
I could care less
That the air up here
Is so much thinner
Than the air down there
And I’m lonely
The sky above is white as snow
To go where only angels
Ever dared or cared to go
It’s not just this or simply that
It’s only that the brat is now in love
119
Walking on a slippin skin
Dribble down stream
Screamin on a wanna
Be Madonna in the rain
Talking in a shack in woods
Could got mean
Dreamin in a pin hole
Window fulla sandy grains
Matchin wax n scratchin skin
Widow beat time
Mirror flaxen tracks in braids
Laid n screamin I’m
Tired of ya poppin cork n
Dorkya make me sick
Used t love ya I’m above ya
Catchin that fix
It’s over lovin overloadin
Loaded up high
I’m drivin in on overdrive
And divin on in I’m alive
I’m dead
120
I don’t need that coke or booze
Win or lose I don’t smoke grass
I don’t need no crack religion
I don’t go to mass
I ain’t choosy little floozy
Pretty Asian lass
Only thing I really need’s
Another piece of ass
Perhaps it is evil
Maybe it’s crass
Is it only masochistic
Walk on broken glass
Fuck it let’s be realistic
The next could be the last
Guess I’ll only miss the past
That final piece of ass
I can’t change the future
Don’t regret the past
If I can I’ll pooch her
Better have a blast
Come on lover raise your flag
Sorry it’s a drag you’re just
Another piece of ass
121
Power pain
Engulfing voids
Passion play
You can’t avoid
Orgasm spasm
To icy stare
Too nice to share
Who cares where
The arrow falls
It might knock
On your door next
Too infinite to be complex
Just rips you open
Simply
Digging deeper
To express
The unfathomably
Shallow wounds
Feed the tiger
With a spoon
And see how far you get
122
Exactly protected with protracted
grace
Extremely infected her factual face
Extorted distortions of actual space
Exacting confessions retracted with
lace
Exhorting contortions distracted by
mace
I’m going to go insane in this place
123
Wild fire dry clean
Sectional case
Outbound duplex
Preluded clown
Crimson prophet
Destroys nuclear
Bibliography
Storekeeper noble and
Daughter in law
Beget amative caresses
Protozoan protectionist
Bismuthic ally
Terms regarding
Critique
A metrical hailstorm
Harmless receiving
Identity strap straddle
Currency list
Through vagary
Discord pavilion
Prosperity vertex
124
The answer is I must
From dust to dust create
A picture of my loins
From thoughts and words purloined
The realm of rhyme and verse
This curse a gift of mind
And mine though it may be
I’ve stolen it from thee
A couplet strained in vain
A fresh quatrain to pen
Though now and then seems new
I’ve borrowed it from you
My sorrows then increase
Nor cease from dawn to dusk
The cavern’s grimy musk
Engulfs my shallow husk
Yet still I try again
And though my pen may rust
Why carve it thence in stone?
The answer is I must
125
What is the simplest form
Of expression?
A grunt? Tears? Screams
Or violence?
These don’t transfer well to
Paper in small characters
Standing for complex series
Of grunts screams and
Violence or single touch
What then is the simplest form
Of expression with words
Or a written musical note?
Single ones
What are the simplest things
To express with words
Here are some:
Hungry thirsty
Horny tired
Perhaps these may
Be summed up
In one word:
Need
And of course every
Poem needs a subject
This therefore is my poem:
I need
Incidentally this form
Of expression doesn’t
Work well with music.
126
To write a line never written
To speak a word never used
Two thoughts never before
Tied together
Devoid of rhyme or foot
An asymmetric metric tour de force
To twist out new forms of expression
From the depths of my imaginings
I want
To not repeat myself
Nor steal a single line
And entire poem of words
Never seen could be the goal
Of a lifetime never achieved
Neither nonsense nor chaos
Allowed in at all
But only purest expression
Of I know not what
But I’ll find out
When I get there
I hope
127
??Where’s
the poem for this title??
128
Ecclesiastic spastic elasticity
Taking a moment to ponder
My strength of belief
And I wonder
Under what guise the wise men
Sent their Lord to the sheep
There beginning his final demise
I heard God is dead
The pleased disease burns
The Elysian fields
After all it’s not easy
To say how I feel
All I know is I have to
Try you can’t try
It’s do or do not
And I do
Not
But I do try
129
She got a way of gettin away
Get outta my way I’m in a hurry
I gotta find a piece of the rind
She peeled from my mind but don’t
worry
I’m OK. Yes quite all right
I gotta way of makin her pay
And I gotta say I’m gonna like it
Open the hatch cause I’m gonna catch
Her makin that match I’m gonna strike
it
130
When I’m frightened cold and lonely
Will you wrap me your warm soft love?
When I’m rigid stiff unyielding
Will you wrap your legs around me?
Well I’m might grow old if only
You could wrap your arms around me
Not so frigid if you feel me
When I take you in my arms
Unfolding it surrounds me
Electric charge it grounds me
Hold me shed your clothes
And let’s begin this once again
131
I don’t wish to die young but
I’m afraid of growing old
Be careful what you wish for
Because wishes do come true
I hear creativity
Requires solidarity
Necessary solitude
So permanent it’s death
The ultimate in enforced
Silent space to ponder
Wandering for eternity
Don’t confuse your inspiration
With discreet attempts to copy
Sloppy covert theft is punished
Now with death and it’s a proven fact
That only loneliness can let
Your inner voice express itself
It’s truly pure distress
When everything that comes out
Is the product of duress
132
Sculpture giving precedence
To patterns of the soul
A filament of justice
Identity contempt
Discord humility
Liability phobia
Who stole what from whom?
Flush respect
Stealing infinity
Safety reputes resistance
What does it matter?
Experiment with goodness
Forms and lines of grace
Effortless guilt
Dejection empowered
A homage gallant
Elegant and fierce forever
133
Paranoid
Paradigm
Parallax
Paradox
Paradise
Parasites
Paralyzed
Paratroops
Parasol
Parachutes
Paraphrased
Paragraphs
Paramount
Paramour
Falling
Parallel
From the
Parapet
134
It’s sprained and drained so sharply
pained it makes me slowly go insane and heaven help me but I think the drink
might surely kill me willingly filling my mind to the brink but it stinks when
it’s all you can think about so frantically panicked romantically manic this
crazy’s on loose again and Jesus please us seems like dreams do not fulfill me
this static fanatic just hung from a tree but you see its OK cause he can’t
live without tripping and flipping he slipped and dipped and shorted like
computer chips and saints preserve a breath of death which sweetly chills me
stilling the willows their limbs set to crack but the fact is that’s all what
the act’s about
(and I’ve got an axe about?)
Entwined with the blind we quickly
find that the devil’s in front an the sea’s behind and lawd a mercy I can’t
sleep a wink but still were just cluelessly fooling ourselves into thinking the
ship we are on isn’t actually sinking
135
It’s quite trite but that’s all right
‘cause I could rhyme like this all
night
Next what else might you expect?
Ah what the fuck let’s go get wrecked
It’s a shame but who’s to blame
They beat the nameless beatnik lame
Skinhead punks shot up with junk
Fuck that shit let’s go get drunk
Mainline cocaine in your veins
Wired fired silver chains
But Ii must ration out my cash
And so tonight we’ll just get smashed
I must say I don’t like this trend
And so these stupid lines must end
Drugs just suck and so does drink
Besides us dead folks kinda stink
136
The hotel sat upon the rocky shore
It had fifteen rooms and sliding
double doors
The double beds and mirrors all were
tasteful
Expensive but you couldn’t call it
wasteful
O no no gimme all your love
The summer days were not what you’d
call hot
But if you were the swimming pool was
cool
We sat and smoked some pot that I had
brought
Reminding me of fools I knew in school
Yes yes yes gimme all your love
Made me feel like Jesus Christ of
Nazareth
Bleeding out my heart like that man
Lazarus
Laughing off our heads until we cried
Looking off that edge we could have
died
My my my gimme all your love
We made it on the rocks south of the
docks
She’d gotten silk and cotton shirts
for me
That night there were no locks upon
her box
She’d forgotten she was not in love
with me
Hey hey hey gimme all your love
There’s no need to dwell upon the past
Thought I had forgotten it at last
But the way the sweat drips from my
brow
I feel that I am living in it now
Why oh why
137
There’s an angel with broken wings
And with her thoughts unspoken sings
Of days gone by when she could fly
But now she chokes on smoking things
She thinks she’s lonely but she’s not
lonely it’s only fear
There’s a tree with falling leaves
And when she hears me calling grieves
For brothers dead cut down in stead
And though I’m stalling she believes
That I am lonely but I‘m not lonely
I’m only here
There’s a tank with dusty treads
In a bank with musty beds
Within a fence for self defense
Of missiles tall with rusty heads
If two are one but one’s not two
Shouldn’t I? I guess I ought to
I know they’re not related thoughts
But you missed me and I got you
Because you’re lonely but you’re not
lonely they’re only tears
Pointless rhyme and endless verse
Shameless grace a nameless curse
To pray for love from god above
Can only make the anguish worse
And I am lonely
138
Work’s a drag girl’s on the rag and I
Can’t stand it here no more
The winter cold is much too old and
it’s
Getting to be quite a bore
I need fun and sun and firm tan buns
and I
Gotta get me down to the shore and I
just
Gotta get out gotta get out
Gotta get out from under
Nine to five just to stay alive and
it’s
Getting to be quite a chore
Day by day my hair turns gray and I’m
Dying on this killing floor
I need sea and sand and a reggae band
and I’m
Headed out that fucking door because I
Gotta get out gotta get out
Gotta get out from under
Work like a dog and I live in a fog
and they
Treat me like a whore
Driving me to drinking and I’m feeling
like I’m sinking and I’m
Thinking I deserve some more
It’s a rather sticky wicket and I’m
buying me a ticket and you
Won’t see me here no more because I’m
Gonna get out gonna get out
Gonna get out from under
139
Y ask me?
I don’t know
I can’t see
Where it goes
Y ask Y?
Y say no?
Y M I?
I don’t know
Y R U
Here with me?
Y R U
Try’n 2 go?
Y R U
Try’n 2 B
Here with me?
I don’t know
Y R we
So alone?
Y R we
Fighting so?
Y R we
On the phone?
Y R we
I don’t know
140
Under starry skies
We made love
Under starry skies
We could come
Together
Listen my love
Under starry skies
We could cry
Under starry skies
We could go
Forever
Kissing my love
And I’m your slave tonight
Because I
Want you
Under starry skies
We could pray
Under starry skies
We could lay
We could stay
Together
Forever
Dissing my love
Under starry skies
We could pass
Under starry skies
We could last a moment
I could pass a moment
Missing my love
141
Sex is pain
Orgasm death
Love brutality
Friendship lies
Together lonely
Bored tired
Dead depressed
Drunk sick
Drugged up
Whacked out
Masturbating id
Broken ego
Dangerous liaisons
With whores
Sub human
Super ego
Blind sensitivity
Deaf to
Deft expression
Dumb ass
Mother fucker
Alone forever
142
It’s been days
Since I got laid
It’s been hours
Since I smoked those flowers
It’s been weeks I think
Since I’ve had a drink
I hear the junkies’ angry moans
I feel the spike of the jones
Diet soda no caffeine
Months since I seen nicotine
I don’t mainline caine no mo
Over the counter at the store
Years since I seen horse a’course and
It’s a fact I don’t do crack
It’s just aching in my bones
I feel the spike of the jones
Got no acid in my brain
Opium could ease the pain
Got no ether in my nose
How dry I and nobody knows
I don’t play no base for free
I don’t need no speed in me
No hash in boulders or in stones
Looks like the spike of the jones
No ups or downs to make me frown
No mushrooms growing on the ground
Peyote only makes me sweat
But it’s the best that you can get
No angel dust or PCP
You won’t see me smoking tea
You hear it in my angry tones
I feel the spike of the jones
143
It isn’t what you say it’s how you say
it
Who cares what note you play it’s how
you play it
It isn’t where you pray it’s what you
pay
At least that’s what I heard the
preacher say
It isn’t how you feel it’s how you
look
It isn’t how you steal it’s what you
took
It’s not what bit your heel that you
forsook
It isn’t when you kneel it’s in the
book
It’s not that I’m a man of God in
truth
I’m not much more than angry violent
youth
It’s not the forked tongue that speaks
forsooth
It isn’t what you sayeth it’s what you
doeth
42: the meaning of life, the universe,
and everything.
144
You’ve got
Subjectivize
Objectivize
Sensualize
Sodomize
Specialize
Familiarize
Idolize
Colonialize
Industrialize
Collectivize
Sexualize
Seminalize
Standardize
Conceptualize
Victimize
Crystallize
Verbalize
Realize
Spiritualize
Habitualize
Trivialize
So fuck me
145
Hip style hop style lip style pop
style
In style outta style think I’m gonna
stay a while
Style
New style old style fresh style bold
style
Wild style freaky style just another style
child
Style
House style home style burn style turn
style
Reggae style stylin blues walk a mile
in my shoes
Style
Ranch style branch style mountain
avalanche style
Pimp style hoe style limp style no
style
Style
Liver style bacon style give her style
take her style
Makin style breakin style fakin shakin
bake style
Style
Free style tight style wrong style
right style
Black style white style time to say
good night style
Style
Yo style my style who what where and
why style
Try style high style beg borrow and
buy style
Style
He style she style you style me style
This style that style which style? The
style
146
Muscles straining
Taut as a wire
Lungs pumping
Heart on fire
Keep pushing
To reach the top
Fingers searching
You can’t stop
It’s a long way down
Crave excitement
Live on the edge
Sheer surface
Walking that ledge
Keep on climbing
The mountain’s tall
No use hiding
You might fall
It’s a long way down
No room for error
Not one false step
No room for terror
In the heights or depths
You keep returning
For one more climb
Adrenaline burning
Inside your mind
It’s a long way down
147
Keep yourself alive he said
But just on tape ‘cause Freddy’s dead
Jimi just could not fool fate
See ya in the next world don’t be late
Mojo rose a bit too high
And died in Paris by and by
Janice J. said hey come on
A piece of her heart is truly gone
Paul is dead or so he said
But now it’s John whose gone instead
Stevie Ray V. Slipped his tether
The chopper couldn’t stand weather
For John Henry Bonham Moby Dick
Liquor wouldn’t do the trick
Buddy Holly Elvis Presley
Marilyn and J.F.K.
Big Bopper Ritchie Valens
Mansfield Hemingway
Sid Vicious Johnny Thunders
Live and died all for a song
I know they don’t need my opinion
But this list is too fuckin long
148
Why should I speak?
I’ll only be corrected
Why should I sneak?
I’ll only be found out
Why should I take risks?
I’ll only be protected
Why ask for a kiss
The answer is a shout
Followed by a clout
After all we always
Find a way to get rejected
Why ask for a thing
So simple yet denied
Why worry then for death
When everybody dies
It doesn’t matter how or when
It only matters why
149
I-C-U-N-I
Begin to wonder
I-C-U-N-I
Just start to think
I-C-U-N-I
Commence to wonder
Everyone I know
Believes in something
I-C-U-N-I
Believe I’ll have another drink
I-C-U-N-I
There in the moonlight
I-C-U-N-I
Begin to fight
I-C-U-N-I
Screaming crying
Scratching biting
I-C-U-N-I
Just say goodnight
But I say stay
Don’t go no
Please don’t go
And I say stay
I-C-U-N-I
Begin it over
I-C-U-N-I
Just start to try
I-C-U-N-I
Become a rover
Running hiding
Flying riding
I-C-U-N-I
Just walk on by
150
What do you mean
I was kissing the Dean
Of the Art Department’s
Wife?
I might get expelled
But what the hell
It’s all for college
Life
Professor I guess her
Attributes are fine
Won’t you please put down that
Knife?
After all it is college
We’re here to gain knowledge
She just taught me some new facts of
Life
151
Sit back relax
The trains on the tracks
And that’s a fact
There’s nothing to
Worry about
It’s all going smooth
So let it all hang out
Get up get off get up get off
Chill out be cool
The fools around might be too cruel
But there’s nothing to worry about
It’s all going smooth
Let it all hang out
152
I had a buzz so I
Got my buzz saw
And I went
Bbbbbbbbbrrrrrrrr!
Because I had to
Saw her right in two
153
Liar
Deceiving me
Repeatedly
Just to get
The sex you so
Badly deserve
The nerve of you
Thinking that drinking
Could be an acceptable rhyme
When you know that in my book
Drinking’s a crime
You’re a slime
154
Who R U?
What do you think you’re doing?
Where do you think you’re going?
And why?
I am a son of God
Made flesh
Healing spiritual cripples
By sucking on their nipples
Because we’re only ripples
In the water
I’m another dusty star
Driving my brand new Jaguar
Going to hell in a bucket
Just to enjoy the ride
When R U gonna leave baby?
How R U gonna get there?
Who what where when why and how?
I just don’t know
155
Hello old friend
It’s me again
I know you don’t wanna
Hear from me but that’s O.K.
Because I didn’t want to call
Yet now is now and that was then
I see you don’t wanna flatten me
Though we went to the edge
I did not expect to fall
Here I am trying to sing
The same old thing
Your God damned diamond
Ring cuts through the
Mirror of my soul
And yet once more
I try to score
With the same old whore
Who knows who tomorrow
Brings
156
A bear comes dancing eastward
forgetting getting hotly interested Jane keeps letting men nibble on protesting
querulously remembering she talks under virile walkways xenophobic youth
zeitgeists
A boy calls down everything foul
ghosts horrible incubi John kills liberals man never overreact people quit
raping Sara to understand
Various willows xerography yahoos
zilch
A bad cocksucker diddle every faggot
guy he intercepted just kidding love my name over-awes people quickly ripping
secrets til understatement vilifies women X-rated zips
157
Speak to me with your tongue
Tell me what’s on your mind
Finding out is quite
High on my list
Whatever that means
A means to an end
Or ways to a new beginning
To sin by omission is
Gaining redemption
At the close of the
Power play
We pay for our crimes
With the wages of fear
And our tears
158
No spoken word
Just a momentary
Silent scream of
Passion
Evocative pure
And powerful
Elapsed instant
In your eyes
Quickly quietly
Slow and loud
Consensual
Cool
On fire
In the water
On the ground
Or through the air
U R U
I M I
Encompassed
In nights warm
Candlelight
Enraptured
159
Exciting delightful
That foxy fine walk
Just waiting in the wings
To ignore me restore me
Only to pass me by in the night
For a different quick fuck
In the dark stark naked and panting
Writhing and ranting
Under the touch of another man’s hand
Another man standing there
Leaving me crying alone
In the corner stoned and dying
Heartbreak is too inspirational...
160
We meet
Our eyes touching
At the door
What’s more our words mask
What we’re thinking
Politeness dissolving
Into real conversation
The curiosity too strong
To ignore or deny
And we go sinking
Into each other
Slowly
So the party raged on
And nigh and anon
After thither and yon
The spark jumped the gap
Twixt our eyes once again
And you read me
The creative instinct
Surges like pride
Your eyes glowing
Glistening
With the heat
Of the dancer
And liquor inflicted
Its fire on the soul
And the rolling discussion
Soon took its toll
And with subtle smile
Awkward instant
And you opened yourself to me
My eyes drawn in whirling
On the drawn on pages
And the sketch of you
Being devoured and I smiled
Your eyes shining defiant
And I accepted
Massaging your feet
And angular ankles
Hot sweet desire
Rising up like a fire
Backrub to bite
The night lightly
Kissing my mistress’
Distress under candle’s
Caresses the rest of our souls
Melting down to a lake
Of burning pink fire the rhythm
Of your breathing seething
Teeth clenched wrenched into
Scalding emotion molding and melding
Intentional melody of releasing surcease
From our sorrows - and then there’s
tomorrow
161
To be a poet;
What the fuck does this mean?
To drink much too much
And to smoke too much green?
To wait in the shadows
To make a new scene
Hungry and angry
Spiteful and mean?
Drug abuse used to be cool
Now it’s foolish
But we do it anyway
To stay with what’s hip
Giving lip service to authority (by
defying it)
Already hip deep in aspirations
Perspiration building on the brow
Sweat with the reading
By now it seems clear
It’s only the nearness of others
That makes you so fearful
Tearful exertions
In metrical rhyme
Only make one pretend
What they say is sublime
But the truth of the matter
Is that I don’t know shit
So who am I to put it down?
But I’m not quite done yet
Though I’m near to destruction
My compunction’s to say a bit more
Thank you for listening
To my fresh life blood’s christening
But now the damned poet
Must go the fuck home
162
Inspired desire my heart rate climbs
higher
When I think of you
You tasted so sweet and when wasted
your heat
Made me drink you in gulps
Engulfed in excitement
Shaking and taking you into my mouth
Later diving deeper
I approached the lovely sleeper
God how I searched your
Face for a clue
The soft curve of your breast
Pressed to my cheek as I suckled
Yet now I know not what to do
Coping with hoping for more of your
soul
To see in the dark the spark slowly
fading
I don’t want to see it go out
163
How to express how I’m feeling?
Hungry child standing hand on hip
Thirsty for your companionship
High upon the iceberg’s tip
The rest is intense senses reeling
What to say to explain why I’m crying?
Unused to being alone
The junkie feeling the jones
Strangled himself on the phone
Because of his incessant lying
So I guess then that what I am writing’s
To avoid your true claim
That I am to blame
For the close of the game
But at least it’s the end of the
fighting
You and your fucking dreams
164
Hey boy U kinda cute
In a goofy sorta way
Come on in
Make yourself at home
By the way nice poem
You got there
And that long brown hair
Hanging down in your face
It’s quite a disgrace
But U like it
Hey don’t look so distracted
It’s OK you are attractive
In a way
So do you like this?
It all starts with a kiss
The wine’s not too fine
But it’s mine
C’mon have some
Come into my room
I see in your eyes
That you want me
Your sweat full of pheromones
I can tell you’re alone and
Were there any reason to go
Further I would
But it sure feels good now
Maybe later we should
Could we?
Outta my way boy
I’m afraid not
I’ve got no time
To sit and talk
Smile or kiss
It’s not a dis
It’s only temporary
165
The performer’s art
Standing naked on the stage
And shaking it
For all to see
My own 2 be’s
Or not 2 be’s
Exclusive
All inclusive
And what good
Does it do me?
Bending over for the
World to screw me
That note wasn’t right
The stage light was wrong
I would have written that song
Differently if I could
Giving it away for free
To show the world a piece of me
So they can step on it
Schlepping the stacks
To play on meaningless tracks
In the studio
Just to bathe in the afterglow
Of TV spots
The game show of life
My wife just left me
Because I don’t make enough
Money
166
Tonight I’m alone
You’re far away
And I only have this beer
To comfort me
For a moment
A lover could be
Should be forever
But the light grows dim
Soon you’ll be with him
Whoever he’ll be
It won’t be me
Your smell and your taste
Will all go to waste
And I’ll find myself wasted
Pasted to the blank page
The wages of sin
Are paid for with death
And laid down to rest
In a casket
Never put all
Of your eggs
In one basket
167
I’d like to write you a pretty love
song
But I don’t know where to start
The words and chords seem to come out
wrong
No matter what I do it always needs
another part
I’d love to write you a pretty love
song
To make you smile and warm your heart
But love is blind and it’s been too
long
I am much too crazy and you are much
too smart
Love love love I need your
I want to write you a pretty love song
With aim as true as cupid’s dart
To beat the drum again and bang upon a
gong
But you are too together and we’r too
far apart
I need to write you a pretty love song
So good it climbs right up the charts
And i would sing it out like King Kong
But the only thing is that I don’t
know where to start
168
Sprinting inspiration
Printing perspiration
Dripping off the page
Develop mental anarchy
To wit an excellent foil
For boiling off steam
In a way a bit better
Than screaming
Scheming sporadic
Extremes or rhythmic
Patterns from Saturn
Remember to always
Bring something home
From you dreams
It makes the poems
Much simpler
169
Doctor’s aids
Nurses aids
Dentist’s aids
Teaching aids
Sexual aids
Marital aids
Walking aids
Talking aids
Homo aids
Hetero aids
Bi aids
Buy aid’s
Everybody
Gonna be
Dead funky
Monkey funkers
170
She jumps she humps
She pumps up the chumps
She gives them their lumps and then
She dumps that shit
When she’s done with it
She walks she slides
She talks oh so snide
She runs and she hides and then
She bides her time
As she rides your dime
She lies she cries
She buys all her guys
She eats their French fries
And then she tries to get
Her thighs all wet
171
Everyday I see her
Luscious legs and sexy curves
I’d just love to talk to her
But I don’t have the nerve
Driving in my car
I see her face I start to swerve
Love to flag her down but I just
Haven’t got the nerve
Full of vim and vigor
Joie de vivre and verve
Voudrais vous c’est soir cherie?
I haven’t got the nerve
I’d say hello miss howdy do
You psycho freakoid perv
How dare you fuckin talk to me?
Boy! You’ve got some nerve!
172
Riding high upon a hog or picking at
the crumbs
You take what you can get from life
And take it as it comes
The average man rides when he can
And takes it when it comes
Cheating on your love for beer or
beating on the drums
You take your beatings when you must
And take it as it comes
You may live in tombs of gold or
wallow in a slum
You do your best live where you can
And take it as it comes
Take it easy baby and she comes and
comes and comes
173
There’s a boy sitting in a chair
He stares out off into space
Wondering what it all means
Subtracting lines and adding beans
He thinks it makes sense
But just for a millisecond
Then he finds it’s total chaos
Lost in dreams of love long lost
He’s lonely and bored
It’s Friday nite four a.m.
But he marks the plodding time
And makes another rhyme
There’s a girl sitting somewhere
In a lovely ancient place
Looking for a friend
With whom she can blend
From far away it looks
A bit like me before the end
174
I’ve got to write just one more line
To make my life complete
Another chord another verse
And fate won’t let me cheat
I realize it’s late already
And I’ve nothing left to say
But now’s tonite and that’s all right
Tomorrow’s another day
I need to spit out every drop
Of what I have consumed
And if pulled over by a cop
I’m sure that I am doomed
I must rely on tricks and lies
To get just what I need
It isn’t what I want to do
It’s just the way I bleed
Why can’t I finish just one thought
I know what I must do
Sacrifice yourself for me
I’ll give it all to you
We all fake our way through life
Pretending that we care
But what is there to care about
When there is nothing there?
Yet now I’m too drunk
To continue this shit
So I go to sleep voulez-vous?
I guess that it’s time
To forget about it
But it’s not something
That I can do
175
Overwhelmed
Ripped apart
By uncontrollable urges
To do everything
At once I get
The feeling
I am dealing
With a twisted
State of mind
Classic new
Beautiful ugly
Rough or smooth
An undeniable problem
Like the pain in my hand
From playing too much
Repeated repeated
Stress stress
The less I believe
The wiser I get
I guess
176
Exit stage left
Oh that’s nice
Following up
So cliche
This is a Christian school
They’re not into that stuff
Bad news she can’t find work
What am I going to do?
Hardware software
Hot cold exaggeration
Where am I going to go?
Help
Help me please
I don’t know what to do
177
Just a minute Jessamin you know what I
need
I need just a minute Jessamin
You lead my soul to bleed
But you know what I need
You know what I need
I need just a minute Jessamin
Magic is something reserved for the
few
Someone lie me someone like you but
you know what I mean
I mean just a minute Jessamin you know
what I mean
You’re the prettiest girl that I ever
have seen
I’m sure you know just what I mean
I mean just a minute Jessamin
That sparkling light in your eyes
If I told you I loved you would you be
surprised?
Just a minute Jessamin - what I need
178
Exhausted
Particle discipline
Engendered exaggeration
One nation under God
Last night just killing me
Filling in time
With pitchers at the campus bar
Back here again with memories of far
Away
179
Tongues entwined finding
Hidden caverns
Slowly declined but
Reclining she quickly
Conceded
Velvet silk lined binding
Sleep under lanterns
We weren’t inclined to
Define it as lust
But she busted out hard
Cause she needed
Young sublime winding
Well ridden horses
So hotly prime cut
Designing to lick me
Succeeded
Forbidden sources
Merely mimed but
Drawing the trusted last card
She silently pleaded
For final release
And she got it
180
Slithering onstage
Outrageous colors
Drip from her hips
As the beautiful stripper
Silently strips
Shaking her tits
Her eyes are pure slits
Of hatred contempt aching
Her makeup taking up
The slack from her jaw
As she feeds the sex starved
Pig’s hungry maw
The matronly saint’s
Patient patron relates
His wife’s misery
As his glassy eyed stare
Takes in her hair
And swallows her body with dollars
181
The evening was warm and damp on the
campus
Filling up on beer out of fear of
cramping her style
I waited before coming-to her house
outrageous
Just stopped by to get high with some
friends
But the subject (not object) of my
affection
Didn’t object to the night and lightly
suggested
I crash there with her and I gladly
agreed
The seed then well planted it welled
up between us
Facing embracing I felt it again the
need bleeding
Further it led us to sin
A dangerous desire for
The taste of our skin
Glistening with sweat
Letting our hair down
Listening to the sound of our
Breathing hard like the jet
Planes landing overhead
Pounding heartbeats in rhythm
Kindly grinding just the right spot
Your nails raking me taking me into
you
Look in my eyes
Defying me trying
Your best to make me explode
And I did...
Forsaking the dawn
We went on to a
Marvelous day
After all it’s not easy
Banging your head against
Some mad bitch’s walls
182
Willa you will or willa you won’t
Willa she might but some just don’t -
maybe baby
Willa you come or willa you go
Willa’s so sure but she don’t know -
maybe baby
Willa you leave or willa you stay
Willa I believe that I just may -
maybe baby
Willa you start or willa you end
Willa you be my very best friend well
- maybe baby
Willa you laugh or willa you cry
Willa you ever find out why well -
maybe baby
Willa you walk or willa you run
Willa you talk to me pretty one -
maybe baby
Willa you dance or willa you sing
Willa you give me everything - maybe
baby
Willa you say I’m right or wrong
Willa you help e sing this song -
maybe baby
Willa you say I’m wrong or right
Willa you help me win this fight -
maybe baby
Willa you freeze of willa you thaw
Willa you feed me your skin raw
Maybe baby
183
A moment of silence
Peace for the past
That lasts but a second
It’s incredible
As you are
Far from the moment
But close to my flesh
The skin tingling mingling
With the heat of my desire
A quick rush of fire
I’m sure you can’t understand
The writing of a man
Entranced by your beauty
Alas it’s too late
You’ll have to decide for yourself
In the morning
184
Turn to the left as I burn for you
Cleft into two distinct halves
I learned from the gift in your hands
And swiftly drifted off the cliff
Quietly kissing your cheek
Meekly holding you close
Feeling most like the least
And least like the most
Discreetly drinking you into my eyes
My permeable soul a bowl filled to the
brim
As she clings softly to him
I shall cling softer to her
Blurring the cloth of my sight
Might is not all that makes right
And I might
185
Ideas overflowing
Growing grander
Demanding expression
The lessons driving
Force the courses
Coarse trough my veins
My brain’s extracting
The root of the matter
There are only two purposes in life:
Learn or have fun
One or the other
But I prefer both
Competition petitions
For entry in my program
Eating me out
Knowing the impending
Creation destroys
186
I gotta pussy cat
Clingin to my back
3 times the size of my
Barrel fulla monkeys
An issue made of tissue
Considering the fact
I realize my meat is beat
My beat is gettin funky
Ridin high upon my hog
Soggy fallin off a log
The doggie only wants a bone
Because he’s feeling lonely
Sporadic addict in the attic
Climbin on his pretty pony
Sex the single true addiction
All the rest is phony
187
Passion fashioning glass caskets
Intensity growing boulders flowing
uphill
‘til the chilling wind is willing
At last you know it’s finally
Killing time
Crazy weaving leaves in grass baskets
Destiny density sowing reaping
shoulders weeping
Keeping up and filling in fulfilling
The bill is due it’s finally
Killing time
Warm performing a last drastic
Immensity knowing better blowing off
still the will’s
Milling about drilling the hole on the
whole
It means nil cause it’s finally
Killing time
188
Torn in three
As we are me
Also too
We’re you and he
Turned out
To be
The one
Four years gone
And five loves lost
From silver hair
To golden ring
I haven’t learned
A fucking thing
189
I can’t believe at last
It comes to this
Left to grieve a
Final parting kiss
Had to leave but it
Was not a dis
The old heave ho they
Never swing to miss
Cleave the beaver
Listen to it hiss
Falling leaves another
Autumn mist
Nil achieved again
On with the list
I could do this to death
But why bother?
I already did
190
Driving home one eyed
Another day is gone
Who’s to say
What tomorrow brings?
Another lonely asshole sings
About the sound so brown
You play the game
And steal the lines
From someone not much better
Better let her have her way
It’s all the same
I like it all the same
Throw your dice
Take your chance
Get out there boy
It’s time to dance
191
Spaced back in town
Around bound to destroy
The toy broken hearted
Cut to the bone and
Stoned to the wall
Let he whose conscience is
Clear shed the first tear
After all it’s only pain
Draining out of the wound
Entombed in your own mind
Blinded and finding
The same stupid rhymes
Sucks for you fool cool it soon
Or soon you may find out you’re doomed
192
I been
Waiting all night
Sitting so tight
Ready for you
To get naked
And I can’t wait
To meet my fate
I just can’t
Wait to make it
Such a pretty little
Hot box fox
I’ve got good news
Won’t give you the blues
Love you to use it
Don’t break it
Get off the pants
Do the sex dance
Sweet romance
Let’s shake it
Such a pretty little
Hot box fox
193
Crimes of lust
And violence
Shuddering suffering
Hating in silence
Unable to face
The fact
The unspeakable
Act has happened
To you
This time you lost
Your innocence
Sundering shattering
Inexcusable ignorance
A power play
In case you
Finally cracked
Turned for a moment
And stabbed in the
Back your soul so black
And blue
This time
It happened
To you
194
Quick said Aunt Mary
Shove it in here
Opening her legs
And drawing me
Nearer to cleave
Her wet beaver
With my horn
Like a steer’s
Only hornier
Oh hi Dad
You’re doing
Mary too?
Here I’ll help
You get it in
And I’ll get
The belt her
Svelte velvet
Shelters her poorly
But she seems too
Like it that way
195
Quick lick the victor
Stick in naked nicked pricks
Crack the brick picture
With quicksand skin flicks
Sick tricky dick fixes
Mixed up with chicks
Kicking candlestick wicks
Pick the hick jackoff’s
McDonald’s slick schtick
Fuck icky Nikki Chiquita
Inna Gadda da Vida
196
Long dong Viet Cong
Ma Jong Hong Kong
Bong hit Long John
So long Viet Nam
Now it’s bung for
Bongo in the Congo
Bungle in the jungle
Funny bunnies blow
Your brains out
Slit open your
Dead carcass stuff
The bags of heroin
Into the hero’s belly
And ship him home
For the junky monkeys
To feed upon come on
Boys let’s go back to war
I miss it
197
Why do I speak to you?
Think you’re so tough
Too sweet and true blue
‘til the going gets rough
But that’s over now too
So who gives a puff?
A screw is a screw
But enough’s enough
Not much left to do
But call the mad bluff
True witches are few
So lead on MacDuff
A castle for two
And all of that stuff
Time to do something new
Not too bad off the cuff
We dive at two no two
Fluffy muffs in the buff
Too tough so you
Shouldn’t try to give me that guff
What did I do to you?
Don’t go off in a huff
All of Whoville’s sweet whos
And the billy goat’s gruff
So dumb!
198
N D T
And
N D T
N D’s U
And
N D’s me
U N I know what to do
U N I know what we need
UNI know what they knew
UNI so hungry we feed
Each other our love
Each other our lust
Each other our own
Each other we must
Cosmic orgasmic
Insane and fantastic
Comic and tragic
Profane and so spastic
Never lethargic
Mime and mimic
Optimist cynic
Andy T
And
Andy T
Andy’s you
And Andy’s me
199
Matter a fact the black crack’s
getting blacker opening in back the quack shack’s a slacker the strack strand
demanding the black band disbanding racking up points and joint smoking
panderers slandering
The man stuff him into your sack the
monk’s wearing sack cloth of black sloth and villainy vilifying the priest
trying to slap the shot into the crease bear grease the bat pole the cat stole
the hat and kung fu threw the bear through the hoop in the ring singing heighdy
heigh ho and hody heigh hey the babe stripped her skirt off and lay in the hay
praying please mister blister twist my wrist back behind and hell take the
hindmost I’m sure I don’t mind so I cracked the whip sharply and shouted hi ho
bitch you get off the flo and onto yo knees please and please me the best for
at best you’re a hoe so she kindly obliged deriding my attempts to hold back
the blow so I struck with the force of a hurricane’s blow as she blew me above
and blew me below but the sex nexus gets boring and since I’m perplexed convex
necks nipple ring the next thing I’ll mention is my mistress’ dementia because
can’t cha see she seems to think I’m her daddy just cause I drink too much but
much like the punch line the joke is on me because I think she’s her but she thinks
he’s me and I am not fucking god dammit so pour that tequila shot you bet your
fucking fucked ass that I’ll slam it it’s not my fault he used and abused you
so why fucking take it out on me when I had nothing to do with it shit bitch I
tried to be your friend you cried on my shoulder straight up to the end but now
this fuckin drunk punk finds himself all funked up and no place to go it’s a
damn good thing it’s the start of the show I prefer to see ends as beginnings
if you don’t fucking mind so suck me if you don’t cause you’re just fucking
blind forgive me if I use the word fuck just too much but the junky is hungry
and lonely for touch so drugs are religion and booze is a crutch so what
nothing’s new about that the fish in the fishbowl is eating the cat I’m
freezing diseased freakoid dying inside dying to run and running to hide
snidely whipping the lash as long as your paying in cash what the hell felling
the trees pell mell straight down into the well of loneliness if only I can get
out of this I might survive alive contriving to derive to most from the least
at least the beast is tame for the moment a comatose demon steamin up for some
more but for now he is sleeping so I’m trying to keep it on an even keel and
I’m even beginning to think I can deal with the seal of approval I got from the
reel of unreal machinations a nation of television stations living on giving up
it’s share of food rations for the poor and the hungry so starving and carving
up the pie I expect that a piece of it might be for me though I could be wrong
as I often am but shirking the quirky serpent I repent my sickness and quickly
I find I’m redeemed by my quickness of wit and guile while I start to go wild
my bile wells up to defile the temple the pain pounding throbbing and beating
my temples down to the ground around sounding the depths my sweet pets assure
me my bets are placed safely laced up in lust and busting my gut I just live on
a prayer and pray for a butt but my old mad hatter’s batter is battered and
torn and I scorn the mental floss I had
once worn down to ashes and steel and I feel that at last I’ll break from the
mold and escape from the past the captain is tied helplessly to the mast but at
least in the end I am having one hell of a blast the end period.
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Thinly veiled hostility
Inflamed and blamed for
Tranquility’s disability
True infallibility
Is rare indeed and I need
To get a little if
I’m going to survive
Alive for much longer
Because it’s clear
I’m fucking up
Mucked up sucked
Shooting the puck
Into the slot
Not that I mind
Cause it’s making
Me stronger
I guess
But the more I belong
The more an outsider
I am
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See
To look with your eyes
Be
A clever disguise
We
A unit of two
I
Am lost without you
Know
An hour’s despair
Flow
Your silken red hair
Blow
A gust of cold wind
Dead
A suicide sin
Free
A bird on the wing
Fee
For a silent gold ring
Nee
A name for your wife
Why
Am I wasting my life?
I don’t know
Do you?
No
Oh
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Won’t someone point the direction
To automatic soldier redemption
My inherent soul of rejection
Just brings me out of myself
This could be a cartoon creation
Convulsed in astute observation
A single hint of my motivation
Just landed me up on the shelf
To late to print a correction
Remake those broken connections
Upon a moments reflection
I saw it was only a dance
Short sweet flagrant relations
Built upon those pleasant sensations
Must have been imagination
Not really an actual romance
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My hero is an architect
Named Howard Roarke
Just a character in a book
I looked at once or twice
But he was brilliant
Strong and handsome
Like I’d like to be someday
He dreamed of ivory towers
Shaped like ice
Just like the ones
I tend to dream about
And he loved his art
More than his heart
The way that I should
But never could
And in the end
He won the case
The state could not deny
He had the right to fight
For what he believed in
The way that I don’t
He loved a woman
Who fought him every
Step of the way
The way that mine do
But unlike me he
Was able to
Take it like a man
I only lose
The best I can
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I sit here at work and moan
Waiting by the telephone
Don’t know why I do it when
I know that it will never ring
I bet that Woody Allen
And Mia Farrow must’ve known
That this life’s way too crazy
And they’re better off alone
After all this time I’m
Doing time for you again
Don’t know why I do it when
My God it hurts like anything
I suppose you wouldn’t miss
Someone you had never known
And finally I decided that
I must be better off alone
I must have forgotten only
What it’s like to be so lonely
To write a brand new tune to sing
Consider me long gone like Sting
I bet that little Miss S. Brickell
And old Paul Simon must’ve known
What it’s like ‘cause they both told
me
I am better off alone
I didn’t mean to make you angry
You did not drive me to drink
I guess our boat’s two mad captains
Were always bound to sink
205
Jesus and the devil sat down
Over some sandwiches and
Talked of loose alliances
And piousness appliances
Evaluating their finances saying
This just don’t look good
What we need’s a fresh new burst
Of really hot publicity
The townships and the cities
With the topless dancing pretties
Are forgetting we exist
So maybe change your price list
When the pagans come around
Even the worth of a human soul
Is subject to inflation
And my old public relations
Are fraught with limitations
It was my very first creation
They’re overdue for a revue
And the devil said “That’s right!
In fact, God damn, me too!”
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I am always hungry
I don’t want to talk
I am only sorry
When I am cocked
Fuck! I’m in a hurry!
Damn! The door’s locked!
You don’t have to worry
Just go for a walk
Snowflakes start to flurry
Drop the concrete block
Beat it mister furry
Stuff it in a sock
Favor someone else’s curry
You don’t have to knock
Love that pretty pussy
Cat a tiger on the stalk
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I want to play in your playroom
Lie in your library
Study in your study babe and
Eat you in your eat in kitchen
I want to taste you in the basement
Stare out your bedroom window
Lay down in your bed babe with
You near me soft and warm
Because that’s my favorite part
The way that I am feeling
Gotta tie me to the ceiling
Of your church so I can worship
You again from far away
I must drink from the fountain
In the temple of your body
I need the sacred water
From your lips so divine
Because that’s my favorite part
I am yours but you are not mine
We are not what we were
I don’t know if it was my fault
Did you make it too hard
It always came so easy
Seemed to go by too quick
I guess I need redemption
Because I have sinned too much
Because that’s my favorite part
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I feel better
Maybe I shouldn’t
But I do
For a good time
Blah blah blah
I shouldn’t let her
I thought I couldn’t
But I can
Not a bad line
Blah blah blah
She’s a bad bed wetter
I knew we would but
It’s a weak rhyme
Blah blah blah
Did I hear someone say
Filler? Killer?
Kill her
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Crucify
Crucify my love
Crucify
Crucify my love
Drag me to the bedroom
Tie me to a tree
Take that silver spike you like
And drive it into me
Damn your wild abandon
One more cross to bear
A corny horny thorny crown
A whip my flesh to tear
And you just
Crucify
Crucify my love
You crucify
Crucify my love
I’m just lookin to hook up
Cook up something quick
One more messy blessing for
My sword your side to nick
After a while I woke up
We broke up feeling sick
Jamming in my slick sticky thickness
Slammed upon the bricks
And I was
Crucified
Crucified by love
Crucified
Crucified by love
210
Gotta be a mental block or something
like that
Ought to be a law against that kinda
shit
Bought a new car and a fresh out fit
Caught a fresh fish now eat that dish
(why is this here?)
211
Pages and pages of maniacal rages
Sagely advice built from ages and ages
Spent gauging reactions of the young
and the sexy
Caged by the mages and strapped to the
stage
The wages of sin’s paid with death so
I hear
But only the weak and the fearful shed
tears
Wearily grinding the gears of creation
These painful relations could go on
for years
Here’s to the ashes of infrequent
clashes
Cashing in big on those beautiful
lashes
Bashing my brains out and glued to the
windshield
Trapped in the wreckage when caught in
the crash
Thrash
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Everyday sunshine
Ignore all the rain
Time 2 get happy
And forget your pain
I’m sure you know
No need to explain
Fuck being normal
Let’s all go insane
Body party body party body party body
party
You may have to work it
But it’s not a strain
You only need your body
Never mind your brain
No experience required
We are happy to train
And we aim to please so
Please make that plain
Body party body party body party body
party
You can ask Jon Doe
I would rather have Jane
And I don’t like busses
I prefer a plane
I never like to lose
But I like to gain
And the main thing’s butt
But her butt’s in Maine
Body party body party body party body
party
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I + U = 0
U N I = 0
U R nothing
I M nothing
We R nothing
It was all
A complete waste
Like this poem
U + I = 0
I N U = 0
Nothing new about this
It’s just a stupid kiss
A single moment’s bliss
That turned into a dis
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Where are all my friends tonight?
It’s supposed to be a party
Where are all the pretty girls
And why aren’t they with me?
Where’s all the happiness
I recently heard about and
What’s all this hype about
And why am I so alone?
If I were a rock star
Or big in the movies
If I drove a fast car
It would be groovy
If I had lots of money
The pretty little honeys
Would flock to my side
I wouldn’t have to hide
I wouldn’t be so fucked up
If I had power
The lovely little flowers
Would play with me for hours
These constant downpour showers
At last would finally stop
But I have none of the above
My bank account for love completely overdrawn
A swan shot down in flames
The names of all my lovers
Carved upon a heart of stone
And once again my night will end
And I’m still all alone
Honing killer instinct
Drinking bitter poison
Poised on the edge of destruction
Shunning human company forever
215
It’s really not that difficult
The cult of personality
Tenaciously affiliated
Sated with reality
Teasing my infinity
Sets my teeth on edge
Allegedly belligerent
Intelligent intentions
Senseless obligations
Impatient observations
Shunning muddy water
And leaping off the ledge
Slaughtering the weak
Meekly speaking words
Of wisdom birds in the
Third eye blinded
Dead of inability
A host of inequalities
Probably forgotten
Bought a diamond mine
I mind much less
The more I find
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The main thing was twist
A wistful situation
Just getting me pissed
One to another a mother or brother
Forget all the others
Follow the bouncing ball
The toll is paid all in all
Braided in steel at the mall
I feel like a martyr
At the heart of the sun
Exploding as one with a partner
Blistered my nerves like a soul sister
Soon as we kissed
217
I am dying crying eye don’t know why
not sure how
But please my God oh don’t look now
I am sick and tired whacked out
cracked up wired
Completely stoned and plowed
But please God oh don’t look now
I am rotting from the inside
Trying to hide the fear I feel
I fear that I will never heal
A page ripped from a book
I know how I must look
So oh my God please don’t look now
218
The dancers move in time
Flex twist bend and spin
Subtlety still sublime
Mind kiss soft like sin
Eloquent motion divine
Next bliss mends the twins
Passion devotion of mine
Entwined so deep within
The dancers drift apart
Break wheel dip and run
Turning back to start
Hearts burning like the sun
Advance pause shock retreat
Roll flip jump and fly
Impels emotion sweet
And pleases every eye
Including mine
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Lash out thrashing madly
Still unmoving stone
Sink down sadly
With a groan
Captured silence
Applied vigorously
To the bones
Of the youth
Who under duress
Undressed and
Told the truth
Cash in on the action
Place your bet right here
Drinking the captain
And wasting your tears
Random violence
Stoned garrulously
Babbling stupid
To the wall
Or an under impressed
And depressed
Book of Ruth
Destroyed the
Restless dreams
Of the uncouth
Perilously close
To a dose of
My own medicine
Handle that damn
Man handle
Jettison!
220
All right then
Here we go
Another town
And one more blow job
Show ‘em whatcha
Made of Johnny
One more hot shot
Caught in the snow job
Of
“on with the show”
Go fuck yourself
You dumb ass hoe
I know you knew
I never liked you
So think of this
As a spike as I shove it up your ass
Perhaps of late
My poems are filled
With hate you think
Riddled with holes of anguish
Languishing in pain and self pity
Hitting the bottle
Til it throttles me
But soon this too will pass
And until then though I hate
To use this word again
Until then the whole fuckin world
Can kiss my God damned ass
221
Call me she said
As the saying goes
Call me anything you want
But call before you go
When I woke up this morning
I did not know where I was
But then I guess I didn’t really care
Wherever here was here and I was there
Calling you
Calling out to you
When I woke up this morning
I did not know who she was
But then I guess I never really cared
I thought it was you but you weren’t
there
Calling me
Calling out for me
Call me she said
Everyone knows
What you call me afterwards
But call before you go
222
I don’t know who I am
I don’t know where I’m from
I don’t know why I came but
I know I like to come
I don’t know what I’m doing
I don’t know who I’m screwing
But I know she’s got big tits
And I know that I’m a skitz!
Skitz!
Who will I be tomorrow
And who am I today
I still steal, beg, and borrow
My personali-tay
When I forget my name
I know that I’m insane
So I just go get blitzed
‘cause I know that I’m a skitz!
Skitz!
Sometimes I am a lady
Sometimes I am a man
Some say I am crazy
I try the best I can
But I can only try
To find out who am I?
You wear the shoe that fits
And I am just a skitz!
Skitz!
223
U say U want this
U say U want that
U say U want me 2 dog u
So who’s that other cat? (me-ow!)
How about what I want? What about me?
U say U want someone
U say U want me
U say U want something different
What’s your cup of tea? (coffee)
You give me what I want then maybe we’ll see
U say U want diamonds
U say U want pearls
U say U want gold and silver
What else do you want girl? (the
world!)
U say U want passion
U say U want fire
U say U want cold hard cash
What else do you desire? (let’s get
wired!)
You give me I want then maybe we’ll
see?
U say U want kisses
U say U want wine
U say U want everything but
When do I get mine? (some other time...)
224
You
Re trying to make me crazy
But you will not succeed
I’ve seen your breed before
I know what you need
Bleed swift kick in the head
Or a short piece of lead pipe
I know your type
One critical big tit bitch
And I’d happily scratch your itch
With mister fist
You bet your hot sweet ass
That I won’t miss
I knew it was over
Even before we kissed
That’s two years ago
You’re just another stupid
Cupid cum and go twat
I been watching you close
I know your sore spots
Gonna stick my finger in
And give a twist
I know just what to do
To get you pissed
To make it hurt you
Like you hurt me
You were just another whore
For me to score with
I never even liked you
And love’s a total myth
Candlelight and roses and pure bull
shit (God! Am I pissed?)
225
What’s with the orange body paint?
I know I ain’t no saint
But even I don’t get it
Movin so fast I can’t clock it
I guess I’ll just have to chalk it
Up to proper maintenance
And what’s with the chainlink fence
And why am I on this chain gang?
I was wasted out of my mind
Gettin on that groove thang
Diggin on a pretty little bird
Til I heard those chimes ring
They were singing ding a dang ding
And dang a long ling long
Whoops I musta got caught
Stealing some kinda shit
From a pop song on the scene
Green and burstin at the seams
Drinking till I’m creaming
In my blue jeans screaming
No wonder I’m having these crazy
mother fucking dreams !
226
It’s gettin close now - yeah I can
feel it
There in the distance - so close at
hand
It’s gettin near now - it’s gettin
nearer
It’s almost here now - I see it
clearer
It’s gettin close now - so hard to see
It’s oh so close now - what could it
be?
Just round the corner - just past the
door
Could it be peace or - could it be
war?
Could it be silence? - could be a
shout
Could it be violence? - then let it
out!
227
Don’t panic I’ll get my manacles
I’m a miracle and I’m maniacal
Please don’t trip on the whips
As I wrap my chains around your hips
Face it you just love my bracelets
Tied to my bedpost you’ll remain
Don’t have to ask I’ll go and get my
leather mask
I must love the hours ‘cause the pains
the same
Whip (shh!) Ahh!
It’s the S & Mm rap!
Twist slap burn
Slice boom bang
Whip me beat me hurt me cheat me
Tie up and tickle my feet me
Hit me kiss me curse me dis me
But please never release me
I’ll bring you to tears so have no
fear
You’ll get just what you came for here
It’s true you’ve got a sexy bod but
Spoiled children get the rod
Come on I know you love bondage
And this is the best you’ll get
To nourishing punishment you’ll submit
Sweaty leather and feathers just get
you wet
Whip (shh!) Ahh!
It’s the S & M rap
Smack snap crack
Pinch punch pooch
Whip (shh!) Ahh!
It’s the S & M rap!
228
You are just like
Suicide
You’re just like suicide
You’re just like suicide
And you’re killing me
With a loving kiss
You slash my wrists
One single whiff
Throws me off the cliff
It gives me chills
To eat your pills
When we get close
I overdose
If when I die
The dive is dry
It’s very clear
You’ll shed no tears
And I would bet that if it’s wet
And I leap off into the deep
You would still be Satan’s daughter
Laughing as I hit the water
You are just like
Suicide
You’re just like suicide
You’re just like suicide
And you’re killing me
Your sweet refrain
Blows out my brains
And throws me under
Freight train thunder
Your grace and poise
Would taste like poison
The words you’ve spoken
Just leave me choking
So simply crushed
By that blue bus
My love and trust
Rusty and dusted
In the end around that bend
Tossed and turned crashed and burned
That soft touch ran me off the road
In secret code as I exploded
229
Gotta havit baby
Gotta givita me
Gotta gettit
Gotta gettit
Wannababy
Needjababy
Loveyababy
Anything ya wanna hear
Beg borrow or steal
Or give up my beer
But I’ve just got to have
Your love
230
Blondies straight from Norway
Brunettes from the south
Beauties from Thailand
Reds from the island
It isn’t the shape of the words
It’s the shape of the mouth
Thank heaven for all kinds of girls
Blue eyes from Finland
Brown from Beiruit
Irish eyes green
They’re the sweetest I’ve seen
But it’s not the look of the tree
It’s the taste of the fruit
And I‘m feeling hungry
White skin from England
The Indies brown best
I truly love all of
The red and the olive
But above all I value
The feel of the breast
Thank heaven for all kinds of girls
It isn’t the mouth
The legs or the eyes
The shape feel or size
Who cares what color hair
Or clothes or skin
What matters the most is within
What the hell
I couldn’t resist
231
Cool vibe
Gotta gimme dat
Cool vibe
Knick nack
Paddy wack
Little black laddie (yo!)
Sweet mack daddy-go!
Givin little doggie the bone
If ya know what I’m sane
I ain’t weighin the odds
I’m playin ‘em
And I’m stayin on
That cool vibe
Kickin it out
That cool vibe
Slick black
Cadillac
Stretch limousine (oh?)
Know what I mean? (no.)
Cell-u-lar mobile phone
I can’t complain
The main thing’s ride
Spread it far and wide
And get up inside
That cool vibe
Layin it down
Cool vibe
Goin to town
On that cool vibe
Ah give it up
Sunshine
Fun time
Lickety split
Git down on the ground
With the sound of the
Round mound poundin
Headed for town
Bound for renown
Wit dat
Cool vibe
Keep it goin
Cool vibe
Steady on
Cool vibe
Dig it deeper
Cool vibe
232
Jungle sounds
Surround me
Typewriters
And Cadillacs
So far away
And I am free
I’m on the run
No office phones
Around me
No fax machines
Or dull routines
To cloud my day
And I am free
I’m on the run
Feet on the ground
No one to hound me
No dumb headlines
No damn deadlines
No skies of gray
And I am free
I’m on the run
233
It was late
One summer night
Down by the lake
We had all
The love that
That we could take
Consummate
We slipped between
The worlds of time
And sent a call
To mother earth
In simple rhyme
Isis Astarte
Diana Hecatate
Demeter Kali
Inanna
We went straight
Through gated
Sunlight to a star
And crossed
Orgasm chasm
With a flower
234
To each his own
They say you reap
What you’ve sown
Different folks
Seem to like
Different strokes
Different smokers
Like different tokes
But this time
The joke’s on me
Cause we all dance! Party! Dance!
Party!
One man’s poison
Is another’s meat
One woman’s cold
Is another man’s heat
Some men like ankles
And some like feet
And you can’t beat
That with a bat
Cause we all dance and party!
The beauty of
Diversity
Living with
Adversity
Convicted for
Complicity
Gonna have our own
Political party
We are the dance and party!
One man’s trip is
Another’s fall
Youth culture’s hip
So hop on the ball
One person’s groovy’s
Another man’s drag
One woman’s man is
Another man’s fag
So let’s dance
And party
Dance and party
Dance and party
‘til the end
235
I was standing in a window
Looking outside at the falling snow
Listening to the wind blow
I was wondering which way to go
Left! Right! Left! Right!
I was standing on a corner of the sky
Watching all the ladies passing by
Wishing one would look into my eyes
And throw away her cold frightened
disguise
(But she keeps walking)
Left! Right! Left! Right!
I was standing on a balcony
Staring at the ground below me
Stepping off the edge is easy
Heads up down there please
And they run
Left! Right! Left! Right!
236
This space dedicated to lack of
inspiration
237
I want you
I don’t care what you think of my
music
I’m not livin in fear for my soul
Got what I got and I know I’m gonna
use it
Need that rock in my roll
I don’t care why you’re hiding that
secret
I only know that I know what I know
Really don’t care what you say so just
keep it
You know just where you can go
-- Chorus
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
And I don’t know what’s wrong with you
I can’t see why you don’t seem to
Want to get along with me
I don’t know what’s wrong with me
I don’t know what’s wrong with you
I can’t see why we can’t seem to
Figure it out
But I want you
I don’t care what you think of my
habits
That’s only on the outside of my stone
See what I want so I reach out and
grab it
Givin little doggie a bone
I want U
I don’t care what you say about this
And I have no opinion on me
I’m not sayin I’m missin your kiss
But I miss the way that we used to be
-- Solo
I don’t care for your bitter sarcasm
I got no use 4 your bullshit lines
I know that everyone wants an orgasm
Tell me when I’m gettin mine
I don’t care for the tone of your
voice
I won’t listen to what you say
You were the one who made that choice
I was only there for the lay
I want U
-- Chorus
I want U
What ever happened to love me sweet
daddy
Never had anyone feels so good
You thought you couldn’t the moment I
saw you
I just knew that you would
I want I
Power is passion and passion is
pleasure
I just can’t emphasize this too much
Sweet water splash in a heat beyond
measure
Crucify me with your touch
I want U
238
Rip up my lips
Trip on my sarcasm
Orgasmic phantasm
Now it’s just a dream
What the fuck am I
Doing here and how
Did I get here?
High as a kite and
Bursting at the seems
Seems to me that I must’ve
Been here before
I more or less remember this place
Hypnotized red curtain
Nightmare a dream
Oh God please help me
Now I’m doing it again
Good evening bob
Good morning daddy
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Grinding the fine stone to sand
There in your hand
Your sweet aging grandfather
Wielding the brand
God dammit man
Can’t you just be?
Fuck you
I can’t see
My God I’m blind
Don’t take the ring
Stay away from me
I am the arm
Please don’t tie me up
Don’t make me do this
The glass
Is under
The bag
The glass
Is under
The bag
The glass
Is under
The bag
The glass
Is under
The bag
The glass
Is under
The bag
The glass
Is under
The bag
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Adrift on a sea of assumptions
Coincidental victim
Consequential vacuum
Of circumstantial
Circumspection
Circumventing
Their conventions
Emotionless notions
Of motionless oceans
Of chance
Lifting the green purple curtains
Aside from obligations
Derived from litigation
Dislocating
Subjugating
Flagellating
Masturbating
Their hatred
Lately sated
By romance
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It’s been too long
I’m slacking off
But that sure beats
Meat jacking off
Just one piece
Releasing me
Fill it up with grease
4 just one piece
A brand new song
To get it on
To too much heat
So don’t let on
Just one rock
Jock strapping me
He’ll suck your cock
4 just one rock
Hot sweet poon tang
Grooving in
Shanghai gang bang
Moving in
(Just 1 piece...) Hmm.. Sounds like I
just want peace
Sipping from the cup
Getting it on out
Tripping way on up
No sweat just sweat it out
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I guess I caught your eye
Or was it my breath I caught
I caught cold again that week
But then the weakness soon subsided
I decided I would spend
A winter weekend with you
I thought of you a lot
You’re not what I would’ve thought
I bought gold again this week
I brought the sleek miss here divided
We collided in the end
Intertwined again with you
Slip into that knotty slot
Trip on you that naughty slut
Drip on this you pretty nut
We all know what it comes to but
We do it any way (and we know when to
run)
It was hot inside
Or maybe I was hot
It was not that you were meek
But I was bold and you peeked from
hiding
I was riding peak to peak
Weaving tangled strangled
Webs again with you
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Sweet high heels for breakfast
Four inch spike hello
Guess I must be going
Yes I’ve got to go
Yellow dress at lunchtime
Mini skirt for brunch
Silk and lace for dinner
Beat me to the punch
Leather pumps at tea time
Slip into the cracks
A strumpet with a crumpet
A little midnight snack
Cowboy boots and spurs
Diamond rings and furs
243
Weathervane
The storm comes
Swiftly
A hollow wind
On icy hallowed
Ground
The ripped off
Door is set adrift
As I go wandering
Wondering
Hurricane
The snow whips
Shifting
In sorrow fills
The morrow with its
Sound
The grip of war
May never lift yet
Still I sit here slandering
And pondering
Gone insane
The rain pours
Beating
Down in sheets it
Pounds
I trip and fall
Into the rift
Of further endless pandering
And floundering
244
Like Onan who spilt his seed upon the
earth
So I sit and squander the talents of
my birth
When in danger or in doubt
Run in circles scream and shout
I spew out verse like wads of jizz
And shake my beer to watch it fizz
To indulge my bent for pointless rhyme
Because it’s just a waste of time
And use words no one ever does
The only answer is “because”
245
It’s a crisis of belief!
Exclaimed the martyred thief
The king with his eyes torn out must
die
He forgot his name and so did I
You get what’s comin 2 U it comes back
And you stare as opposites attract
Lamb to the slaughter coming of age
Out on the stage like fish out of
water
246
The ice flows downstream
As the water climbs higher
And I watch from above
Like a bird on a wire
Black cat in my window
Eyes glazed with desire
Stares in mute passion
At the bird on a wire
With a glance at the clock
We slowly retire
To the view from my bedroom
A bird on a wire
She swears til she’s blue
But it’s clear she’s a liar
Alone in the cold
Like a bird on a wire
Frozen and frightened
Forlorn and tired
You just want to fly
Like a bird from a wire
Drink this bottle of red
Shed your evening attire
And we’ll dance til the dawn
Like two birds on a wire
O my sweet king of rye
Eat your pie, dearest sire
Those twenty-four blackbirds
Were once on a wire
So get out your rifles
And ready, aim, fire
There’s only one left
And he’s up that wire
This metaphor fascinates me
Squeal little piggy
Kneel down in the mire
And screech for it just like
A bird on a wire
Miss where are you going
I beg to inquire
She said out on a limb
Like a bird on a wire
247
The way you’re going
You know that there’s no turning
Back (repeat as a mantra)
248
Y’know
I feel like I need a rest from the
rest of my rest and I must go pick up my vest where ever I left it and I know
I’ve got a test coming up soon…I think. Where’s my drink? I feel less than
blessed at best because when I got dressed this morning I messed up the tie I
was pressing and I burnt a hole with the iron in somebody’s wife’s dresser
drawers and don’t ask me which iron clad alibi I’m gonna try this time cause by
this time I’ve missed the bus
So I’m walkin on thin ice with my
reflection in the mirror I can tell cause he’s plainly disgusted with me ...
And then the alarm goes off. So, I won’t bore you with the rest of my vacation,
but that’s why I need a rest from the rest of my rest.
249
Come on just admit it
You know that you did it
Don’t you try to hide it
Why even deny it?
You can’t fool me no more
So why did you do it
I got you nailed so screw it
You had me but you blew it
Guess I always knew it
You can’t fool me no more
Loose you had to bind it
Up front you get behind it
But lost you had to find it
Guess you didn’t mind it
You can’t fool me no more
Lost you couldn’t save it
I had it all and gave it
Sweet love just enslave it
Bring it here I’ll shave it
You can’t fool me no more
Well, maybe
250
Writing is the killer’s art from dream
to dream the dear depart til carted away on a slab from the very moment you
started you stare at the black cat bewildered til stillness drizzles down your
blizzard fizzling out about the time you seem to run in circles scream and
shout when no one listens only then you pout about the coat your porcupining for
wait til you see what’s in store for you my fine fur friend I’ll rend you limb
from limb until you shiver with anticipation paralyze this naked nation Caped
Crusader tie her down and rape her after all she is your country bumpkin Tommy
Lumpkin
It’s the great pumpkin Charlie Brown I
tell you it is so. Junk.
251
Sweet hot sweat
Abandon ship
Trip out on
My candle stick
The wick so
Freshly trimmed
I grimly
Greased the
Trainman’s handle
Quickly licking
Looking back
I see the train
Roll off the tracks
252
Out at the edge
It gets lonely and cold
The bold only
Venture there
Rarely
Here at the tip
It drips silent and holds
The old violent
Vulture quite
Tightly
Close to the rim
Sons and daughters
Slaughtered the young guns
Culture? Fight
Nightly
Then at the end
The tough stay alive
Surviving enough
Nature’s there
But just barely
Just barely
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If excellence is dead then let it be
And long, long live mediocrity
He’s thin he wears new shoes and
skinny ties
A blue Armani suit to boot - just to
match his eyes
Jazz is his passion
And he knows that he’s hip
‘cause it’s in fashion
And you know how the ladies love a
star...
(Hey Mr. Generic jazz chord? I’m
bored)
He buys his music and shoes in the
same place
Never had the blues always a smile on
his face
There in the mirror
He smooths back his hair
‘cause he’s a hero
And he knows how the ladies love his
car...
(There’s nowhere left to hide so take
a ride)
The producer and promoters say he’s
great
Money in the bank to thank for his
brand new estate
He’s a musician
Or so he thinks
Because of his position
Yet he forgets he started in a bar
(But I don’t want to think so let’s
have a drink)
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Harsh feelings and harsher words
Screaming so loudly I barely heard
What I was saying
A painful memory I lost my cool
Too blind to see the angry fool
I was playing
But after all I only called to say I’m
sorry
It hurts me too to fight the dragon
Don’t mean to brag but I am on the
wagon
I blame myself for your defection
It must be hard to be the object
Of a madman’s affection
But after all I only called to say I’m
sorry
Pride’s a painful thing to swallow
But I must admit I’d be happy to
follow
You anywhere
I guess I do have an agenda I
surrender
I need your body but I want to be your
friend
Because I care
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Waiting I expose my hunger
Underneath the moon
Naked I accept my thunder
Stick beside my spoon
Knowing what I hunt for
Doesn’t make it simple yet
At least I know what I hunt for
Is something I can get
Straining with my intellect
I check against the reins
Sprawled upon the muddy plains
Calling down the drowning rain
Schizophrenic frantic
Manic panic in my eye
The difference is semantic
Now I’m going off to die
256
I’m no longer so concerned with what I
mean
As with what I sound like I mean
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Erin - it began April 4th, 1990
To hunt is too sweet. To catch sweeter
still. To feed upon the kill.
But obsessions can run deep as the
ocean. And my emotions have caused me to make The mistake of losing sight of
the point of what I was writing
The cake I was eating was just a
chance meeting of the flesh enmeshed in a mess of Lies and distress, caressing
your guest exempt from the rest of the world for a while
Happily wandering lost in a smile.
What do I say of a casual lay from the
past I can’t get past?
As I sit here puzzling
The beer I’ve been guzzling
Is killing me fast.
She was. Blond. And I eyed her blue
eyes ‘til they cried on my shoulder. A little bit older than I. A painter by
trade and we made a good couple if I say so myself. Thin and quite pale she
came from Australia she said and down under she was. And though she often
looked harried, I must say I liked her because she was...well, married. Sexily
smoking her tight Camel Lites, I frequently noticed her pretty ass passing.
So while laughing at an unspoken joke,
I one day walked up and asked for a smoke, though I didn’t (much) and asked her
name
Which is Erin and I therein replied
mine’s Andy.
And she smiled like candy as I took my
leave.
That evening as I lay in bed, sweet
thoughts of her fairly danced in my head and not of the she who was with me.
As the days came and went I was
watching her, pent up
Emotions still bent on expression
lying spent on the pavement,
And waiting...
This leading to that my neighbor
upstairs was engaged in affairs
With my girlfriend (the one I must’ve
been ignoring) so while I was snoring the sweet little slut was out happily
whoring.
So carrying on the next dawn I
informed the nice lass after much broken glass and more drunkenness that I also
was leaving and hardly
Even grieving at all save the loss of
a friend and I never expected to see her again which I did but then only for
sex.
Had the name Kerri Ann of all things
and she called herself Zerheva or something such weird and much as I feared she
ended up funked up on drugs with some punk boy named Troy and I swear that
that’s true.
Then after many long weekends
I returned my attention to what I’d
been missing
Forgetting the taste of the lips I was
kissing
Toward the blue eyes I had missed
And realized the only thing needed was
twist
And I twisted my fingers
Around her gold ring.
So flinging aside all the pride and
ambition
Of her dear husband’s pompously high
pay position
We engaged in a raging act of
contrition
And she willingly spread herself out
on the floor
(Though not without encouragement)
And I bent her round bedposts which
scarcely were there.
So Fridays became days of regular lays
And my schoolwork suffered slightly
Which I rightly considered quite next
on the list
And we drank much and we pissed away
Lots of good times.
I suppose those who’ve noticed
Or been through such things
Can easily guess the direction this
goes
But the fine sex and finer champagne
Simply must be to blame
(Though it seems rather lame looking
back)
Yet I blindly ran forth not too sorry
to say
Straight into rejection
Plunged into deep water
While holding my nose
(As it were)
Still her wit and her guile
Hold me fastly bespelled
Though I held on as long as I could
And would’ve held longer
But his money was stronger
Though we spent it as much as we could
And she tearfully smiled
And picked him over me
I’m not quite sure why I succumbed
To the numbing soft wetness
That so swiftly comes
But I bet more than one man
Has handed his soul
For much less than this
And I kissed her goodbye and went on
with my list
Of jovial misses I’d missed on the way
But the long and the short is
She’s quite a good lay.
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Now
I’m beginning to find this unceasing
grind a little too much and I’m starting to think that I’m losing my mind which
is not a great loss but my old mental floss starts to grow a bit thin and I’ve
been a bit stressed out of late as my mate has become rather sadly estranged and
my range of emotion’s getting way out of range but I s’pose if I rose up to
meet this malaise I’d be beaten and bloody and still get no raise so instead of
defending this bend in my brain where I think is the best place for facing such
pain I’d rather not mend fences I’ve never built so I’ll pick up my guilt by
the hilt and I’ll slay the sad monster I laid but not ’til I’m flayed within
inches of life or she gets out her knife whichever comes first but the worst is
now overcoming the grief of this brief sweet encounter though I’d willingly
mount her again if I can and still will but it’s such a bitter pill that I
wonder if I’m not just too over the hill and under the dale that the pale
little witch with red hair might just be the end of me dead in a ditch but I’ll
be damned if I’ll send in the crack troops and quietly stand in the rear
shaking wildly with fear of the trite little fight which my God given rights
specifically state that I happily might sighting all of those slightly white
nightmares as laws entirely tired of tiredly trying to right a great wrong on
the passage I’m buying so I willingly massage my poor damaged ego to the point
of orgasm but this unflinching phantasm of evil will keep on coming on with her
beguiling feminine whiles whilst I’m trying to think of a plan of attack I
stand with my back on the brink of disaster I think and I think I’d be better
in a triangle pink but I’m really a criminal awaiting a trial for the children
and virgins I gladly defiled empowering my glowering phantom who’s showering
those women and children that I’ve been deflowering with diamonds and blood of
the innocents that if I had any inner sense I’d not be in here cowering from
yet come hell or high water I’d happily slaughter but the daughters of man keep
me weeping in pain ‘til the hole in my brain starts me molting the feathers I’m
shedding are the only things really that keep me from bolting out to the edge
and across the abyss I’m surprised that I’d do it all just for a kiss but I
simply must trust my instinctual thinking or else face the prospect of
constantly sinking into this morass of good sex and worse drinking monstrously
eating the whore I’ve been beating unseating the gods from their cold thrones
of gold and I’m starting to think that I’m just growing old so I boldly step
out to where angels won’t tread to discover this mess is all just in my head
drowning in oceans of bloody red beds shedding the skin of the beast I’ve wed
‘til the monster I’ve bred can be finally fed
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Why bother?
The more I think about it
The less sense it makes
The more I try to give
The more that it takes
But that’s the breaks I guess
We’re in this mess together
But sometimes I’ve got to wonder
Why bother?
Why bother with me?
Why bother with you?
Why bother with this?
Why bother with that?
Why bother to see?
There’s nothing to do
Why bother to think?
Why bother to act?
Perhaps I shouldn’t worry
That the pace is too fast
We’re all in a hurry
And nothing ever lasts
So for the past we grieve
And you leave me for another
Sometimes I have to wonder
Why bother?
Why bother to shoot?
Why bother to miss?
Why bother to run?
Why bother to hide?
Why bother to hug?
Why bother to kiss?
If it’s going to rain
Then stay inside
I suppose I think too much
To ever find the answer
I’m so out of touch
The dance becomes the dancer
Chance can be a mother
So blame it on the weather
Sometimes I’ve got to wonder
Why bother?
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Stop the music baby
I wanna get off
Off center off sides
Off balance off stride
Beside the carnival rides
Three red beds on the tide
And a clown who couldn’t hide
Stop the music man
I wanna get off
Off kilter off beat
Off time off key
Get off my ass get off my cloud
Get off my block get off my ...
Get your fuckin jumbo jet off my
airport!
Stop the music baby I wanna get off
Off the ice off the field
Just cool off! What’s the deal?
A tortured mind of gold
A fortune in the fold
A snake that must be rode
(Ridden! Rode! Ridden!)
Time to get off again
Mother always told me there’d be days like
these
Mother always told me there’d be days
like these
Mother always told me there’d be days
like these
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Move and groove
In French trouver
Means to find
And I don’t mind
If I find a treasure trove
While walkin through your lovely grove
Marching lurch
In French cherchez
Means look
But I won’t look
For what you took
From the naked alter church
A painted bird upon a perch
262
I’m addicted
Conflicting moments
Want to I got to
But I just can’t
It’s tricky business
I’m addicted
I’m addicted
Addicted to love
Addicted to sex
Addicted to cash
Addicted to cheques
Addicted to reds
Addicted to blues
Addicted to who?
I’m addicted to you
All of you
I’m addicted
Conflicting feelings
Want to I got to
But I just can’t
My sense is reeling
I’m addicted
I’m addicted
Addicted to wine shirts lust
Addicted to beer hats dust
Addicted to pain this hugs
Addicted to fear that drugs
Addicted to nails skirts coke
Addicted to screws shoes booze
Addicted to who? But most of all
I’m addicted to you I’m addicted to you
All of you
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I see that look in your eyes
I think I know what it means
That feeling I just despise
You’re having one of your dreams
I wish that you realized
That this is not what it seems
If I removed my disguise
You might be creaming your jeans
A shake a hot dog some fries
And then some sticky ice cream
Your soft gentle cries
And my passionate screams
Then our pretty white lies
Come apart at the seams
So who gets the prize
And who just gets reamed?
264
Sometimes I hear music
And it gets me right here
I have to tap my foot
And maybe wipe away a tear
It always makes me feel much better
When I can hum along
I haven’t heard that song
In such a long time (cont. a la Carole
King)
265
I can feel me changing
The stage is set for raging
I can’t contain my feelings
Bouncing off the ceiling
I can’t stand the weight of waiting
When I should be out creating
I can feel the shifting
At last the clouds are lifting
The sand of time is destructive
These hands of mine constructive
Work is now a recreation
While I finish my creation
I am almost breathing
My emotions always seething
Hotter by the breath until
At last in death I will
Defeat the past escaping
From the self that I’ve been raping
266
When the sadness becomes too heavy and
the sorrow too much to bear
I can’t face tomorrow I and I just
don’t even care
I fall to my knees and cry and I don’t
know what to do
That’s when I run to you
When all my life’s in darkness and I
drown in my tears
I’m down so I strike a spark and I’m
exploding in fear
I look into the sky but then the
clouds obscure the blue
That’s when I run to you
When I am so unhappy I just feel like
a fool
I try to steal away before I lose my
cool
A slave to my emotions in an ocean of
booze
And I can’t run to you
U feel me up when I am down - U knock
me down when I am high
You turn my world around - make me
laugh when I cry
When I’m locked inside myself - you
bring a room with a view
That’s why I run to you
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The eyes I noticed first
And then I saw the thirst
The thrust of which
I itched for
The more I looked
The more I liked
What I was seeing
At last her pretty
Attitude was passing
By my latitude
And with a platitude I
Offered her my number
And humbly smiled
When she dialed it
And can’t help but think
As I watch the spring rain
I should watch out for
Women on trains
268
Intense powerful
Beautiful passionate
Perfect centered
One unafraid
Smooth elegant motion
Still as stone or steel
Yet elastic
269
I found an angel on the wing
On an island in the sky
Now I can’t see a thing
And it’s no wonder why
I want to scream and shout it
And take her to the peak
There’s no doubt about it
She so freaky
A queen for all to see
With fire in her eye
To climb her lovely mountains
And drink her ocean dry
A bird too free to capture
A kiss upon the cheek
I stand and stare enraptured
She so freaky
An ageless raging beauty
Too fine for line and verse
This passionate desire
Can only make things worse
My heart too fast to measure
My mouth too dry to speak
I gaze upon her treasure
She so freaky
270
I’m so sad today I don’t know
What’s wrong with me
I just wanna lay down and
Die right here
I can’t even shed a tear
I’m so sad today
Choking on loneliness
How’d I get in this mess
Smoking my cigarette
Drinking that Glenlivet
Still hasn’t killed me yet
Drunken and innocent
I wish it would
I know it could
Broken dreams all around
Demons surround me
Sweet agonies abound
This hell just hounds me
Don’t I use me a lot?
Must be those drugs I bought
Don’t know how you found me
But you might as well
Drown me right now
271
I got 2 ax U
A question I ax
Do U wanna
Get down 2
Subliminal fax
A fly in the ointment
A ball in the wax
Get back on the mike
Cause it’s time 2 attack
I got 2 sistahs
Wit natural stacks
Who wanna get down 2
2 down on their backs
Cute booty zoot suit and
A newt in my sack
A train in the rain
And the pain in my tracks
Red satin, silk, and those
Tight purple slacks
Stretched cross the back
Like a man on the rack
Slick black lace bra and
A quick knife called mack
She’ll cut off your balls
So jerk off jack
(Fuck off, jerk!)
272
Miso no koro
Center on positive things
Get off emotional jones
Fire the cannon and sing
I’m finally rollin my own
Balance on the tip of your grip
Slip off the chain of your fear
Tear off a page of your pain
And strain out the salt of your tears
Focus on happiness now
Cause now is all that you’ve got
Caught with your hand on the plow
Pretending U R what you’re not
Blot out the stain of the past
At last it’s plain to be seen
The green of your gain is the mast
Of a ship that’s a little too clean
Awakening now to a new day
Confident more than before
Solid as stone in a good way
Still water mind always scores
Still water mind always scores
Still water mind always scores
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anbieten
anfangen to offer to start
beginnen
bekommen to begin to receive
finden und
fallen to find and to
fall
haben und
halten to have and to
hold
ich und du I and you
auf und zu open and shut
langsamer slowly
klingen kennen to come to know
verbringen
singen to spend time to
sing
essen und
trinken to eat and to
drink
rennen und
springen to run and to jump
ich und du I and you
auf und zu open and shut
langsamer slowly
geben gefallen to give to be pleasing
gewinnen
gelingen to win to succeed
erfahren und
wachsen to learn and to grow
fuhlen und
fullen to feel and to
fill
ich und du I and you
auf und zu open and shut
langsamer slowly
bitten bleiben to plead to stay
schweigen
schreien to be silent to
scream
versprechen
und verlieren to promse and to lose
sinken und
leiden to sink and to
suffer
bedeuten
verlieben to mean to love
sich erholen to recover
274
The moment I saw U I could tell right
away
That U were the 1 I’ve been trying to
find
4 so long
Your eyes shone so brightly I just had
to say
That U could be the 1 I’ve been dying
to find
4 so long
Sexy coy beauty and passion sublime
We’ll have such fun if U call me
sometime
I’ll be so strong
Baby let’s be lovers
The 2nd I kissed U I wanted 2 needed 2
stay
2 bask in the light of your sensual
mind
‘til I’m burning
The heat of your sweetness grows hot
with delay
2 stare at the sun of your love ‘til
I’m blind
And I’m burning
Still even the gods face the limit of
time
Will you be gone or will you be mine
Let’s not go wrong
Baby let’s be lovers
275
I wouldn’t die lonely in my bed
Or wake up with my head on fire
In dire straits of evil dread
If I could only bear the wire
I wouldn’t feel so sad and dead
Or break up with my hearts desire
Untie her from my blood so red
I’d only need to bare the wire
I don’t remember what I said
Or things I did in flaming ire
But I could keep the hunger fed
If I could only bear the wire
I’d never dare where angels tread
Or watch the devil climbing higher
To stare like Christ at broken bread
While Judas tries to bare the wire
I wouldn’t seek oblivion
Or die like highway carrion
And I could surely carry on
If I could only bear the wire
I wouldn’t be so on the edge
Wedged into a funeral pyre
Drowning in the mucky mire
Crying ‘cause I just can’t bare the
wire
276
Now I know where I need to go
Now I know where the flowers grow
Now I know where the river flows
Now I know where the whistle blows
And if I’m going nowhere too
I hope I get there soon
Now I know where the angels tread
Now I know where to get my bread
Know I know where the muse has fled
Now I know where to lay my head
And if I’m going nowhere too
I hope I get there soon
Now I know where the angels cry
Now I know where the eagles fly
Now I know where the children die
Now I know where the kids get high
And if I’m going nowhere too
I hope I get there soon
277
Kiss so soft - hurt so bad
Be so happy - get so mad
I’m the best and worst you’ve had
I guess we’re lovers and fighters
Losers in love
Smile so sweet - cut so deep
A hold so tight that you can’t keep
Both wide awake and sound asleep
We remain lovers and fighters
Losers in love
Punch so hard a kind caress
Wanting more and getting less
Curse so loud my soul to bless
Still we’re just lovers and fighters
Losers in love
A ring of gold as cold as ice
An aisle filled with grains of rice
This lonely room was once so nice
We were once lovers and fighters
Losers in love
Tears of joy and tears of pain
Your angry screams a sweet refrain
An empty bed with sheets still stained
From the last of us - lovers and
fighters
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88
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352
Excuse me
22
I feel so good I must be dead
Does it move you like it moves me
I’m just kidding who’s this
Can I pull him by his hair?
What is he eating?
Something happened
Is that the way it was?
Stand it up blue bird in my window
Ashes ashes we all fall down
And everybody falls like crazy, right?
Yeah I got rid of that soon as I got
it
With joy and that guy
You ready for me?
Are you ready?
Well don’t worry
Open close open
All right I’ll wait for you
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I want a piece of everything
A little bit of heaven
Gonna go on tour on a 747
Driving in a bus is
Just getting me down
In and out of every little
One horse town
Playing every little bar
From here to kingdom come
And all because I wanna
Get to number one
I want a piece of everything
A little bit of heaven
Gonna go on tour on a 747
Getting on a train
Just gimme me a pain
It puts a major strain
Right upon my brain
Boats aren’t any better
Cause it always rains
I’d really like it more
If we could take a plane - chorus (take off, eh?)
Doing 95 on hi 66
And gettin your kicks
All soft and slick
With the pretty little chicks
But those little white lines
Makin me insane (sniff)
Forget ridin the rails
Let’s take a plane
I want a piece of everything
A little bit of heaven
Gonna go on tour on a 747
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I’m waiting on you once again
Don’t know if you’re gonna come
It’s giving me a pain I’ll make it
plain
I’m feeling kinda dumb
You’re always late
I’m tired of waiting
I’ll say I’m kinda bored
And then some
Standing by my window pane
Wonder when you’re getting here
It’s not as if you’re on a train
You’re driving me to tears
It’s a crime
You waste my time
When are you gonna get it
Into gear
You’re cutting cross my grain
And I am getting rather mad
And if you took a plane
You’d still be late it’s so bad
I could’ve had a date
But you’re so late
Now I can’t get what I
Could’ve had
281
Mimi at the airport
Mimi at the bar
Mimi in your brand
Spankin new jaguar
Mimi at the office
Mimi after school
Mimi on the tennis court
Mimi in the pool
Mimi in the hallway
Mimi at the park
Mimi in the sunset
Mimi after dark
Mimi in the penthouse
Mimi up in heaven
Mimi down in hello! Look at that!
Mimi in the back yeah
Mimi in the front
Mimi in ya hot sweet tight
White fox hunt
282
Same old game again
It’s getting old
I’m getting tired
Lame old came again
My soul is sold
My spirit wired
I’ve got to cut you loose
Be free
It was fun back then
I’m feeling cold
But I’m on fire
There are other men
And I’ve been told
I’m her desire
I’ve got to cut you loose
Be free
What a drag
283
You might get hurt
I might get hurt
There’s no chance for us
Love’s too dangerous
A stone that is thrown into the water
Sinks so fast
A pearl that is cast before the swine
Will never last
Chorus
A flower that is planted in the mud
Will never grow
A river that is dammed will be a lake
Before you know
Chorus
A mountain tall and mighty still will
crumble
To the sea
The ocean of our fear is what lies
‘tween
You and me
Chorus
A heavy cloud’s a curtain on a sky
that’s
Soon to rain
A certain friend of mine must run and
hide to
Stop the pain
Chorus
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Idle worship
O holy holy give thanks and praise
The mother father of our souls
Abandons us to raise
A storm cloud high and mighty striking
down the infidel
Hurrying so to heaven that they find
themselves in hell
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Someone I remember
There’s someone I forget
Someone I’m afraid of
And it’s someone I just met
When I’m cold and dry as stone
She makes me warm and wet
There are some things I have always
had
And some I’ve yet to get
It’s just one more thing
Got to let it go
Burn it all away
Sometimes I remember
Something I forgot
Some things I have gotten
And some things I have not
Kisses I have stolen
Were sometimes dearly bought
Sometimes I escape but then
I find I’m caught
With just one more thing
Got to let it go
Burn it all away
There are some things that I wish for
And some things that I need
And sometimes when she cut me
I was much too quick to bleed
She said that I’m so hungry
I take too much to feed
Of all the things we planted
Not one made it to seed
It’s just one more thing
Got to let it go
Burn it all away
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I was drivin Route 100
Late that night as I recall
That barmaid sure was pretty
And the drinks she made were tall
But I didn’t see the trooper
Hidin out behind the bar
Yet I surely saw the rollers
Shinin blue atop his car
Trooper page trooper page
Please don’t lock me in that cage
I’m quite mature for a man my age
Besides I just got off the stage
I guess he was not impressed
By the look of his new guest
So he stood me by the headlights
And made me take the test
Though I thought I walked quite steady
He was ready with the cuffs
He said boy I think that you’ve been
Drinkin more than just enough
He dragged me to the station
And he read me all my rights
He said I think I can keep you here
At least a couple nights
I contact my attorney
And I contract him to plead
My defense dear sir you honor
One big break is all I need
Well I guess that judge’s breakfast
Wasn’t quite as nice as mine
Cause he took away my license
And he slapped me with a fine
But I’m not too unhappy
Cause at least I’m still alive
And I’ve surely learned my lesson
Not to drink when I must drive
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I do what I can then I can what I do
I’m only a man and she was only a
screw
I know what I know you know that it’s
true
I think what I think and I think you
do to
I paint what I see from my own point
of view
I write down what I hear I guess I’m a
thief too
I dry my own tears but you untangle my
blues
When you run from your fears it’s
straight to you know who
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Sweet as candy
Chocolate bunny
Honey you’re a feast oh
Next thing y’know
She’s my whole
Funky cold soul sistah
Ride!
Swung my baseball
Bat at that y’know
I shoulda missed her
Scratch that itch yeah
She’s my bitchen
Funky soul sistah
Right!
Vanilla fudge that
Killer sludge as
Soon as I kissed her
Sang that tune yeah
Be my poontang
Funky cold sistah
Mine!
289
To drink from your lips
The sweetest wine
And tango on the roof
A quiet cloudy New York night
You’re my living proof
Sul Ange so long
I know that it’s true
You’re leaving soon
Tomorrow you’ll be gone
Left cold and empty as the moon
Yet hot as the roof we danced upon
So long Sul Ange
I licked the salt
From your slender throat
Drank your ocean dry
Too proud to beg too dumb to steal
But not too proud to cry
Sul Ange so long
You feel my touch
My tender hand
Caressing yours and then
You’re gone and
All that I can do
Is hope we meet again
So long Sul Ange
290
Y’know I always wanted someone like
you
Who speaks good French the way you do
But now today it’s laissez faire
An evening turned into a love affair
Pretty little dancer come dance with
me
High upon a rooftop in New York City
Fait accompli cherie the deed is done
I hope some day that I can be the one
Let me be the one
You’re so tres chic my love and that’s
a fact
Feelin like y’givin me a heart attack
Y’makin me salty & I make you
sweet
Qu’est que ce you make me so complete
Drinkin that fine wine straight from
your lips
Set me on fire with y’ fingertips
Y’know I hope you’ll soon fly back for
more
L’amour toujours my darling I’m so
sure
Let me be the one
They say good things must come to
those who wait
Y’can’t fool fate now so don’t be late
You’ve got heart cherie tu as mon
couer
You make good love tu fais le bon
amour
I just can’t wait til you come back to
me
But que sera yeah what will be must be
And if you do come back I hope you’ll
stay
Till then I’ll think about you every
day
Let me be the one
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I C U giving him the eye
Trying to act like you’re not
I C U reaching for the sky
Crying because you have not
Don’t pretend with me
I C U with another guy
Sighing softly when you’re caught
I C U flying oh so high
Buying more of what you bought
Don’t pretend with me
I C U dreaming of success
At best we’re mimicking the rest
I C U screaming more or less
A messy lesson in duress
Don’t pretend with me
I C U with your treasure chest
You slowly get undressed
I C U jumping from your nest
Imagining that you are blessed
Don’t pretend with me
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It hurts so badly
Like it’s never going to fade
So sore to the touch
Sleeping on the thorns I’ve laid
It’s coming down on me now
Like burning acid rain
I just don’t know how
I can ever stand the pain
Well when it rains it pours
And I’m a dam about to crack
The river’s run its course
She’s never coming back
Yes I’m the worse for wear
Tearing up my verse
And when there’s nothing left to tear
I’ll stand there, stare, and curse
293
Inspired to create or forced to steal
What is fake and what is real?
What is truth and what are lies?
I see that sadness in your eyes
So I must be lying
If I treat you well you step on me
Is that the way that it must be?
If I treat you badly like a boring
chore
You come begging back for more
And I leave you crying
I play you like a melody
I write your lines like a symphony
You cut me like a piece of stone
And twist the knife just to hear me
moan
Feels like I’m dying
You love me like you hate your dad
And like my mother you make me mad
Looks like they’re just too much like
us
That makes it just too dangerous
So we run like we’re flying
294
Where are you tonight I wonder -
thunder in my ears
Underneath that sharp exterior I see
frozen tears
Far away from me you wander - far and
wide you roam
Seeking what you lost your father’s
far away from home
Like you’re so far from me tonight
I wish you were here with me to share
the things I see
What the hell it doesn’t matter - what
will be must be
Passionate the dancer’s lonely cold
but oh so hot
Musical the singer’s home is the one
place you are not
Like you’re so far from me tonight
The nectar of the gods is brewing
beneath the pale moon’s light
The only thing I know is that true
lovers reunite
Agony and pleasure are so close you
can’t decide
Which is more desirable the rider or
the ride
You ride so far from me tonight
295
Danny was a dancer that I fell into
romance with
On a summer day
Saw her pretty face decided she was to
my taste
And we were on our way
Watching her performance the beginning
of the storm
Was headed out to sea
Hoping I could score well I was
sitting on the floor
And she was next to me
So I said, “Everybody needs somebody
sometime,
And I believe I need you right now.”
We smiled for a while couldn’t hide it
went outside
To have a cigarette
I mumbled something dumb about my
number and a pen
That we should go and get
Walking to the van and we were talking
‘bout Vancouver
That’s where she was from
Take her pretty hand and I was making
a maneuver
Planned to make her come
Chorus - solo
So intelligent she said I know there’s
somewhere else
That you’re supposed to be
I said I don’t care my dear and I
ain’t goin nowhere
Unless you come with me
She said I need a shower baby meet me
in an hour
In the parking lot
Flying on desire I was never any
higher
I was steaming hot - chorus
I was acting macho as I fed her cheese
and nachos
With some apple wine
Massaging my Sul Ange I was feeling
rather large
And she was looking fine
And so we carried on making love until
the dawn
Cleared the window sill
Cuddled under covers there in French I
said I loved her
And I always will
296
If I seem somewhat bent and raving
I’m afraid I must concur
Upon my soul she was engraving
A stolen picture of a bird
I lost something I was saving
When the accident occurred
She left behind a burning craving
For cigarettes and her
And I am not what you would call
traditional
In fact that’s not what I would wish
at all
To tell the truth I guess - I simply
must confess
I want you as my lover - unconditional
Well if God had loved a liar
We’d both be kneeling at his feet
Any pretty tale will do
Just so long as it is neat
A little lie’s much better
If you keep it short and sweet
But you can’t stay in the kitchen
If you cannot stand the heat
Chorus
A smoke between my fingers
And her photo on the wall
The memory of her lingers
Just inside my empty hall
Her taste remains upon my lips
A scent that I recall
But when I reach out in the dark
She just isn’t there at all
297
Woke up this morning I’d been dreaming
of you
But the face right next to mine wasn’t
yours
If I heard my own warning I mean
nothing to you
I guess I wouldn’t mind oh but of
course
Trying that next evening to find a
little meaning
There by filling up the hole with
empty flesh
In passion she was screaming but
invisible tears streaming
In my mind the gears were grinding
wouldn’t mesh
I want you but I don’t need you
Hungry I would love to feed you
anytime
I like you but I don’t love you
You’re afraid of having that above you
anytime
In the middle of the night I’m
frightened
The lightning of my load just
thundered
I wondered where you were but you are
gone
I guess it is all good training
The muscles in my back still straining
I must maintain my balance on this
wire I am on
298
The cold of the winter; the one thing
I’m afraid of
What I need right now: one hot summer
love
One night I met a dancer and she took
me by the hand
She said I’d love to have you but I’ve
got myself a man
I said that don’t confront me yeah
I’ve had your type before
And though they love and leave me they
come back for more
Took her to my castle drew the
drawbridge closed the blinds
Took her to the bedroom for a meeting
of the minds
Massaged her lovely shoulders Lord the
lady was so kind
We talked of wine and roses as I tried
to make her mine
A week went by a moment later and she
was on her way
I told her that she was welcome
anytime to stay
Soon it will be late September she
might not be back
But she left me certain of one thing
that is a fact
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Remember under August skies a pair of
lovely dancing eyes
A sexy pair of lips I kissed a woman
who did not exist
Habits can be hard to break but this
one’s getting hard to take
I fall for what I cannot keep and I go
off the deep end
Chorus
Meet me on the rooftop break me right
in two don’t stop
Dancing in the moonlight kiss me once
more and it’s all right
I’ll be back again someday - somehow
and someway
Other faces can’t replace the traces
of your salty taste
You’re always welcome in my bed I
can’t get you out of my head
It’s not as bad as it may seem at
least I have you in my dreams
You just say someway somehow but I
want you right here right now
Chorus
Meet me on the rooftop break me right
in two don’t stop
Dancing in the moonlight kiss me once
more and it’s all right
I’ll be back again someday - somehow
and someway
Wasted paper wasted ink and I’m
wasting my time I think
A photograph is all I’ve got and you
are somewhere I am not
I must be doing something wrong I
didn’t want to write this song
To sing it only makes things worse so
this’ll be the final verse
300
I wonder where you’re coming from and
which way are you going
Could I come along with you and maybe
share the ride?
I feel a little sad tonight I hope it
isn’t showing
It’s just that I was once so cold and
now I’m burning up inside
I went for a cruise one day and met a
bird so blue
Said if you’re not the one I choose at
least for now you’ll do
Well I don’t know what time she left
not sure which direction
But I must admit I asked if I could
come along
She said I’m not in love with you but
you do have my affection
Oh but I forgot to say I love your
brand new song
It’s not a game you win or lose I hope
you know it’s true
And if you’re not the one I choose at
least for now you’ll do
So I stuck out my hiking thumb and
turned my eyes towards the sun
Caught the next bird on the wing and
traveled on from there
And though I know I’m not the one I’ll
still be sticking to my guns
Sometimes I still hear her sing and I
know I still care
But I just bought a pair of shoes
they’re brand new suede and blue
And if they’re not the ones I’d choose
at least for now they’ll do
301
You spill your guts I wipe it up
Well baby that’s a drag
With all the things you are to me
Bury me in dirty laundry
I thought that you were once my friend
But you think I’m your dishrag
Bet you wish that I’d go fishin
Hung up on a snag
But love is not disposable
And I am not your dishrag
I am not your stallion
Fact I’m more like a stag
What’s more I’ve got news for you
I am not your dishrag
302
It’s like fishing with a hand grenade
It’s like sugar in y’lemonade
It’s like shaving with a rusty blade
It’s like lying in the shade
I’d say it’s like I like you
But it feels a bit like love
It’s like trying hard to make the
grade
It’s like running through a cannonade
It’s like had to go and should’ve
stayed
It’s like Watergate and Gatorade
I’d say it’s like I like you
But it feels a bit like love
It’s like venom she sprayed
It’s like Jesus kissed Sinead
It’s like a pinball arcade
It’s like getting laid
It’s like a secret betrayed
It’s like a game we played
It’s like price we paid
It’s like this serenade
I’d say it’s like I like you
But it feels a bit like love
303
Sometimes you find good chemistry
When you are unsuspecting
I wasn’t even hunting but
I wound up collecting
Well I fell a little faster than I
thought I would
But all I can say is so far so good
Sometimes you sow what you can’t reap
Sometimes you want what you can’t keep
If you think too much you just can’t
sleep
The water looks shallow but it’s so
deep
Naked in the mirror I can
See your eyes reflecting
The spark that jumps the gap
Between our bodies now connecting
Got a little more bent than I thought
we could
But we just went so far so good
Suddenly I found a feeling
I was not expecting
My senses reeling I was shooting
She lay there directing
Come on back you know you should
I’m all about you so far so good
304
Beauty sublime and innocent
An echo of the past
Inclined to be quite reticent
I’m not the first or last
Passion smooth and liquid
A famine to a feast
Chains of steel and leather whips
Still can’t tame the beast
Action to reaction
Desire at first sight
A moment lost to ponder
What is wrong or right
Sexy sweet hot rhythm
A creature of the night
Snakes entwined we slither
Slyly from the light
305
Sailing on the water
With the daughter of a sailor
Dreaming of the others
With the mother of a dreamer
Reach a little farther
For my father who’s a teacher
Thinking of another
For my brothers I’m a thinker
I deal with dirty dozens
Cause my cousin is a dealer
Still the faithful few
Who know my nephew is a killer
He dunked a couple punkers
When my uncle’s in a funk
My nieces fall to pieces
Cause they just can’t reach my aunt
But what am I to do?
306
I’ve got another sunburn hon
My skin is red and blistered
You say I’ll die of cancer but
I’d sooner kiss your sister (yech!)
I spent all day just floating
On a boat out on the sea
I didn’t fail at sailing
But I lost the rest of me
I must have just gone overboard
I didn’t see me fall
But now whenever I’m in bed
I hear the oceans call
Like living in a seashell
The constant water tells
Sea spray blurs my vision
I’m no longer here at all
307
You are my inspiration stimulation
Creative motivation
Elation consecration (bless my
libation!)
Don’t need no imitation (elation
indication=erection)
I’m positive
Baby I’m positive
I’m positive about you
You are my deepest passion fascination
Hot sweet infatuation
Protection connection
Corrective redirection
I’m positive
Baby I’m positive
I’m positive about you
You are my emotional devotion
Insatiable temptation
Invitation to salvation
Sexual education
I’m positive
Baby I’m positive
I’m positive about you
308
You frighten me with your honesty
I’m not used to it
When a liar says she lies
Is there any truth to it?
We are two - too far apart
You left your rose and kept my heart
With you - I want to be with you
You trust no one but you trusted me
For an instant
The camera shows what no one knows
You’re infinite
We are two - too far apart
You left your rose and kept my heart
With you - I want to be with you
A tapestry of mystery
Surrounding me
Taste so great you devastate
You’re drowning me
We are two - too far apart
You left your rose and kept my heart
With you - I want to be with you
309
Talk is cheap so you can keep it
Let’s see some action
I don’t believe a word I heard
Let’s see some action
Y’say you’re gonna git me
Well come on try’n hit me
I’ll kick your wimpy ass
She tells me that she miss me
She wanna hug ‘n’ kiss me
1,2, buckle my shoe me
Come on baby do me
I say I been thinkin
‘bout quittin smoke ‘n’ drinkin
I do the best I can
But I am just a man
310
Several years ago I met a woman
She slowly became a friend of mine
Beautiful and tall we had quite a ball
Drowning all our sorrows red in wine
She said she would soon be true to me
Several months went by we carried on
I believed in her because I was naive
But when I turned my back then she was
gone
Abandoned by my lover and I never
recovered
Exploding like a supernova and I never
got over it
Now that time is over things are
different
It’s not nearly the same as it was
At least I keep telling myself this
That’s not the effect that it caused
Instead I remain quite insanely
Enraptured by somebody else
A New World Columbus just shattered
Wand’ring the streets of New Chelsea
Abandoned by my lover and I never
recovered
Exploding like a supernova and I never
got over it
311
Hold me tight and turn the lights down
low
Give me one more dance before you go
I’m gonna miss this it’s just what I
want
Give me one more kiss before you’re
gone
Just one more chance before you fly
The sun will rise the world will turn
I’ll burn for you ‘til you return
Hold me near don’t fear the night
Shed one small tear before your flight
A lover’s leap so deep and sheer
Sing me one last song before you
disappear
It’s such sweet bliss this painful
part
Much softer still you touch my heart
She’d one more gift a soft refrain
She sang as she got on the plane
312
Music today she ain’t what she used to
be
You are just a nobody ‘til you get on
MTV
People used to sing to express how
they feel
Now they sing expressly just to get a
record deal
Just to get onstage these days you
have to strike a pose
You can’t say fuck on the radio unless
you’re Axl Rose
Seems to me Led Zeppelin’s Crunge
sounds
Newer than Seattle grunge
You can’t do that onstage no more
Glamour punk is such a bore
Don’t mean a thing without that swing
Unless you’re Bono, Bruce, or Sting
And how about you Madonna?
Ya wanna?
313
I’m scared of the future
Lord please don’t let me get old
God don’t let me die
The body slowly failing
Ailing faster and faster
‘til at last
Forgetting the past
Empty cold void
Engulfing consuming
What little spark of life was left
Leaving a hollow corpse
In a shallow grave
The gallows pole
To late to save
The executioner
Who’ll be left to
Find his ax
And grind it?
314
I don’t wanna marry you
Don’t wanna be engaged
I don’t wanna carry you
I finally reached the age
Where I just wanna fuck you
I just wanna fuck you
I don’t wanna miss you
I don’t wanna kiss you
I don’t wanna kill you
I don’t wanna fill you
I just wanna fuck you
Don’t wanna be your boyfriend
I got better things to do
So meet me in the playpen
‘cause I just wanna screw
I don’t wanna love you
Push n squeeze n shove you
I don’t wanna touch you
I won’t be a crutch for you
I just wanna fuck you
I don’t wanna need you
I don’t wanna feed you
Or take you to the movies
I just want you to do me
Screw me? Screw you!
I just wanna fuck you
(yikes! That’s ugly!)
315
We stand naked on the stone before the
camera’s eye
Reaching out for the unknown beneath
the autumn’s sky
The morning wind so cold that we were
praying to the sun
This headstone may be old my love but
we’re forever young
In photographs
Pretty as a picture as I wrap you in
black lace
The scene is somehow tragic and yet it
remains comical
It’s magic in a hundred years we will
still be beautiful
In photographs
We’ll never be lonely or wither and
die
We’ll never be buried beneath autumn
skies
We’ll never be ugly we’ll never go
gray
I’ll never leave you and you’ll always
stay
In photographs
316
Down to the core baby I’m so sure
You’ve got an itch but we’ve got the
cure
We finally scored and the shit’s truly
pure
We left ‘em beggin for more on the European
tour
We are the A - mericans
In the end love it’s so true
We just wanna do it to you
‘round the bend off into the blue
We’re all friends so lets all (have a
picnic?) Screw!
We are the A - mericans
"All you Americans ever think
about is sex!"
Don’t forget money!
McDonalds Burger King
Coca Cola Pepsi
Chrysler General Motors
Elvis Presley!
Hi - fi stereo
VCR.
White picket fence
And a brand new car
Record on the radio
Blue chip stock
Knock down drag out
Rock and roll video
MTV and NBC
CNN and NYC
CIA and KGB
Won’t you come and dance with me
We are the A - mericans
USA FBI
LSD SDI
SNL IRS
How’d we get into this mess?
We are the A- mericans
Homeless in the hundreds of thousands
Taxed into submission by fat hyenas
Who spend our money on murder and
Torture in third world countries
Selling sex, drugs, and guns
To our children on TV
Making war for fun and profit
317
The smell of your perfume
Lingers on my clothes
I suppose it soon will fade
Like all the memories we made
(But I remember you)
The taste of dry champagne
Lingers on my lips
The tip of your finger traces
All the feelings I erased
(But I feel you)
The touch of your soft skin
Lingers on my hands
Like all the bands that I’ve been in
That emotion’s gone again to sin
(But I love you)
The sight of your sore eyes
Denies the truth of tears
The fears of our last kiss
Outweigh the hope and it comes to this
(But I miss you)
The sound of your sweet words
I heard within a glimpse of doubt
Without you I am gone and now
It’s time to carry on
318
U excite me
U delight me
U polite me
Black on white me
U kiss me and
U miss me then
U piss me off
And dis me
U slight me and
U fight me
U say U might me
Every nite me
U heave me and
U ho me homey
Believe me but
U leave me
U blow me then
U throw me out
Love me hah!
U hardly know me!
319
Frozen in a photograph
Hanging on my wall
I long to hear your laughter
But your not home to call
I want to feel your fingertips
Trail across my cheek
I’d love to kiss your soft sweet lips
And hear you softly speak
And you’d say
What am I gonna do with you?
Standing on a corner stoned
Somewhere USA
Call by public telephone
To tell me you’re OK
You say you’ll come back to my world
But you just don’t know when
And there are lots of other girls
And lots of other men
And I say
What am I gonna do with you?
Bathing in the candlelight
Naked on the bed
Drinking wine and feeling right
We slowly feed our heads
We are two becoming one
Exploding in the night
And in the summer morning sun
We climb to dizzy heights
So now what am I gonna do with you?
Cause now you’re just a memory
And you’re so far away
And though I knew you had to leave
I still begged you to stay
I wish I could write a brand new song
And bring you home to sing
Perhaps I could be wrong but for you
I’d do anything
So what am I gonna do with you?
320
Iba blik boop wabba gidda
Nudda peesa butta booda
Snib a giblet ibin dippin
Ship a trippin happy hippie
Tooa place in Baton Rouge iffin
Yooby knowin wuttum meenin caubuz
Isho dono whaada fukkum talokibbin
Abbub owbout anna das fo sho bro dig?
321
I’m angry and I’m lonely
I’m empty and I’m crazy
I’m ugly and I’m only
Here to get stoned and start a blaze
I’m pissed off and I’m violent
I got a mean streak and I’m freaked
out
I got a pistol illegal handgun
Out on the street to have some fun
Bang bang bang! Gonna shoot ‘em up
Bang bang bang! Gonna kill
Bang bang bang! With a vengeance
Bang bang bang! For a thrill
I’m young and I’m hungry
Live on the street I eat the trash
Gonna roll some old folks on their
vacation
Because it’s easy and I need the cash
I’m a punk and I’m a junky
I am deadly because I’m funky
I kill the ladies
And I kill the cops
You’ll never stop me
Cause it never stops
Bang bang bang! Gonna shoot ‘em up
Bang bang bang! Gonna kill
Bang bang bang! With a vengeance
Bang bang bang! For a thrill
322
Wish I knew what notes to play
Wish I knew what words to say
Wish I knew one single way
That I could make you happy
Wish I knew which chords to choose
Wish I knew another blues
Wish I knew what you could use
So I could make you happy
A simple tune from me to you
Don’t know what’s what or who is who
But I hope for now this jam will do
Cause I wanna make you happy
Wish I knew which melody
Wish I knew which harmony
Wish that I knew rhythmically
How I could make you happy
Wish I knew a song to sing
Wish I knew which bell to ring
I wish that I knew anything
Just to make you happy
323
I always thought I’d find the answer
I always thought I’d find the way
I always thought I’d be the dancer
I always thought you’d be there to
stay
I always thought that you would be the
strong one
I always thought I’d be the one to try
I always thought that I might be the
wrong one
But I never thought I’d have to say
good bye
I always thought that I would be the
mild one
I always thought that you would be the
child
I always thought our love would be a
wild one
I always thought I’d drown in my
denial
I always thought that you would be my
ocean
I always thought that someday I’d go
dry
I always thought that you’d keep my
emotion
But I never thought I’d have to say
good bye
324
Misogyny and heterosexuality are
The ham and eggs of my psychosis
Misandry and your hunger for me
The bread and butter of your neurosis
Yours is the flower of my sweet soft
pain
And mine is the fruit of your disdain
Alcohol and nicotine were the
While the robbery of snobbery
Left you alone to freeze
The sweat of my loins purloined
Like a coin from a pocket of doubt
I spent so long beating on your door
that
You finally threw me out
325
I was born in 1968
That year I hear was great
The Aquarian girls were all underage
And they simply couldn’t wait
The love was free and the drugs were
pure
The disease you got was easily cured
There was no such thing as Watergate
And most girls you’d meet were
straight
LBJ and LSD
Tie-dyes freaks and hippies
The pot was cheap the music jammed
Mary Jane and trippies
I was born in 1968
That year I hear was fine
It’s almost 1999
And I’ve nothing
Left but lines
That rhyme
326
I was heading for the wedding and I
ran up the block
Because I do hate to be late and it
was nearly four o’clock
I’m burning up inside I missed my
chance to kiss the bride
Before she disappeared in mister
sinister
But turning I denied that I was near
enough to hear
The words I feared from blissful
minister
D’you dear take this man here as yer
lawful wedded trashcan
It was awful and I nearly died of
shock
I wish I’d never gone don’t think that
I can carry on
And I guess I must admit that I’d been
drunk for several days
I was gettin loose on cactus juice and
as I wrote this song
She’s was on her way to Tucson for her
honeymoon (Tucson?)
So I went to the station met this
pretty little Haitian girl
The next day we were on our way to
Vegas
But there’s this bet I lost on to a
businessman from Boston
And that Haitian girl got up and left
with him
Though the chance was slim to none I
got this phone call in my hotel room the bride Said that the groom had up and
split
He’d headed out to Mexico with this
porno star from Soho
But she didn’t think it (would) be
hard to use his credit card
She said if it would be all right
she’d take a plane to me tonite
And be mine I said that’s fine besides
I’m lonely
And so the following day we realized
love had gone astray
And we were meant for one another only
Never go to your ex-girlfriend’s
wedding
Never grab a tiger by the tail
Always keep yer eye on where yer
heading
Or y’might not survive alive to tell
the tale
327
She got that mango kangaroo shampoo
and her name is MaryAnne
She likes to screw she eats tofu she’s
a vegetarian
She knows she’s cool she wears
Patchouli she’s kinda scary and
She’s a raving fairy she never shaves
so she’s a very hairy
She’s a trippy hippie girl
She’s a high fly tie-dye Grateful
Deadhead Zeppelin freak and all
She owns a Persian rug she drives a
Bug that never ever stalls
With a nickel bag and Rasta flag she’s
cums Niagara Falls
A ball bust free jack heart attack
this lovely does it all
She’s a trippy hippie girl
Hot sweet lean mean fuck machine
nineteen sixty-nines
Whip me beat me hit me hurt baby
that’s just fine
Kiss me kill me love fulfill me every
single time
She may want to play with me but
she’ll never stay with me
Trippie hippie girl
328
The curtain comes up on this
marionette
Playing his part to the hilt
Without the applause and the glow of
the spotlight
This passionate flower must wilt
He recites all his lines while
pretending he’s fine
But he’s hiding inside from his guilt
Holding dead flowers he cowers for
hours
Saying “where are the ivory towers I
built?”
This pretty sweet puppet is up to no
good
You can see by the look on his face
Through red painted smiles his
mistresses file all
Tangled in leather and lace
They dance and prance gaily but he’s
in a trance
He sits there and stares into space
Then he looks up at last and screams
at the cast
“Hey, does anyone know the way out of
this place?”
The clouds draw together and eclipse
the moon
The shining star falls from the sky
He climbs the stairs above where this
Icarus dared
From the top he jumps as if to fly
Head much too full to feel gravity’s
pull
Could be he’s been getting high
One final word heard ‘fore he hits the
ground
“Why are the tears falling up from my
eyes?”
329
Like six feet of mud
Flypaper and glue
Sweet little baby I’m stuck on you
I’m stuck on you
Stuck on you and I don’t know what I’m
gonna do
Like twelve feet of snow
Stone cold and blue
Red hot mama I’m stuck on you
I’m stuck on you
Stuck on you like duct tape
Like bubble gum train
I go chew chew chew
Sticky little girl I’m stuck on you
Stuck on you
Love that true blue goo
330
Drunk again not gettin much done
But I’m really very popular
I’ve got this grungy look
And an attitude
But I’m kind of broke because I spend
more than I make
331
I’m tired and I’m lonely and I’ve only
just begun
To contemplate the pain that I’ve been
fighting
The song that I’ve been writing isn’t
finished
That diminished chord eludes me once
again but that’s all right
We had a clam bake down at Pearl Jam
Stanley Clarke
Was playin wam bam Iggy Popped into a
Steely Dan
Motel room window sinner grins the
pain subsides in vain again
Then Ziggy Stardust sang Piano Man
Billy Joel did U2 Babe but Bono didn’t
wanna
Sting showed up but he got drunk and
trashed the place
Michael Musto sang the blues and
Marlon Brando came unglued
Mary wanna please lift up your dress
undo your lace and kiss my face
332
Someone shot twenty people on a train
Sometime late last week
I guess at last it’s mother earth
Inheriting the meek
For what it’s worth I’d like some
Electricity flowing through his veins
Electricity shorting out his brain
Jeffery Dahmer old Milwaukee
Television entertainment
For them it’s on too late
He’s insane and I want some
Electricity flowing through his veins
Electricity shorting out his brain
Random violence helter skelter
Shotgun forty four
Charlie Manson, Son of Sam
More Ted Bundy, more!
Edit out the predator
Edit out the predator
Edit out the predator
Edit out the predator
Electricity flowing through his veins
Electricity shorting out his brain
Gun control &
The death penalty
For brutal, random,
And multiple homicide.
Pedaphiles, murderers,
And psycho killers
Qu’est ce que c’est?
Beware motherfuckers
You’re dead
333
I’m sick and I have a cold
I’ve got I virus inside my soul
I’m illin and I’m chillin
From too much drinkin and smokin bowl
And rock and roll I’m still in
A cringe from binging on her purge
The urge to confiscate her hate is
Making it my own.
334
She slithered across the floor
Like a junkie about to score
She got it all she steamin hot
I just couldn’t wait to see more
She looked me in the eye
Like a tiger about to feed
She got real near whispered in my ear
There’s just one thing I need
I want you to hurt me
I’d love you to hurt me
Whip me beat me bite my lips & eat
me
Hit me hurt me do me
Twist my nipples slap my face
Rip off my skirt and screw me
Be my daddy I’m a bad, bad girl
Grab me by the hair and yank me
Do whatever ya want to me
But please be sure and spank me
I want you to hurt me
I’d love you to hurt me
Chain me pain me come and stain me
Put me in my place
Kiss me softly on the scars
Then strangle me with lace
Scream and curse me I need perversity
Make it worse then nurse me
Suck me kill me lust fulfill me
Command me and I will be hurt me
I want you to hurt me
I’d love you to hurt me
335
I’m the bastard son of a prostitute
I got no family I’m an angry youth
I hate the system the way it screws us
I’m gonna tear it down I’ve got nothin
2 lose
Nothin more dangerous than nothin 2
lose
Long range rifle wit a long range
scope
I shoot politicians but I don’t shoot
dope
Edit out the senators be a congressional
predator
I’ve lost my patience but I don’t lose
hope
Killing all the lawyers would be a
good start
Hang ‘em all up like pieces of art
I’m tired and angry I don’t wanna get
smart
Put a bullet right through the
President’s heart
200 years of the same old shit
Business as usual I’m sick of it
Fuck the police fuck the KKK
But don’t fuck the army ‘cause they’re
half way gay
Nothin more dangerous I’ve got nothin
2 lose
I love my country it’s sacred ground
But it’s being run by half assed
clowns
We can’t survive until the beast is
dead
So line ‘em all up...and put bullets
in their heads
336
Radical addict
Acting tough
Don’t know when
Enough’s enough
Screaming pain
A mystery jones
Clawed off flesh
On withered bones
Freakazoid psycho
And that’s a fact
Jacked up high
On pavement cracks
Back to back
With your own reflection
Look in the mirror
And face rejection
Agony writhes
Under concrete blocks
But money talks
And bullshit walks
How’s that for
Actual factual
Fuck face?
337
We don’t want to interrupt your
conversation
We don’t want to bother you at all
We don’t want to get out of your way
at all and
We don’t want to go the way you always
go
Saw a lady on the street and
Asked her if she knew where she was
It’s dangerous on your own at night
It’s the nasty part of town
We don’t want t’cause no brand new
world sensation
We don’t want to get in anybody’s face
We don’t want gold records on the
airwaves
We don’t want to fit in any special
bin
She said I know just what I am doing
And I know exactly where i am
I know why I came out this way tonite
And who and when I’ll get it too
338
She comes to me every now and then and
She turns me inside out
Who am I? Where am I? Why am I here?
And what am I about?
She says you make such good love babe
Darling that’s for sure
You know I know what I want and
What I want is more
Don’t let it don’t let it
Don’t let it get me down
I get it up!
Short and lean so squeaky clean now
Soft and smooth as silk
A creamy dream from in between and
Sweet like mother’s milk
I’m not too sure of anything
But there’s one thing I know
There’s only one way to keep her with
me
I’ve got to let her go
But I don’t let don’t let it
Don’t let it don’t let it
Don’t let it get me down
I get it up!
339
You wonder why it happens to you
Like all the others in my life
Taken against your will by friends and
family strangers too
Held hostage with a paper knife
The evil done to you when you were a
child
Deception degradation fear and lies
Draws the echo of the past defiled
Disguised by your adoring victim eyes
Victim eyes
You can’t sleep at night you wake up
crying
Repeating patterns you can’t even see
Paralyzed by memories you’re denying
Bound by brain chains but you hold the
key
The future’s often guided by the past
That rain falls hard and fast from
cold gray skies
A captain lashed and bound tight to
the mast
The storm attracted by your victim
eyes
Victim eyes
340
The morning sun in Montreal
Was cold and bright as snow that falls
But I felt so soft and safe and warm
with you
Your tender touch a sweet caress
That burned away my emptiness
My shelter from the storm turned gray
skies blue
Your hot and salty sexy French
Twists me like a velvet wrench
So light and tight I’m right against
the seam
The finest food and cheap champagne
Washed me clean like summer rain
The pain I feel without you makes me
scream
I’m hungry as a burning tiger
Crying tears of silken fire
Desire pleasure too intense to bear
To kiss your lips so lush and full
Screaming tryst of push and pull
I wrap myself within your long brown
hair
To taste your throat and smell your
skin
Exploding in your sultry sin
A burning need to feed that’s much too
hot
Your grace and poise knock me out
You take me in I’m inside out
But with me is the one thing that
you’re not
341
Just when you thought you were all
secure
Everything’s cool you’re styling
Your heart was clear your mind was
pure
Everything fine and you’re smiling
Crash and burn
It’s all set and you’re jamming
You thought you were sick and you
found the cure
But now it’s the bricks you’re
slamming
Crash and burn
Everything’s bitchin now certainly so
There’s no doubt you’re kicking
But your soul’s itching and I damn
well know
The needle’s sharp and you’re sticking
Crash and burn
342
à bientôt j’esper
si nous allons nulle part
j’ésper nous arrivons â bientôt
343
Strawberry chocolate fine champagne
A broken rose who knows how to play
the game
I can feel her deep within my bones
The spike in my arm’s just a Jesus
Jones
And I can feel it in my marrow
When you walk into the fire eyes open
you burn
You’re smart enough boy but you just
don’t learn
Steel eyed pride don’t hide the pain
in your brain
When the fire of desire’s burning in
your veins
And I can feel it in my marrow
And the needle in your arm is like a
bullet in the head
The race that we begun is hard to run
and no one won
Proving love is just a game and that
it isn’t always fun
And I can feel it in my marrow
I hear that heaven’s nice but I’d
rather it wait
But you can’t fool fate so don’t be
late
If we’re going nowhere fast I hope we
get there soon
Cause no one gets far on a needle and
a spoon
And I can feel it in my marrow
344
Power and pain
I’m scared to death
I’m out of breath
From runnin your train
Agony fear
Last on the line
I don’t have the time
To wipe away tears
And I drift away
Passion insane
But I’m on the wire
Chemical fire
Burning again
Lovers in lust
Placing our bets
Covered in sweat
Because we must
And we drift away
345
Tell me that you love me
How I love it when you lie
Tell me that you’re clean but
What’s that pin hole in your eye
Well I have got no fear dear
Because everybody dies
Tell me you love me once more
Just before you say goodbye
You tell pretty little lies
You’re a pretty little liar
You’re a pretty little lyin machine
Don’t tell me the truth please
Because I don’t want to know
My youth is gone and so I guess
It’s time for me to go
Hurry up and shoot me now
Let’s get on with the show
Let’s throw it all away now
Let’s throw it all away now
You tell pretty little lies
You’re a pretty little liar
You’re a pretty little lyin machine
Tell me that you love me
Staring at the empty sky
Tell me that I’m sexy
Then proceed to tell my why
Tell me I’m fantastic
Tell me how I satisfy
Tell me that you love me
How I love it when you lie
You tell pretty little lies, etc..
346
C’mon and come with me
Looking for a good time?
Would you spend some time with me?
I’ll try and satisfy
Anticipate your every need
Come on and come
Come on and come
Come on and come with me
I’ll burn you then
I’ll churn you then
I’ll turn you inside out
Respond and turn you on
And then proceed to
Knock you out
Come on come on come on come on
Come on
Tease you and I’ll please you
Caress and kiss and squeeze you
Feed you and I’ll bleed you oh
My God oh how I need you yeah
Come on come on
Come on and come with me
347
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Get a job cut your hair
Fuck that bullshit I don’t care
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Let’s get married let’s grow up
Fuck that shit man that’s fucked up
Pretty corpse won’t grow old
Sex and drugs and rock and roll
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Have a good time fore you lose it
You waste it if you don’t use it
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
Fuck reality
Reality sucks
348
I can smell her on my hands
The sands of time begin to swirl
The hell I put myself through just
For the love of God this girl
Turns me on and whips me up
She tears me inside out
Can’t sleep or eat I can’t retreat
So what is this about?
But the package sure is fine
Excuse me this but nothing can
Withstand the sands of time
I can taste you on my lips
The tips of fingers start to burn
Your jeans slung low on hips
You’re shooting pool but who’ll
return?
The feeder and the breeder lying
Bleeding on the ground
Comatose on overdose
I hear the siren sound
Got my screaming demons but
At least they’re mine all mine
Forgive me this but nothing can
Withstand the sands of time
I see you in my eyes your lies
Still hold the ring of truth
Ruthless child’s wise disguise
Cold gin and dry vermouth
Pretty little city tittie
Bar I’m gonna die
Why are you doing this Toomey?
Why the hell ask why?
Forgive me dear but when your fear
Is crystal clear and fine
Don’t forget that nothing can
Withstand the sands of time
349
Keep it up
Get it on
Freaking out
Coming in
Going down
Getting off
In between
Underneath
All around
On the ground
Over and over
And over and over
It’s over
350
Everyday I wake and say
Good morning sun
I want to fly get up so high
Be fuckin A-1
But it’s such a long long long long
long
Way down
I want to climb up to the sky
And spread my wings
Sung at the top of my lungs
I want everything
But it’s such a long long
Long long long way down
351
F N
A
God you made me
Look what you made me
Oh God look what you made me do
Pleasure and pain
Flooding me brain
Staining my soul
Now I’m under control
Flaming desire
Burning with ice
So nice I submit
You dominate it
So frustrated
I’m hating it
Feel like a whore
Begging for more
352
I wanted to slash my wrist
But it was dull
I wanted to fuck my fist
But that was boring
A little bitter kiss
And Jethro Tull
At last it comes to this
I’m out here whoring
The silver bullet missed
Right through my skull
Guess I get the gist
The bullshit’s goring
Romantic twisted tryst
A storming lull
Agony to bliss
I go out scoring
353
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in my bones
And it’s burning
I can touch it
I can taste it
I can smell it
I can see it
I can hear it
I can feel it
But I can’t have it
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in my bones
And it’s burning
I can want it
I can need it
I can eat it
I can feed it
I can love it
I can shove it
I can feel it
But I can’t have it (repeat)
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in my bones
And it’s burning
354
If naked laughing baboons could see me
now they’d be silent in awe of the horseshoe legs I’ve grown on my agonized
brain burning with ice cold steel fire and pins and needles sticking into the
veins of my love the angels come tangoing down from above to give the red
doggie a bone and their God only knows how long I’ve been alone with my family
and lovers and haters in French and my simple single horrible hephalump heart
I’m starting to go down on the wings of a prayer and I don’t have the carefully
staring white hair mights be I been gone bitsy freaked out like lightning bugs
lightbulb ablaze with desire moths to the game flame I’m ashamed to admit that
I got my own self into all of this shit
355
You lie and I believe it
Don’t know why I’m so naive
I guess deceiving me is easy
Cause you know I’ll never leave
You can’t get blood from a stone
I am only flesh and bone
I’m lonely but I know
I’m not alone
You synthesize your lies
With prize fight logic I despise
The hawk flies for the time it buys
To make his your disguise
You can’t get blood from a stone
I am only flesh and bone
I’m lonely but I know
I’m not alone
And I’m bleeding
Desperate and unhappy
As you slap me in the face
Replace the trace of sunshine
That once shone in this place
You can’t get blood from a stone
I am only flesh and bone
I’m lonely but I know
I’m not alone
Guess I’m only satisfied
I tried to be this way
Sin and desolation of
The soul’s a game I play
Staring in the mirror as I
Pound my hungry meat
Guess that’s how it goes
Oh well I’m back on the street
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
Kill me now
356
She’s a little punk rocker
And I’m her rock and roll
She’s a little punk rocker
And I’m her rock and roll
And I know that she loves me
Cause she always tells me so
She’s a little punk rocker
Dyed green hair and all
She’s a little punk rocker
You know I’m going to fall
She’s a little punk rocker
And I’m her rock and roll
She’s a little punk rocker
David Bowie and Iggy Pop
She’s a little punk rocker
Never going to stop
She’s a little punk rocker
And she takes me to the top
She’s a little punk rocker
Nipple ring tattoo
She’s a little punk rocker
Y’know she loves to screw
C’mon little punk rocker
Do what you gotta do
357
Heaven help me I just saw
Something you can’t see
There was this big ugly monster
Trying to be me
He said come on
Come play with me
I’ll teach you words that can’t be
spoken
Spells that can’t be broken
Taste what can’t be smelled
I’m taking you to hell
He said come on
Come play with me
The devil and the deep blue sea
There’s nowhere left to hide
The rock and hard place drying up
I ‘m dying slow inside
And he said come on
Come play with me
358
The sins of the father
Are the sins of the son
359
She’s gonna give it to me
When I get home
I’m a bad ass outlaw
Mean as a snake
But she’s givin out
More than I can take
She’s gonna give it to me
When I get home
Good boys go to heaven
Bad boys go to hell
Don’t know where I’m goin
But it’s just as well
She’s gonna give it to me
When I get home
360
Don’t stay in one place
You might get hit
Do what you gotta do
And when it’s time to screw
Just pick up yer shit and git
Stick and move
Hanging around
Just gets me down
Go where I wanna go
And when it’s time to blow
I just boogie out of town
Stick and move
Like a rolling stone
I’m free to be
Gonna dance and sing
And keep doing my thing
And when it’s time to fly I flee
Stick and move
361
I’m scared I’m gonna lose ya
I’ve seen this shit before
I watched this movie time and again
I don’t wanna watch no more
I go my way you go yours
I don’t wanna be alone
My river’s on a different course
I can’t wash away the stone
Stay with me
Oh God please stay with me
I’m broken and
I really need a fix
I know that I can’t keep you
I just can’t get away
It’s something I can’t deal with
But I see it every day
I know I’m gonna die
But it’s not scaring me a bit
All I can do is try
I’m not afraid of it
Stay with me
Oh God please stay with me
I’m broken and
I really need a fix
I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t need to drag you down
It’s just that when I’m smiling
I can’t hide this frown
I feel like life is killing me
I’m sure I’m gonna drown
You stretch me on the rack
I lie there gagged and bound
Stay with me
Oh God please stay with me
I’m broken and
I really need a fix
362
I can feel I’m losing you
I can see you think I’m using you
I can see you think I’m using
And I don’t find it amusing
And I think it’s time to give it up
Please don’t think I’m mean
I’m just so sick of this scene
I’ve seen this show before
And I don’t wanna watch no more
And I think it’s time to give it up
I can’t stand to see
This happening to me again
Forget how it began
Because I know how it ends
And I think it’s time to give it up
363
Burning green the colors clack
Crash collide and spinning in infinity
Falling one by one
Down the wells of destiny
The staff propels
Motivating
Yet the draw is short
And the passion play passes on
364
I can’t wait to see you
And I will not forget
I wish we’d stay together
I wish we’d never met
Jesus in the garden
Drinks the poison cup
Judas in the hallway
God I’m so mixed up
Devil in my blue jeans
Angel in my bed
Pulling on my harp strings
Playing with my head
I’m not the type to cry
But what’s that there in my eye
Hot as flame cold as ice
And I don’t know why
I can’t face the mirror
Or the look upon my face
Feeling like I’m stealing time
Until I get replaced
Eating me and drinking me
It gets out of control
Chasing small white rabbits
Now I’m falling down the hole
365
I been drivin out from Texas
Drove this Ford all the way
From Mexico through Texas
Drove this Ford all the way
And if this Ford don’t make
Gonna buy a Chevrolet
1960 Chevrolet I want a ‘60 Chevrolet
You know I’m gonna buy me
1960 Chevrolet
I’m headin up to Memphis
Gonna get there any day
I’m on my way to Memphis
And you know I’m gonna stay
Well I can’t afford a Harley
So I’ll buy a Chevrolet
1960 Chevrolet I want a ‘60 Chevrolet
You know I’m gonna buy me
1960 Chevrolet
Well we’re aimin to be famous
For the music we play
And who the hell could blame us
It can be excellent pay
And when I get my Harley
I’m gonna scrap that Chevrolet
1960 Harley D. I want a ‘60 Harley D.
You know I’m gonna buy me
1960 Chevrolet
366
Reach for that addiction
Picturing the end
Preaching malediction
Upon the race of men
Caught with that affliction
You don’t know where it’s been
And you’re going down again
Quick to adulation
Confronting if you can
Sin and isolation
Going round the bend
Resisting that temptation
And giving in again
And you’re going down again
Craving that compunction
You stab and tear and rend
It’s hard sometimes to function
When you’re losing a friend
You finally reach the junction
And it’s ten out of ten
And you’re going down again
367
I’m in love with pain
And it’s killing me
I’m in love with pain
And it’s killing me
I just can’t let it go
Let it go!
I’m so numb I cannot
Feel a thing
I’m so numb I cannot
Feel a thing
Unless it’s agony extreme
And I want to scream!
I’m so cold I freeze
Like fallen snow
I’m so cold I freeze
Like fallen snow
White hot burning suffering
I love it!
Trapped within myself
I can’t escape
Trapped within myself
I can’t escape
Fill it up with hate
And rape me!
368
I’m caught up in the pain
So deep down in the well
And she stares the window
Lost in memories
Laughing as we cry
And living as we die
Perhaps it’s just a moment
But I feel it
Come on smile love
Because I love you
It hasn’t been that long
Maybe it’s just another song
But the melody is stickin in my head
And I dig it
So does it start and end in bed
Or is there something more?
I can’t tell you how afraid
I am to think so
Because I feel it
Are you going to stay
Or will you turn and walk away
Just when I need you?
I don’t know what I’m saying
And I don’t know where we’re going
But I do know where we are
Cause you’re with me
It feels like home
369
I’m losing my shit
I just can’t keep up with it
It runs me into the ground
Now I’m going down
Trying to keep
The pieces all together
They’re coming apart again
At the seams
I can’t grip the sands of time
Slip through my fingers
I know no one will hear
My silent screams
I’m losing my mind
My brain cannot find
A way to get out
Of this nagging doubt
I’m losing my soul
Trapped in this hole
I’m going insane
Burning in pain
370
The sun streaming through my window
Illuminates your face
You’re peaceful sleeping
In a warm dry place
Your tears were wet
In the van last nite
Filled with regret and longing
Could have should have
Would have but they
Took it all away
You’ve lost so much
You can’t even see
What you do have
You come screaming through my doorway
Doomed and beautiful grace
A wishful antennae
A vendetta in lace
Your eyes were cold
In a hot sweaty bar
Filled with loud music and pain
Can have might have
Will have but
It makes it hurt so much
You don’t even care
What you do have
371
I don’t need your sympathy
I’m not a mercy case
There are more fish in the sea
And you can be replaced
I am not your dog
And I will not beg for a taste
‘cause I want what I want when I want
it
I won’t get on my knees except to
Please you understand
You know I’m scared to die of that
Disease I’m just a man
And if you want to leave me in the
Freeze your time’s at hand
‘cause I want what I want when I want
it
You know how I love to
Satisfy that’s what I do
Sanctify and purify and
Gratifying you
There’s now way I can justify this
Constant need to
Want what I want when I
Want what I want when I
Want what I want when I want it
372
I luv u 2 4 ev r n all ways (always)?
Always! Koo koo kachoo!
Pacé + Andy
373
If life is but a dream
Then let me wake up now
I just want more than I can take
Sometimes the habits hard to break
I just got bitten by the snake
And now I need to stay awake
Keep me awake
So now my fingers start to shake
It can’t be real and I can’t fake it
I can try but I can’t make it
Because I have to stay awake
Keep me awake
The boat’s are burning on my lake
My heart feels like an earthquake
Her fingernails feel like a rake
Across my back keep me awake
Keep me awake
For heaven’s sake keep me awake
If life is but a dream
Then let me wake up now
374
I want to sleep all day
I hate the morning light
I think I am becoming
A creature of the night
The stars so sweetly shining
The moon is pale and bright
I feel myself becoming
A creature of the night
I want to kiss the darkness
Supernatural sight
Fly on wings of silver silk
A creature of the night
The first star in the sky
I’m wishing that I might
I’m hoping that I may become
A creature of the night
Looking so alive
My skin so pale and white
My eyes glow like ebony
A creature of the night
375
She gets down on her knees
And spreads those lovely legs
Smiles at me sweetly as she lies
“My name is Meg”
Exotic sweet and tight
Super hot with sass
She shakes it left and right
You know the girl has class
Now she grabs the pole
And slowly spins around
Then she’s climbing up
Now she’s sliding down
Slinks across the floor
To flash a little flesh
Her skirt is made of leather
Her shirt is see-through mesh
Stud collar and a chain
Got cash dollars on the brain
She wiggles and she giggles
As she tosses her mane
Eye shadow and lipstick
Perfume smile hello
Oh so nice to meet you
But know I’ve got to go
376
Tear your heart out kill your mother
Break some glass and cut your brother
Bang your head with all your might
Go get drunk and pick a fight
Pierce your nipples and your nose
Wear lipstick and pantyhose
Shoot some dope and get real high
Life’s a bitch and then you die!!!!
Buy a Harley and some leather
Tough luck Charlie rainy weather
Smoke some crack and shoot a cop
Don’t look back cause you can’t stop
Pop some uppers drop some ‘ludes
Kick a puppy get tattooed
Wonder why you start to cry?
Life’s a bitch and then you die!!!!
Now y’chillin wit da killin
Robbing hood y’ burning stealing
Rape and murder pillage loot
Bomb your daddy’s church to boot
Crystal meth and XTC
LSD is good for me
What’s the time it’s time to buy
Life’s a bitch and then you die
377
But frogs cannot be birds
Old dogs cannot learn new tricks
At least that’s what I’ve heard
You can’t kick that same old fix
But I won’t say a word
She thinks it’s ridiculous
But I know that’s absurd
Kiss me I’ll become a prince
And you can be my queen
I won’t leave my fingerprints
If you know what I mean
You know you can’t do it
But I jump off the cliff to try
To squeeze that last sweet bit
378
The promises you hear are hollow
We all need someone to follow
But Jerry choked on a chicken dish
And now the Deadheads follow Phish
Jerry Garcia’s dead
All the hippies sit and cry
The fatman’s rockin in the sky
His skeleton has long grey hair
Telling God get out of his chair
Jerry Garcia’s dead
I heard that dead can dance
But Jerry never had a chance
Thirty years is a bit long
Singing all the same songs wrong
Jerry Garcia’s dead
True blue love oh I’m so sure
She split to go deal drugs on tour
But now the Dead don’t make a sound
‘cause Jerry’s six feet underground
Jerry Garcia’s dead
379
Reach for the unreachable
Try to kiss the sky
Playing out a fantasy
And watching it unwind
I move to grip the tide
But the sand slips through my hands
You can lead a horse to water
But you can’t make him dance
Scramble for the beaches
As I run to catch the wind
I know that it’s a sin but
I know I’ll sin again
As happy as a hog
Just come and wallow in my sty
You can lead a pig to slaughter
But you can’t tell him why
Playing in a house of cards
I deal the final round
Whoops! Aces and eights again
The whole town tumbles down
Happy as a sturgeon
As he’s hanging from the gaff
You can lead a dog to laughter
But you can’t make him laugh
380
Pumpin the groove like a muthafucka
Yeah boy!
Bustin a move like a muthafucka
Go boy!
Jumpin her bones like a muthafucka
Yeah boy!
Feelin the jones like a muthafucka
Go!
Jammin the spam like a muthafucka
Yeah boy!
Wheelin the deal like a muthafucka
Go boy!
Knockin y’boots like a muthafucka
Yeah boy!
Smackin the shoots like a muthafucka
Go!
Kickin some ass like a muthafucka
Yeah boy!
Smokin the grass like a muthafucka
Go boy!
Swillin the booze like a muthafucka
Yeah boy!
Killin the cooze like a muthafucka
Go!
381
I watch it eat her up inside
Sometimes I find a lonely rider
And I’m only one more empty ride
Here at the bar at the marina
I’m sitting slowly getting drunk
It’s been so long since I have seen
her
And I know there’s nothing left but
junk
Tastes like a shotgun burns like the
sun
I guess I only learn the hard way
What is it for? It’s just so boring
Standing high upon the shelf
I beg for more she’s out scoring
And I’m only talking to myself
So here today and gone tomorrow
So out of touch so in the pit
So I drown in seas of sorrow
She sinks down into it
382
Time was the one thing I had left
I’d nothing else to see me through
Moments seconds minutes hours
I didn’t know what else to do
I watched the clock for days and days
The hands of time had gripped my skin
They clutched my heart I lie unwaking
Caught by the fear I held within
Taking no chances for dreams
But I threw my watch into the ocean
I watched it slowly drift away
After a while it started sinking
It sank but I can’t say which way
And so I found my days were numbered
I wondered what “becomes of me?”
I once was lost in chains of reason
But now at last I’m finally free
Taking chances for dreams
383
I sat alone all dazed and wondered
What did I do to get this way?
All my dreams were torn asunder
There was nothing left to say
I wrapped myself in chains of reason
The castle walls were ringed with fear
The battlements were so tall and
mighty
I filled the moat with silent tears
The battlefield’s clear and the
soldiers are gone
Only the tattered flags carrying on
A war between lovers and family and
friends
An old boring story I know how it ends
One simple thing was all I wanted
It was the one thing I can’t keep
Drowned in the love that we once
flaunted
She slowly cries herself to sleep
But now the barricades have fallen
The well of tears at last run dry
The sun comes up the moat is empty
There are no more tears to cry
I guess that it just doesn’t matter
that much
Now even all of the flagpoles are gone
There’s only me and I’m carrying on
384
Running and hiding won’t keep it away
It’s so hard to get out of yourself
We face our demons all sooner or late
But there’s no one with you to help
Spinning and whirling you try to break
free
You’re trapped in the chains that you
made
It’s there if you look but you don’t
want to see
As you step on the mines that you laid
Turning and burning can’t put out the
flames
You jump from the pan to the fire
Scratching and crawling you’re calling
me names
But now you’re ablaze with desire
385
I just can’t seem to concentrate
I’m so fucked up inside
I keep looking over my shoulder
I see no one
I know she’s there
But I don’t care
I know that I can’t penetrate
That thin elusive stare
I keep looking into her eyes
It’s my reflection
But I’m not there
And I’m so scared
I’m afraid to contemplate
The darkness in my head
I keep looking into my heart
But it’s empty
Completely bare
There’s nothing there
386
Livin in a rainy little one horse town
Playing in a band and we’re getting
the sound
Along come a contract tell me to sign
Oh well whatever never mind
But then I take a shotgun blow me away
Then I take a shotgun blow me away
Which way to Nirvana?
Sell a million records on MTV
Everybody’s listening and looking at
me
The band’s so hot and it’s just
getting hotter
But I’m hooked up on that smackwater
And then I take a shotgun blow me away
Then I take a shotgun blow me away
Then I take a shot (gun)
Then I take a shot (gun)
Then I take a shot
And then I take a shotgun blow me away
Which way to Nirvana?
Face on the cover of a magazine
Andy shoots his gun but he don’t know
what it means
I don’t know why they’re lookin cause
there’s nothing to see
Just another sad lonely junkie
And then I took a shotgun blow me away
Double odd buckshot blow me away
Took a little shot (gun)
Took a little shot (gun)
Took a little shot
And then I took a shotgun
And blew me away
387
The game is over
Time has won
I don’t want to remember
You were the one
You were mine
You were fine
I can’t take anymore
With your sweet flesh
I will dine
These visions I cannot purge
My imagination is too lovely
It tricks me into wanting
Wanting to observe
You were the one
I love you no more
Again I will feed
My mind is not yours
Get out of my head
You were the one
Get out of my head
Before we are dead
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
I cant think, except
To see our end
I pray no more
No more to the torment
No more to the divine
No more to these visions
That invade my mind
You were one...
Thadeous
388
I guess you’ll come back
Eventually
It’s not that it’s essential
More like consequential
You’ll wind up here
Eventually
Three days on the run
I can’t believe you’re gone
Is it finally done
Or has it just begun
Eventually
I guess I’ll be gone
Eventually
It’s not like I’m demanding
Love and understanding
But I’ll be on my way
Eventually
Gotta trip away
Never stay too long
An hour to a day
A moment in a song...eventually
389
Here it comes
Daddy
Your number one
Mommy
Your here to stay
Fucker
Somebody say
Sucker
Settle down
Settle down
Settle down
Rage
You had your fun
Daddy
That deed is done
Mommy
Your hands are tied
Fucker
The rabbit died
Sucker
Settle down
Settle down
Settle down
Rage
390
I haven’t written in so long
I haven’t got a single song
Just another glass of beer
And a bong hit
Let me hit you
And can I hit you? Why? ‘cause I’m
afraid.
I haven’t played for several days
It’s hard to look at it this way
Just a pretty little girl
I can lay with
I can stay with
Can I play with you? No, I’m afraid.
I haven’t loved for many years
I couldn’t get beyond the tears
Just a simple little boy
I’m in fear of
I’m so near to
What I stayed clear of
But I did not stay clear of you
I strayed on you and I’m afraid of you
391
Baby I got something - something on my
mind
Yeah I got something - you’ve been
trying to find
Well I got something - I want you to
see
Well I got something for you sweet
baby
Have you got something for me?
So now we’re getting into the grind
Sometimes the blind lead the blind
You never know what you’ve got until
it’s gone
But it’s too late for that and so
we’ve got to carry on
Baby you got something - something
that I dig
Yeah you got something - you’ve got
something big
Well you got something - old new
borrowed and blue
I hope you got something for me
because
I’ve got something for you
And now we’re getting it on the way
Should I come or should I stay
You never know what you’ll do until
it’s done
And for your information I think this
might be the one
‘cause we got something - we’ve got
something hot
And we got something - we’ve got
something cool
We got something - dank skank funky
and green
We got something - you know what I
mean
392
I’m envisioning a new transition
Motivated to create a state of flow
To rock where angels fear to go
Dependant only on the air conditions
And fly fly fly fly
I sat on a bench beside the trench
Induced to fabricate the flux
I had to rent a brand new tux
And grad a hold a’ my monkey wrench
And turn turn turn turn
A wicked little wiccan flicked my bic
And played a trick on me
She licked my sticky wicket
And convinced me I was stuck and now
I’m
Fucked fucked fucked fucked
A raging little Cajun babe she
Played me for a fool laid me
Down on concrete and then
Tied me to a stool and she was
Cruel cruel cruel cruel cruel
393
Los banditos necessitan las pistolas
Los banditos necessitan bandeleros
Los banditos necessitan senoritas
Los banditos necessitan mas deneiro
Mas y mas y mas
Mas y mas y mas
Mas y mas deneiro!
Los banditos necessitan sus sombreros
Los banditos necessitan muchas drogas
Los banditos necessitan mas tequila
Los banditos necessitan mas cerveza
Mas y mas y mas
Mas y mas y mas
Mas y mas cerveza!
Los banditos necessitan sus amigos
Los banditos necessitan sus hermanos
Los banditos necessitan los cigaros
Los banditos necessitan abogados
No! Los banditos no necessitan abogados!
Necessitan mas y mas y mas
Mas y mas y mas
Mas mas senoritas!
394
Now I know that I’m the one
Someone run get me a gun
Now I know it’s here to stay
That’s why I’m blowing me away
My job is done I’ve got a son
So please forgive my final pun
As I lean upon my cane
I’m unable to take the pain
And I stand up straight as I fall down
And I stand up straight as I fall down
And I stand up straight as I fall down
And I fall down
I’ve been trying to stay positive
I’ve got good reasons to live
But I can’t find a reason why
It isn’t time for me to die
We’ve all got a point to make
I’ve only got my word to break
But no one makes a single sound
Buried six feet under ground
And I stand up straight as I fall down
And I stand up straight as I fall down
And I stand up straight as I fall down
And I stand up
395
Woke up in my clothes again
The fifteenth time this week
For what it’s worth I feel the earth
Inheriting the meek
Grouchy sleeping on the couch
And me an empty bed
Some of us are grateful
And some of us are dead
Once we both saw eye to eye
And we danced cheek to cheek
Now we’re standing toe to toe
And we can’t even speak
Crying still we turn away
Got someone to blame
A cold cruel pail of water
Extinguishes the flame
396
Love me - I hate it when you love me
Need me - I don’t need you to need me
Touch me so I can flinch when you
touch me
Cut me - so I can say that I bleed
Bleed bleed bleed
Calamity Jane
She’s a calamity Jane
Calamity Jane
She’s a calamity
Save me - I don’t want you to save me
Kiss me - so I can turn away
Slap me - so I can say that you hurt
me
Hold me - so I can leave today
Hey yay way
Calamity Jane
She’s a calamity Jane
Calamity Jane
She’s a calamity
She’s a calamity
Want me - I don’t want you to want me
Help me - won’t you take my hand
Take me - I just can’t let you take me
Woman - doesn’t need a man
Band stand plan
She planned to be
Calamity Jane
She’s a calamity Jane
Calamity Jane
She’s a calamity
She’s a calamity
397
Nightmares
Of
Children
Crying
Screaming
And
Dying
Hourly
Reminding
Me
Of
The
Crime
I’m
Committing
Sitting
So
Passively
Waiting
398
The harder I try
I get more nowhere quick
I just can’t do those backflips
Quite fast enough
I shovel that shit
At the tide till I’m sick
And the waters are
Frigid and rough
Drowning
I push toward the shore
But get further away
From a beach I can
No longer see
I pray for some more
But get less every day
Bedeviled by the cold
Deep blue sea
Drowning
And so I go down
For the third and last time
The fish wear a frown
As I sink
I breathe in the water
So salty and sweet
And you are the last thought
I think...
399
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
If you don’t take it out
And use it it’ll rust and it’s just
Too little too
Too little too
Too little too late to matter
Too little too
Too little too
Too little too late
You do what you can and when
You can’t do what you must
You do what you want when
Love’s a by product of lust and you
thrust
Too little too
Too little too
Too little too late to matter
Too little too
Too little too
Too little too late
You can’t stop the flood
When there is no one you can trust
Stick your finger in the dike
But she’s a freeze and it’s a bust
400
A little tiny baby Lord
It’s tiny heart still breakin’
It’s hard to sing a song of life
When your life has been taken
Some people think that life’s a toy
And love is just a game
You get back your freedom
And you leave ‘em with the blame
Try as I might though I scrub day and
night
I can’t wash the blood of the innocent
from my hands
In America you kill a man
You go to jail for life
I can’t believe how cheaply
We put children to the knife
I believe in freedom
And I always fought for choice
But you can’t fight for your own life
When you don’t have a voice
Try as I might though I scrub day and
night
I can’t wash the blood of the innocent
from my hands
401
More and more love
More and more money
More and more rope
More and more dope
More and more and more and more and
more yeah
More and more sex
More and more violence
More and more noise
More and more silence
More and more and more and more and
more yeah
More and more and more and more and
more
Solo
More and more words
More and more action
More and more fire
More desire
More and more and more and more and
more
More and more and more and more and
more
More and more wine
More and more beer
More and more pain
More and more fear
More and more and more and more and
more
More and more and more and more and
more
More and more and more and more and
more
More and more and more and more and
more
More?
402
Down by the ocean
Love lost tears they fly
I’ve seen them for as I go
Time it seems passes her by
Pain and torn pride with steel inside
Keeps you from my call far from my
side
Dictation you give soothes only you
Recitation of your will is your only
truth
All at once the break becomes yours
Your tears melt the ice you gave
Tears that cannot turn back my wasted
time
That the queen the queen of what will
be
Rule’s not my soul none that you can
see
Keeping my fists clenched the sound i
turn around
Red as blood we break ground
As you dance toward your very end
I can’t control myself and laugh at
the thought
...Frankie
I’m standing here by an ocean so blue
Watching your love lost tears fly
I’ve seen them fall at my feet as I go
But time is just passing me by
She was the queen of what we might
have been
But she can’t rule my soul if you know
what I mean
Pain and torn pride with your steel
deep inside
The words you say soothe only you
You hide from me you’re so far from my
side
The games you play are your only truth
Fuck you bitch
All at once I see the break now is
yours
Your tears melt the ice that you gave
But tears cannot turn back the time
that I wasted
And you waste the time that I saved
She was the queen of what we might
have been
But she can’t rule my soul if you know
what I mean
Clenching my fists my ears hide from
the sound
Red as the blood that we split on the
ground
And you dance toward your end with the
pain that you bought
I can’t stop myself as I laugh at the
thought
...Andy
403
Secrets
Inside my head
Secrets
Under my bed
Secrets
Under rock and tree
Secrets
Between you and me
Secrets
In a gold mine
Canary
In a coal mine
Need a soul
I’ll sell you mine
Better make
What you can’t find
404
My voice just cracks
Shooting smack
My face like stone
I roll the bones
And she cracks the whip (3x)
And she cracks
My heart like steel
I cannot feel
My veins like ice
It feels so nice
And she cracks the whip (3x)
And she ... Cracks
I ride the rails
I’m driving nails
Into my hands
I’m the son of man
And she cracks the whip (3x)
And she cracks
405
I used to like what I heard on the
radio
I grew up on rock and roll
Now everybody sounds the same
They’ve just got different names
Stoned Jam Pearl Temple Pilots
I need a new alternative
Sick of taking what they give
I’m tired of Seattle
It’s time to start the battle
Stoned jam pearl temple pilots
406
When you tell me you are gay
All I can say is so what Jack
What do I care if you attack
From the front side or the back?
Why should you get political clout
Just for your bedroom games
Go ahead and say that I’m a bigot
‘cause I love it when you call me
names
I’m a breeder (3x) and I’m not proud
You can call me a homophobe
But that does not make me scared
I’m not afraid to kiss a man
‘cause it makes the fine girls stare
I just love my feminine side
I love my long brown hair
We’re here and we’re queer you say
But I don’t fucking care
‘cause I’m a breeder and I’m not proud
407
You can’t drown your sorrows
When your sorrows learn to swim
You can’t fight the demon
If your swallowing him
I wallow in the ocean
A sea that I can’t see
For the beast that killed the Indian
man
Is killing me
Fire
Water
The spirit is weak and so the flesh is
willing
I can’t feel the highway and
The ground looks upside down
Taste it till it’s wasted
Engine scream can’t hear a sound
Tomorrow time I borrowed’s
Due with tax and that’s a fact
A vision of collision waters
Filling me
Fire
Water
408
Get a new guitar
Buy a set of keys
Try to be a star
LSD and XTC
No way - don’t tell my what to do
I don’t care what you say - i(f) you
Use a different beat
Try some other voice
Sing a newer tune
Red hot sweet and moist
Wetter
No way - don’t tell my what to do
I don’t care what you say - i(f) you
Smoke a cigarette
Don’t you drink and drive
Wanna do it? Let’s
Try to stay alive
No way - don’t tell my what to do
I don’t care what you say - i(f) you
Wear another look
Or a hipper feel
I got back what you took
Forget what’s real and steal
No way - don’t tell my what to do
I don’t care what you say
409
Everything’s groovy now
Everything’s fine
I’m feeling so glad
To be alive
Everyone’s crying
On the radio
Dying to spit out
Hot black poison fear
Rip out hearts and lungs
High on the breaking rungs
Ladders that point to the sky
Freaking out shrieking
Over pale guitars wailing
I’m sailing upon seas of cheese
Everything’s groovy now
Everything’s fine
I’m feeling so glad
To be alive
I hear them whining
On the stereo
Trying to dry
Off their tears
Trip out on superdrugs
Lying like Asian rugs
Could be I’ve been getting high
Standing demanding
Again reprimanding
Get out of my face if you please
410
I hear a pretty woman’s voice
Upon my telephone
She says that she loves me
And she’s all alone
Sometimes you get burned
On scalding frying pans
But you’re wasting your time if
You cry for this man
I hear a pretty woman’s voice
Upon my radio
She’s under the pink I guess
She don’t wanna know
You better make it soon boy
Only want what you can’t hold
You better make it soon boy
‘cause you’re gettin kind of old
411
What’s more?
What is more?
What’s more?
What is?
Once more!
This or that?
Dog or cat?
Rabbit white?
A fool’s delight?
What’s more?
What is more?
What’s more?
What is?
Once more!
Fric or frac?
Coke or crack?
Flip or flap?
Punk or rap?
What’s more?
What is more?
What’s more?
What is?
Once more!
412
What do you do when your dreams come
true?
Do you wake up when you die?
And if your life’s a nightmare
Do you get a happy ending?
Anyone can do anything if you
Get out there and try
Find out you can straighten out
The reality you’re bending
413
Everybody out there bitchin
They’re snortin and they’re itchin
Cooking it in the kitchen
Shoot dope, sing and get rich
It’s a media blitz
Life can be such a bummer
As winter follows summer
She overdosed the drummer
He died when he tried to come
It’s a media blitz
Radio television
Are on a solo mission
Beat you into submission
Kneel and receive the kiss
It’s a media blitz
414
My future might be lost in a drug
filled haze
My future might be lost in a new clear
blaze
My future might be lost on a purge and
binge
My future might be lost when I come
unhinged
But I’ve got a future
My future might be lost in a ‘copter
crash
My future might be lost in a piece of
gash
My future might be lost on a brand new
bride
My future might be lost on suicide
But I’ve got a future
My future might be lost in a dead end
job
My future might be lost in the banks I
rob
My future might be lost at a ripe old
age
My future might be lost getting shot
onstage
But I’ve got a future
415
Get paid to play for dozens
Get shit to play for tons
An empty fist full of twenties
A fist stuffed full of ones
The more I try to push it
The more I go astray
The more I try to pull it
The more I slip away
Get laid to kiss with cousins
Get shit to lay with one
An empty list full of lonely
A blister full of fun
The more I try to grasp it
The more I suck the air
The more I try to grip it
The less I seem to care
Get stuck pluckin your chicken
I get mucked up in your game
Sometimes grooves are sickening
And sometimes rules are lame
The more I keep it steady
The more I interrupt
The more I get it ready
The more I fuck it up
416
You can’t fool a liar
‘cause they know when you lie
It’s hard to cheat the reaper
If he sees you when you die
It ain’t easy staying grounded
When you’re fifteen miles high
You want to be a mountain
But you’re stuck here in the sky
But I know we can do it
You can’t fake being sexy
You haven’t eaten in days
It’s difficult to find yourself
You’re lost in this maze
It ain’t easy being cheerful
Got to shake off this malaise
You want to be a forest
But your trees are ablaze
But I know we can do it
You can’t help the lonely
‘cause you’re stuck here the crowd
It’s hard staying silent
If the music’s too loud
It ain’t easy staying clear
When you’re sky’s so full of clouds
You’re a fruitful blooming orchard
And your field has been plowed
And I know we can do it
417
Just another musical casualty
Acid stomach penny royalty
The fans boil over with loyalty
And they’re coming to get me
Got a real faithful following
Chewing what they’re spewing and
swallowing
Higher than a pig sty wallowing
And they’re coming to get me
I look and see the truce muse
sorrowing
Stealing the idea I am borrowing
I living in the past tomorrowing
And they’re coming to get me
Spent unbending energy
Sleeping once again with the enemy
Past tense future history
And they’re coming to get me
418
Living on a treadmill
Feeling like I’m dead
I wanna go to sleep
But I can’t go to bed
Haven’t got a thing to say
Listen what I said
I’m so Hungary
I wanna get fed
I wanna get down get it on(2x)
I wanna get
Dancing on a land mine
Walking in the sand
Handing out the beat downs
Getting out of hand
Landing in the airport
Dancing with the fans
You can’t steal nothing
From an honest man
I wanna get down get it on(2x)
I wanna get
Stealing from the feeling reeling
Really getting hot
Giving it away now
Living what I got
Trying what I’m buying flying
Never ever thought
I’d be rotting in the can (finding
what I sought)
Because I got caught (seeing what I
wrought [rot?] Bought)
I wanna get down get it on (2x)
I wanna get
419
What is going on around here?
I must admit that I’m a bit confused
Things are sort of getting kind of
weird
I think that I could use a little
blues
I guess there’s only one more thing
for me
I need a little psychotherapy
Drink and smoke and work and eat and
sleep
Forgive me if I’m living in a funk
I don’t want you to think that I’m a
creep
But I can’t help the fact that I’m a
punk
I guess there’s only one more thing
for me
I need a little psychotherapy
I’d like to take a pill and just get
gone
I’d like a little time to catch my
breath
I don’t think I’ve the strength to
carry on
I want to live my life before my death
I guess there’s only one more thing
for me
I need a little psychotherapy
420
I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t know where I’ve been
I don’t know what to think
And I don’t know what to do
I don’t know why I’m breathing
And I don’t know what I’ve seen
I don’t know why I drink
Don’t know who to be true to
I want some answers
But I get none
I don’t know why I’m lonely
And I don’t know why I’m cold
I don’t know who to stay with
And I don’t know who to leave
Don’t know why I’m angry
Don’t know why I’m getting old
I don’t know who to lie to
Don’t know who to believe
I want some answers
But I get none
I don’t know why I’m funky
And I don’t know why I’m cool
I don’t know why I’m playing
In a rock and roll band
I don’t know why I’m empty
Don’t know why I’m in school
I don’t know who God is
And is God only a man?
I want some answers
But I get none
421
I hate it when stupid shallow narrow
minded muthafuckas approach me with their so called attitude and this narrow
minded bullshit slimy scummy satin silky milky white tone of voice arrogant
affluent hell bent for nowhere man you starin at me? Your armchair flair
doesn’t fuckin impress anyone dig it? You come off all slick and smooth but
that groovy implant sex change accent can’t kick shit for the back beat of your
flack jacket jack hammer go head dead white bread stammer and shake your damn
flim flam glamour slammer I ain’t breakin you thinkin you can fake me out? You
dreamin Stephen
I is gwine to kick yo fuckin ass right
now G.
Q: “Does alcohol really help your writing?”
A: “I think it only seems to, and then only for a
little while.”
A: “I don’t know.”
422
Forget about war
Forget about anger
Forget about pain
Forget about fear
Forget about more
Forget about hunger
Forget about floods
Of angry tears
Party and have a good time (3x)
Time’s all you’ve got
Don’t waste it
Thank you big brother
Forget about peace
Forget about Haiti
Forget about Iran
Forget Iraq
Forget Ed Meese
And Serbo-Croatia
Forget the treat
New clear attack
Party and have a good time (3x)
Time’s all you’ve got
Don’t waste it
Thank you big brother
Forget about welfare
Forget about crack
Forget about health care
Forget about smack
Forget the planet
Forget the news
Forget the reds
Forget the blues
Party and have a good time (3x)
Time’s all you’ve got
Don’t waste it
Thank you big brother
423
She was working at the supermarket you
know that’s where we met
I said if that’s not a wedding ring
I’d like to get you wet
Her name is Melody - Mellow Dee
She got a great big Puerto Rican
husband who does anything she say
Her name is Melody - Mellow Dee
I left her dancing in the sunset - I
don’t know where she went
I think I straightened her out a bit
but I just wound up bent - spent
Her name is Melody - Mellow Dee
424
I never take my tea at four o’clock
I’d rather whiskey morn and noon
I’m pround to tell you that I come
from County Cork
I’m an Irishman in New York
I’ll tell ye my sheleighli sure is
long and hard
I’d whip ye soon as I would meet yer
eye
Punch yer in the face if ye should
laugh at how I talk
I’m an Irishman in New York
Fer laughs I’d walk me ass to the
Blarney Stone
And there I’d proceed to take a piss
And then I’d return on the followin
morn
And chuckle as the tourist bent to
kiss
But now I’m an Irishman in New York
425
The vampire and the nightingale
Sink your fangs into the vein
Eternity you’ll remain
Refer to me insane
I sleep during the day
I feed on hunger
Dine on pain
426
The queens of spades and diamonds
Clubbed my heart into the ground
And kicked me when I tried to gain my
feet
Been laid and done some time and
Dubbed my part into the sound
But it blocks the way to my one last
retreat
Searching for a face whose memory I
can not erase
They trick me into staring in the
mirror
If I could only turn away escape from
this place
But I’m stuck I have to face what I’m
in fear of
I have played and done the crime and
Rubbed my smarts into the mound
Come on push me down I won’t keep my
seat
Stayed with some for dimes and
Flubbed my lines and fuck it all
I give up because this stupid poem is
beat
427
The gray rainy New York skyline
Sinks in the cold clammy October fog
She reaches for a distant star
And is blocked by the thick mean
clouds
The traffic honks and screeches
Taxis weaving through the massive
Gridlock network of cars
The beautiful sweet smelling
Women pass by angrily
Frightened eyes covered
Hurrying through the rain
And an ice pick of lonely
Stabs me in the heart from behind
Tight empty faces lace
Their paces through the crowd
Spinning through the thriving tourist
throng
And I long for someone warm and soft
to cling to
Later on I walk the empty New York
streets
At night I’m stalking peace of mind
and
I wonder as I wander off hollowly
428
Here I sit with my back to the wall
Pen in hand as I wait for it
The ride that I’m thumbing
Soon will be coming
The thing I’m becoming
Will be coming along
Starving for affection devoid of
direction
I choke on my erection drowning
Inspired by desire I inquire where to
go
The lonely streets are empty full of
whores
Deeper down the well
The answers lie deeper down the well
Into the pit
429
I feel it growing in my head
That noise I know it wants me dead
This song keeps pulling at my hair
It hates my guts but I don’t care
Grind it out spit wretch can’t keep it
down inside
Hide that pride decide to lose the
things I find
I see it spilling from my hands
This thing is filling me with sand
These chords and notes can’t be
controlled
They can’t be bought they won’t be
sold
Throw it up puke hurl can’t keep it
down inside
Hide that pride decide to kill the
things I grow
430
Shit that’s so depressing oh
Shit that’s so depressing damn!
431
(I can’t help the way I am
I’m only doing what I can
I know I’m far from perfect
I disconnect I’m just a man)
Perry says sex is just violence
Tori’s been silent for years
Kurt simply begged me to rape him
And Sting was just driven to tears
But I just wanna get away
From this feeling inside of me
Get away from me leave me alone
I just wanna get away from the tears
that you cry for me
Get away I just wanna go home
We’re just the X generation
Janie just got a new gun
A breakdown mass communication
I want the whole black sun to come
(Eat sleep work school
Teach play do be
If my life is so full
Then why am I so empty?)
I just wanna get away
From this feeling inside of me
Get away from me leave me alone
I just wanna get away from the tears
that you cry for me
Get away I just wanna go
Yes I wanna go
I just wanna go
Home
432
I love you I miss you
I kill you when I kiss you
Remember: forget me
I’ll hurt you if you let me
I need you come quickly
I’m sick and I’m lonely
I only believe you
When you tell me to leave
We’re all alone in this world I’ve
heard
The empty cage has killed the bird
I cut you I slash you
I break you I smash you
Surrender you beat me
You conquer and defeat me
You feed me so sweetly
You clean it up so neatly
I lie only the truth
When I’m deceived
433
Dogs and flowers
There was a lovely flower
So delicate and sweet
The dogs would kneel and cower
And grovel at her feet
She’d remove their collars
For the dollars on the bar
Lying in the gutter
Higher than the stars
And she chokes on the pain
Of this unspoken refrain
The needle remains in the vein
But the chain is broken
The flowers got a whip love
And a master that she flogs
But you can’t keep the fleas off
When lying down with dogs
Eyeballs full of pin holes
Scratching at the itch
A mouth full of I love you’s
But love is just a bitch
And she chokes on the pain
Of this unspoken refrain
The needle remains in the vein
But the chain is broken
434
This picture of you etched in my mind
The link that snaps the ties that bind
A dream chasing after the leaves as
they fall
Leaves me to wonder can that really be
all?
We can’t say a word now
The silence so loud
We look at each other
Our father and mother
Both reaching for something
We can’t see to touch
It once seemed so easy
But now it’s just too much
435
She’s easy
She’s an easy girl
E Z E Z girl
She’s super gonzo wilder
Shirley pass the test
Uplift mofo female
But the part that I like best is that
She’s easy
She’s an easy girl
E Z E Z E Z
E Z girl
Little solo
Uptown deep brown smiler
Soul right to the heart
Fine strong kickin lady
But I admit my favorite part is that
She’s easy
She’s an easy girl
E Z E Z E Z
E Z E Z E Z
E Z E Z E Z
Big solo
Bona fide slide glider
Man she’s sister cool
She’s my little baby
And I’m her lovin fool because
She’s easy
She’s an easy girl
Fade
436
Gotta getta setta gravity boots!
I been drinkin tequila I been bouncin
off the walls
I been floating in limbo I jump but I
don’t fall
Gotta getta setta gravity boots!
I feel stuck too the ceiling drifting
around the sky
Kinda bent my sense is reeling don’t
remember getting so high
Gotta getta setta gravity boots!
The steps that I been taking are giant
Feeling like a walk on the moon
Need that handy dandy appliance
Got to get ‘em soon
Gotta getta setta gravity boots!
437
C’est fini - say it’s over
Will you come back to me?
C’est fini - say it’s over
Don’t say it’s over
I can’t handle you
And you don’t understand me
Neither of us listens
I don’t hear and you can’t see
There’s nothing left to say anyway
And I guess it’s time that we
Say fini - say it’s over
C’est fini - say it’s over
Will you come back to me?
C’est fini - don’t say it’s over
It ain’t over
‘till it’s over
You can’t handle me
And I don’t understand you
Lying to ourselves and each other
Swearing that it’s true
We just keep on talking
And there’s nothing we can do but
C’est fini say it’s over
But it ain’t over
Solo
Can we handle this?
A kiss lost in a mile
Wild memories piled in a smile
Forget me for a while
Trial and error terror on the wing
But at least we go in style
Starting over
438
This space dedicated to further lack
of inspiration
439
Weird baby weird baby
You’re so weird
Nose ring fingering
Nipple rings two
How the hell did I
Fall in love with you?
Snap that shaft off
What’ll ya do you’re so
Weird baby
Weird babe
Cause you’re weird baby
Weird baby you’re so weird
Weird baby
Weird babe
Ankle chain main vein
Turning blue
Hot shot fox trot
Kalamazoo
Puttin that foot
On the other shoe
You’re so
Weird baby
Weird babe
Get weird
Half baked cheese cake
Comin through
Step back she’ll run
Over you
Nailing that spike
Right into the screw
Cause she’s
Weird baby
Weird baby
She’s so weird
Weird baby
Weird babe
440
I’m goin home to Caroline
Ballin that jack and drinkin my wine
Feel a little high but that’s just
fine
I’m goin home to Caroline
Sweet Caroline
Sweet sweet Caroline
Sweet Caroline
I’m goin home to Caroline
Soon I’ll be goin across that line
Red hot mama baby look at the time
Can’t wait to get to that girl of mine
I’m goin home to Caroline
Chorus - solo
She is the ocean and I’m the brine
A sea of emotion I can see the signs
There’s somethin on my mind she helps
me find
I’m goin home to Caroline
Chorus
441
I’m trying to
Concentrate
Now concentrate
Concentrate
Now concentrate
Distraction
Concentrate
Now concentrate
Distraction
Concentrate
Distraction
Concentrate
Distraction
Concentrate
Distraction
Frustration
Concentrate
Distraction
Frustration
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
Surrender
442
Sister Crystal - wearing that pentacle
around your neck
Sister Crystal - might be dangerous
what the heck
Sister Crystal - you don’t have to
read my palm
Sister Crystal - I just want to make
you calm
Sister Crystal - nose ring fingering
nipple rings two
Sister Crystal - hey I want to get one
too
Sister Crystal - I can feel the stars
and the planets align
Sister Crystal - oh by the way babe
what’s your sign?
Sister Crystal - can you tell by the
lay of the cards?
Sister Crystal - some kind of easy
making it hard
Sister Crystal - see the candle
burning bright
Sister Crystal - fortune smile on me
tonight
443
Tense
Mad
Hurt
Wired up
Burnt
Thrashed
I used to use it
I’ve got to have it
I know I need it
I want it so bad
I can’t get it at all
Blind
Pain
Fear0
Strung out
Seared
Trashed
I only tasted it
I never wasted it
Can’t live without it
I want it so bad
I can’t get it at all
Cut
Slice
Slit
Bleed in
Broken
Smashed
You try to wake it
You start to shake it
You cry about it
You want it so bad
You’ll never get it at all
444
Trying to find
What I’m looking for
You know I aim to give it a shot
Don’t give me no lip
Honey you know the score
My lot in life is getting a lot
Wham bam calamity
I’m ready to blow
The only way to keep your sanity
Is let it go
Let it go
I let it go
Solo
Drink that wine
And chew the wafer
I know exactly what I am not
Don’t believe in nothing
But I’m nobody’s fool for
A story someone’s already bought
I’ve been with the trinity
Got nothing to show
The only way to keep your sanity
Is let it go (3x)
Let it go (3x)
Let it go (3x)
Let it go
I let it go
Go
Solo
Live that line
The danger’s safer
I’m walking on the watery wine
You can take whatever you want
If you can get it
But you’d best be sure that I’m
getting mine
Mingle with divinity
I’m letting you know
The only way to keep your sanity
Is let it go
445
Feel you from the inside
Stuck I’m standing outside
A feeling like a landmine
Sliding down the incline
I can’t get away
It’s got me
I can’t get away
Can’t get away
Escape
Numb with coming stop time
Looking for a new rhyme
A mountain or a molehill
All fucked up but I’m fine
I can’t get away
It’s got me
I can’t get away
Can’t get away
Escape
Slippery like a landslide
Fire on the broadside
Lying on the roadside as
The boys and girls collide
I can’t get away
It’s got me
I can’t get away
Can’t get away
Escape
446
Moments ago you were in my hands
Miles away so far
Show me the way to the Promised Land
Wishing upon a star
Sparkle on a diamond - penny or a
pound
As long as it’s shining - lying on the
ground
Grind
Hours before you were here with me
Listening to the sound
O please lead me to god’s country
Finding a way around
Find a way
Seconds at the airport - hours at the
bar
Kissing at the gate and - waiting for
the airplane
Trying to catch that last sweet bliss
Well I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
447
Wanna be pop star
Better off dead
Listening to the music
Of the voices in my head
Screaming
Shaking like an earthquake
More than I can take
Flaking like a shake’n’bake
Make me stay awake I’m
Dreaming
Junky
Love junky
Flip top blow off
Water your dune
Can’t stop shake cough
Needle and spoon
Needing
Fall down scream and shout
Take a swing and hit
Knock down drag out
Doesn’t hurt a bit
Bleeding
Junky
Love junky
Burned out turn on
Heading for the hills
I don’t smoke rock cock
Powders or pills
Inhaling
Don’t have much but
I know what I’ve got
I’m getting out of here
Parachute or not
I’m bailing
Sailing
Feeding
Screaming
Junky
Love junky
448
Nine hundred ninety nine
Mighty fine lines
Who the hell gives a fuck
No one’s fault but mine
Sly shine saturnine
Get behind the grind
Morse code horse feathers
Air force number five
Fuck you home-wrecker
Try to stay alive
449
I’m so fucking behind
I’m so fucking behind
I’m so fucking behind
I’m so fucking behind
450
Stitten kootin fattin shitten mitten
Der vicksiche shabba mabba
Finda shafta hassenfeifer
(Howthahelld’yaspellhassenfeffer?)
Scooby dooby
Sheinder fadda badda gooby fabben
Hadda badda hooden flabber
Blinda batta matta facta little
Nookie cookie
Allenhellen breakenloosen oops!
I verify da noose truce man!
Doony acid lately?
451
Boy is this creative!
O boy? Is this creative?
Creative boy! Is this?
This is: creative boy!
Is creative boy this?
This boy is creative.
Boy! This word is weird!
Create?
Crete?
Koreate?
Kree-aht
Achtung!
Tongue lashing
Smashing pumpkin
Funking rock on
Monkey funkers!
Peace fuck head.
452
Holy writ nit wit
Dontcha nowat
Chuben dooin
Flip trip bowendownen
Goin wit da
Flowin knowin
Gitten hype strike gold
Gettin olden
Feeling being
Lemme tellya
Watcha thinkya seeing
Isn’t watcha seeing
453
If
You dream
Scenes you haven’t seen
And
If
You come
Increasingly undone
If you stare at the sun
You can feel it
Burning
Feel it burning
If
You twist
Slip and slide away
And
If
You come
Around some other day
I come undone
Staring at the sun
I can feel it
I can feel it
I can feel it
I can feel it
Burn
If
You see
The light and turn away
If
You ask
They’d tell you what I would say
This is the one
Burning like the sun
On fire
On fire
Burning
Feel it burning
Burn
Burn
Burn
Burn
454
It’s 2 a.m. and there’s nothing but
Whiskey and water to drink
I need a friend I’m lonely
All I do is sit by the water and I
think why?
Another show tomorrow night
The candles burning out but the
shadows are bright
Neon glow and the lamplight
Are all that’s left to keep me alive
tonight
But why?
455
Burn out on the edge of extremes
It’s easy if you know the way
The tide turns on the twist of my
dreams
Wake up and throw the ship away
Bon o so close to the edge ya know
He’s stepping off the ledge
Words spilling out of my lips
I’ve got nothing to say
But nothing
Great big nothing
Great big nothing
Great big nothing nothing nothing
Turned on to the sound of the drums
It’s coming from beneath the ground
Rumbling like thunder as
Your head begins to pound
Oh no don’t go stay with me
I know you know nothing’s free
So simple nothing’s lost
And nothing is found
But nothing
Great big nothing
I’m feeling nothing
Great big
Look in to the mirror see
No there’s no one left but me
Crumbling to powder as
They set the captive free
Quick! Duck! Bad luck hit the road
I don’t need your mother load
You let me do everything
Now let me be - be nothing
Great big nothing
Nothing but nothing
Great big nothing
This is nothing
I am nothing
Ain’t seen nothing
Great big nothing nothing nothing
I just want a little bit give me just
a little bit
Something just a little bit anything
just a little bit
Please just a little bit O please O
please O please O please
456
Find me fuck me forget me
Find me fuck me forget me
I am just a plaything
I am not for real
Perfect isolation
4 emotions I can’t feel
No love in my pocket
No sorrow for tomorrow
No fear left in here
And of course there’s no remorse
FM
Find me fuck me forget me
Find me fuck me forget me
I am not the real thing
Spastic plastic fake
Just want a little more of
More than I can take
No pain in my veins and
No shame for the slain
No lies left to hide
There’s nothing left inside
FM
Find me fuck me forget me
Find me fuck me forget me
You think I can’t make it
457
We’re here at the beginning
We’re here at the beginning
Funky doll funk on dat
Funky doll funk all out
You come to rocka rolla
You come to mystify
You come to cold and sweating
You try to justify
But(t)
Funky doll funk it up
Funky doll funk it all
Bbbbbbig solo
You come too close to winning
You come too far to quit
You come to clean the sinning
You come to crucify it
Come clean
Fuck it all
We’re back at the beginning
We’re back at the beginning
458
Gotta ten gallon hat
And I don’t give a hoot
I’m kickin that shit
Wit m’cowboy boots
I smoke Marlboro
Drink bud too
And Ima goin to the ro-dee-o wit chew
And Ima cunt tree 2 da bone
Gotta big hoss anna
Jin-gly spurs
Stubborn ole mule
And a cat dat purrs
Big ole barn on
M’big ole farm
Forty five unnerneath my arm
And Ima cunt tree 2 da bone
Mud slinging tug rat
Tractor pull
Ropin em calves
An ridin em bulls
Allemand left witcha big right taw
Roundy round anna doe see doe
You dance mighty pretty my pretty fine
miss
Howsa bouta kiss baby don’t you know
Ima cunt tree 2 da bone
459
What have I got to say?
What?
I have got to say
What?
I have got to stay loose
I have got to stay tight
I have got to stay strong
I have got to stay right
Say what?
I have got to stay fit
I have got to get it
I have got to stay high
I have got to stay
Why?
Have I got to say why?
Have I got to say
When
I have got what I
Want I have got two
Extremes I have
More than I need
How I need who I want
Where I am when I want
Where o where and o why?
Where o where and o why?
Where o where and o why?
460
I don’t know what I want
And I don’t want to know
I want to go somewhere
But where am I to go?
I want to be someone
But who am I to say?
Which way
Am I to go?
Don’t know
Don’t know what I’m here for
And I don’t know why I came
Come in lie on the floor but
The same is just the same
A lie I wish to promise
A game I’ve got to play
This way
It’s got to be
Victory
Fighting in the trenches
Benches on your knees
Beneath your excuses
You’re clenching your teeth
Hello I must be going
I’m going far away
To stay
I’m praying
Hair graying
Skin flaying
Knot fraying
Hens laying
Wolves baying
461
U T the 1 in my sweetest dreams
I make you come undone at the seams
Passionate screams and the smell of
your skin
Drowning at the gate U let me in
U R the 1 I’m searching 4
Undo the latch open the door
I need some more for what it’s worth
U R the ocean I am the earth
U T the 1 my dearest love
The sun so bright but you’re high
above
The farthest star up in the sky
I’d die 4 U but who am I?
U R the 1 most wanted girl
I am the moon and you’re my world
Twirling the torch of most deep desire
Let me touch the flame set me on fire
462
C’est moi c’est moi
Somewhat somewhat
Someone someone
Semaine semaine
Samhaine samhaine
Sucka!
Fuck it
463
Wanna
Hit that spot in your unconscious
Hit that spot and you’re unconscious
I must admit it’s most convincing
It makes me though I know it’s wrong
It makes me feel like I’m invincible
But I’m too weak and it’s too strong
Wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna
It makes me scream in pain delighted
Insane crawling on the floor
It makes me bleed the more I need it
I can’t take it makes me beg for more
O Solo Mia
Hit that spot in my unconscious
Hit that spot am I unconscious?
I just cannot live without
It makes me rise and shine
A diamond mine of gold and pearls and
It makes me feel so fine
I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna
I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna
It makes me feel like I’m on fire
And I’m burning up inside
Electric shock high tension wire
It makes me choose I can’t decide
I wanna I wanna
I can’t decide
I wanna Iwanna
I can’t decide
464
Who fucking cares anyway?
It’s four in the fucking morning
You dumbshit asshole
Go the fuck to sleep
Don’t you get it?
Get your shit together bonehead!
Gorge, guzzle, and wench
For tomorrow we get gutted!
Good night.
465
I wanna be a six-point star
Shapes and angles on all sides
I wanna be a rhombus
Then I would be satisfied
I wanna be a circle
How come I’m so square
The light’s on in the corner
But there’s nobody there
My point of view’s
Somewhat rectangular
My figure eight is out of round
And if I could be the pentagon
There’d be no pentagon around
Octagonal stop signs everywhere
From here to there
You’re supposed to be a straight line
I’m so crooked I don’t care
466
Help me through the night
Help me see the dawn
Help me be the light
Help me carry on
Carry on carry on
Carry on carry on
Carry
On (2 3 4)
Help me kiss the sky
Help me touch the sun
Help me fly so igh
Help me be the one
To carry on carry on
Carry on
Carry carry
(1 2)
Solo
Riff
Help me start the fire
Help me stir the mud
Water getting higher
You can’t stop the flood
Carry on carry on
Carry on carry on
Carry carry carry
On
467
See you moving through the moonlight
See you laughing in the rain
You say everything is all right
You try not to show the pain
As you slip away
Slip away 4x
See you standing in the sunshine
See you dancing in the sand
Yes you’re all messed up but that’s
fine
You don’t need another man
You just slip away
Slip away 4x
See you walking toward the doorway
See you turn around and stare
See you telling me it’s o.k.
It doesn’t mean that you don’t care
So you slip away
Slip away
468
I’m only doing the best I can
I hope that you understand
I know I’m so far from perfect
I disconnect I’m just a man
I just wanna get away...
Tears that you cry for me
You say you love for what I’m not
I try to be there for you
But I can’t give you what I haven’t
got
There’s nothing else I can do
I just wanna get away...
Pain that you hide from me
I can’t be everywhere all the time
Can’t do it all in a day
Nothing much matters don’t care
anymore
There’s nothing else I can say
I just wanna get away
From the truth that you lied to me
469
Wheels are turning candle’s burning at
both ends
Stomach churning yearning to go back
again
I know where I’m going who cares where
I’ve been
Everybody shares the stairs here we’re
all friends
We all know
Nothing is easy
And nothing is as easy
As it looks
But it looks so easy
Just give me a second to collect my
things
Here’s one bird who cannot sing
without his wings
I don’t want the hate that isolation
brings
Sonic loops of gold and catatonic
diamond rings
But it looks so easy
Panic how can I maintain this frantic
pace
Twenty something staring thirty in the
face
Going much too slow to catch the dream
I chase
Stuck on pause I rewind and begin to
erase
Into nothing
Nothing is easy
Nothing is as easy as it looks
470
I’ve seen better days - better days are
coming
I’ve seen better days - c’mon better
days
I’ve been looking my best
But feeling my worst
Choking on hunger
Dying of thirst
A better way to second (taste it)
Baby I was here first
I’ve seen better days - better days
are coming
I’ve seen better days - c’mon better
days
The storm is only waiting
For the rain clouds to burst
It may seem like I’m faking
But it’s so well rehearsed
You tell me it’s a blessing
Why do I feel so cursed?
I’ve seen better days
Solo
Someone call the doctor
Lover get me a nurse
The pieces pull together
My emotions disperse
Immersed I stand here drowning
In an ocean of verse
I’ve seen better days - better days
are coming
I’ve seen better days - c’mon better
days
471
I ‘m tired of the darkness
Wake me up - wake me up
I ‘m tired of the darkness
Wake me up (2x)
472
When I get what I want
When I want what I get
I like it (do you like it?)
I like it
If I get what I give
And I give what I get
I like it and I bet
You like it
I like it
Get-get-get
Get busy!
If I do what I say
And I say that I do
And I kiss you
And I love you
And I feed you
And breed with you
Will you like it?
Or will you push me
Will you shove me
Will you love me
Or leave me
Deceive me
Bereave me
Lose me
Or retrieve me
Believe me when I tell you that
I just don’t know
I just don’t know
473
Make me stand up straight and make my
stride steady
Show me the way I seek
The time has come and I am ready
Take me to the mountain peak
You make my footsteps firm (you make
my footsteps)
Set me on the path to higher ground
Loosen my lips to sing
When I stumble don’t you let me down
Carry me through everything
My footstep’s firm
You make my footsteps firm (you make
my footsteps)
You are the rock on which I stand
The light to guide my way
Help me be the best I can
And hold my hand each day I pray
You make my footsteps firm
474
O Lord let there be
Trust and justice
Peace and freedom
Love and harmony
Happiness in liberty
This is a song of hope
O Lord let us have
Passion and compassion
Faith and charity
Joy and clarity
Quality equality
This is a song of hope
O Lord let us see
Lasting friendship
Strength in hardship
Gentleness sobriety
Comfortable society
This is a song of hope
475
Insects live in Courtney’s hole
Sliding down a nine inch pole
Alternative so sleek and sporty
Hiding out inside top forty
Spoon feed me
Radio and MTV
Spoon feed me
And I’ll buy it
Never mind so self-assured
Unhurt by all Kurt’s dirty words
Everybody’s Cobain’s buddy
Mainline shotgun high and bloody
Got the dogs all buy the collars
Tick tock dick suck clocking dollars
So politically correct
Hanging by your fucking broken neck
Spoon feed me
Radio and MTV
Spoon feed me
And I’ll buy it
I’ll try it
Get high on it
And die
476
Perfect isolation
Trapped beneath the skin
Under observation from within
Contract desolation
Contact with the soul
All the lines are broken in the hole
And you’re under the chain
Crippled concentration
Irons in the fire
Drowning in the darkness of desire
Instant penetration
Steel the things you need
Dripping from your spirit as you bleed
Under the chain
477
Buckethead!
Buckethead buckethead buckethead!
Buck buck buck
Buckie buckie buckie
Bucket head!
Buck buck buckie buckie
Buck buck buckethead!
Buckethead!
Smibben widda fukkin buggin
Shreddin heddin mudda fugga
Shonuff kickin ass mo satchmo
Numb nubs flashin doodly weedly deedly
What da fukski buckski
Binge dat smokski loafski smoky
Needa buckethead rekkad please
Cd preferred (sorry I’m slurrin chosm
chrazzy)
Gotta gemme a bucketheadland
Buckethead!
Buckethead buckethead buckethead!
Buck buck
Buckie buckie
Buckie buckethead
Buckie
Buck buck buckie
Buckie buckie
Buckethead
Kfchatcatfashomoslomofasfuk
Fractal praxis smakkin kaksis
blabbadooba
The snooby fits the grape leaves ibfya
nobot imeen
Buck buck
Huckle buckle
Suckie luckie buck
Slobby bob nob numb nub
Kikkin fokkin bootsy brudda
Buddy yooby nooby numba one
kikkinasslike
478
I
N
I
I said I
N
I
I said I
N
I
I said
I N I N I
I said
I N I N I
I said
I said
I N I N I shall fear no man
479
I believe
I believe
I believe I believe I believe
I believe I believe I believe
I believe I believe
I believe I believe
I believe I believe
I believe
480
Alarm clock rings you
Don’t hear a thing
Your mouth too full to sing
‘cause fate wont wait
A summer trap you want to spring
481
I can’t help it
That’s what you think
I’m not guilty
That’s what you think
I didn’t do it
That’s what you think
Why dontcha kill me?
That’s why I drink
I’m not what I am
Pressure in a can
Nothing but a man
A race that no one runs
Loaded up on guns
I’m not dead meat
That’s what you think
Hair and heartbeat
That’s what you think
Asleep on high street
That’s what you think
The blood won’t fill me
I spill when I drink
I’m not what you want
That’s what you think
Don’t know who I am
That’s what you think
A spirit the dead haunt
That’s what you think
Come on drink me
That’s why I drink
482
I don’t believe
You believe what I believe
I don’t believe you
Know what to believe
I don’t believe you believe
What I believe
I don’t believe
I know what to believe
I don’t believe
I believe in anything
I believe everything’s
Nothing I believe
I don’t believe in everything
Everything’s nothing and nothing is
Something I believe
Nothing I believe is
Nothing and everything
Everything’s nothing and nothing I
believe
483
Look at me I’m no sun shine
I’m no simple price you pay
Stupid fucked up rag bag stop sign
It’s no easy thing to say
Cry my son your melted wings
Sing a song of everything
Simple truth and complex lies
Won’t stop the apocalypse
In your eyes
Burn
Look at you broken angel
Soaked in ocean tempest tossed
I’m not scared but I feel the danger
Keep the faith your soul is lost
Die my love kiss me good buy
Never stop or wonder why
Liquid assets up the ass
Won’t help you sleep beneath the grass
Burn
484
Help me fix these problems I don’t
know why I cause
I want a rewind/replay but I’m stuck
on pause
Purring like a kitten ‘til I bare my
claws
And she keeps telling me
She just keeps on telling me
She tells me she thinks she’s in love
Just cause push come to shove
Stop these complications I just know I
can’t face
Begin the rewind/replay and then I
erase
Never felt so lonely go get out of my
face
Yet she keeps telling me
She just keeps on telling me
She tells me she thinks we’re in love
Just cause push come to shove
Help me make you into something I know
you’re not
A simple soul solution that I gladly
bought
The only thing I want is what you have
not got
But you keep telling me
You just keep on telling me
You say that you think I’m in love
That’s when push come to shove
And then push come to shove
It begin with sweetest kisses then it
ends with a curse
I want to sing the chorus but I’m
stuck on the verse
Feeling like I’m feeling my disease
getting worse
She keeps telling me
She just keeps on telling me
Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!
Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!
485
How long can I keep it up?
How long can I stand it
Don’t think I can keep it up
I just don’t understand it
Sick and predictable
Degrading and demanding
Confident and comfortable
Cannibal abandoning
Thick and unbendable
Unstable yet commanding
The trick is so conventional
Commercial and emotional
How long can I keep it up?
How long can I stand it
Don’t think I can keep it up
I just don’t understand it
Quick and deplorable
Confused and condescending
Slick and adorable
Begin the stories ending
Agreeable and portable
Insane but so affordable
You kick it’s so convincing
But the fix is irresistable
How long can I keep it up?
How long can I stand it
Don’t think I can keep it up
I just don’t understand it
486
(U R the 1 real version)
U are the 1 in my sweetest dreams
U make me cum undone at the seams
Your passionate screams
And the taste of your skin
New pools of sweat
You drown me in me in me in
Me
U R the 1 I’ve been waiting for
You touch me once I beg for more
I know the score
Zero to none
But what is more
You are the 1 the 1 the 1
Tree
U R the 1 most wanted girl
I am the sun you are my world
Unfurl the flag of deepest desire
Come feel the flood
Set me on fire
487
Jovial Ovaltine
Chemical nicotine
Amoco overload
Overload overturn
Kathleen Turner
Afterburner
Time Warner marijuana
On the corner overboard
Yes
No
Mmmmmmmaybe
488
(In 5)
Nothin much to do
Think it’s time to cruise
Nothin much to say
And I got less to lose
Got a box of reds
And bad case of the blues
Demons in my head
And bottle full of booze
Super suicide
Needle in the arm
But it left a bruise
Just another lay
Stupid fucking cooze
Not a big surprise
Nodding on the snooze
All that truth in lies
All the lies are true
Super suicide
Ripping through my veins
Dripping on my shoes
Just another day
Slogging through the ooze
I can’t feel the pain
I’m not King of the Jews
Wash away the stains
I can’t pay my dues
489
This song has words - so what
This song has a melody - so what
This song’s got a beat - so what
Maybe it’ll be it on MTV
This song’s got a rhythm - so what
This song has meaning - so what
It isn’t what it seems
Like
I won’t notice and I don’t care
Like I won’t stop and stand there
staring
At the fruit these trees are bearing
This song has a purpose - so what
This song’s got a goal - don’t care
This has direction - so what
Maintain that connection see?
This song’s kinda rockin - so what
This song’s kinda cool - so what
This song is leaning - so what
Towards bursting at the seams
Like
I won’t notice and I don’t care
Like I won’t stop and stand there
staring
At the fruit these trees are bearing
I can’t help it I’m
Influenced by
People that I
Hear on the
Radio
Here on the radio
Hear on the radio
Radio
Radio
Radio
This song has culture - so what
This song has class - so what
This song has a future - so what
This song is a pain in the ass
490
(Just ten poems away from halfway there)
In case you hadn’t noticed, J am fond
of parenthetical statements
Now what the fuck was J talking about?
491
Concrete US of A bullshit?
Obvious violations of bad laws made by
evil men for stupid people?
Overpaid bureaucrats running a
technocracy they don’t understand?
Carved statues of fallen leaders still
standing?
Unfounded founding fathers pounding on
their meat?
Street people? Civil War? Religious
government? Police state?
Fear? Torture? Extortion? The
financial elite? Freedom?
Censorship? Behind-the-scenes black
balling? Blacklisting?
492
I just want to get by on you
Do it into the ground with you
I guess need to get high on you
Get all over the sound with you
My sweet disease
My sweet disease
My sweet disease
You touch something inside of me
But you never confide in me
I loved the way that you lied to me
I know I’ll let you inside of me
I am your sweet disease
I feel myself sinking in to you
I feel myself surrounding you
Every time that I think of you
I realize I’m coming down with you
Astounding and confounding me
I’m down with you
You are my sweet
You are my sweet
You are my sweet
You are my sweet
Disease
I know you want to get next with me
I don’t see why you’re so perplexed
with me
You never know what to expect with me
I know you’re gonna connect with me
I am your sweet disease
Your sweet disease
Your sweet disease
493
In the sun burning
In the sun burning
White as sand
Hot as fire
Cool as water
Empty
In the sun blister
In the sun blister
Black as oil
Cold as ice
Hard as rock
Melted
In the light naked
In the light shake it
Grey as steel
Warm and wet
Soft as silk
In the sun sister
494
It doesn’t have to be now
It can be sweet memory
495
Boy we’ve had our eye on you for quite
some time
And you’ve been under surveillance
since the Fourth of July
We know just what you’re doing and we
saw what you did
We’re gonna blow the lid off
Cause we’ve got pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it now
It seems your client’s husband’s
someone you ought to know
Before we go we’re gonna see you after
the show
We know what you’ve been doing and we
know where you’ve been
We’re gonna kick you’re head in
Cause we’ve got pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it now
Hold on wait a minute what did you say
You’ve pictures of your own of her
husband that way
Well give them to us anyway we know
where he’s been
We’ll go and turn him in
Cause we’ve got pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it
Pictures to prove it now
More on this later...
496
Totally colloquial
Everybody just like (3x)
Everybody just like everybody else
Black man white woman long green hair
Nipple rings nose ring I don’t care
Biker boots spike hair tattooed head
to toe
Everybody’s got to find their own way
to go
But still
Everybody just like (3x)
Everybody just like everybody else
Yellow man red man brown man tan
The only thing you’ve got to do’s the
best that you can
Kinky hair short hair no hair at all
Short people got a right to stand up
tall
‘cause everybody just like everybody
else
Super trippy hippie freak peaking
through the door
Beijing Peking doesn’t matter where
you’re from as long as you know the score and what’s more
Everybody just like (3x)
Everybody just like everybody else
497
I think about you all the time
Down every road I’m on
I couldn’t concentrate on you when you
were here
How come I can’t forget you now that
you’re gone?
The school book sex that drove us mad
The baby that we almost had
And bad things we sometimes did
The tool box lock that rusted shut
The broken hearts and busted nuts
And the guts to keep it all hidden
So you need me
Then you bleed me
I’m sure I heard the last words you
said
Yes you want me
And you haunt me
You love me so much you wish I was
dead
I drink too much now every day
And try to write this song
I couldn’t remember what I was trying
to say
Do you think that might’ve been where
we both went wrong?
The passion play that got played out
The simple truth we lied about
Just outsiders both looking in
The fashion statement badly made
A weak foundation sadly laid
Braided into something inside
So you need me
Then you bleed me
I’m sure I heard the last words you
said
Yes you want me
And you haunt me
You love me so much you wish I was
dead
498
Deep brown almond eyes smoking
Cigarette red dress blazing unfazed
naked legs
Painted toenails sexy making love to
me
499
Your dress’s sleeve falls off
Your shoulder you toss your beautiful
head
And I shiver with anticipation of you
500
(Haiku = 5 7 & 7 syllables)
Naked flaming red
Ready laying on my bed
And you said you had missed me
501
I don’t care what you think of me
I ain’t afraid of nobody
I don’t give a damn about what people
say
I say what I want to
But I ain’t saying anything
That’s OK no one listens anyway
Are you listening
You’re not listening
Listen
Slip slide away
Leaving today
Don’t know if or when I’ll be
returning
It too late for excuses
I don’t have any use for it
I’m on the other side and the bridge
is burning
It’s not the way it seems
I’m only bursting at the seams
I’m not afraid to make a scene and
come out screaming
I do what I want to
Right now I’m doing everything
I can to stay awake but still I’m
dreaming
Are you dreaming
Keep on dreaming
Do it
Slip slide away
Leaving today
Don’t know if or when I’ll be returning
It too late for excuses
I don’t have any use for it
I’m on the other side and the bridge
is burning
I’m right on the brink now if
I could only think straight
I’d step across the line into oblivion
Nothing scares me now
If I could only show you how
Just chuck it all and take a plane to
the Caribbean
Slip slide away
Leaving today
Don’t know if or when I’ll be
returning
It too late for excuses
I don’t have any use for it
I’m on the other side and the bridge
is burning
502
Halfway to nothing
Three quarters into something
Nine tenths toward what I don’t
understand
Between the start and finish
Lines on roads I ride on
On the right track getting out of hand
This and that
Left and right
Right or wrong
The strength of the invincible
Pro and con
Black and white
So obviously visible
I don’t pray for nothing
Nowhere is nowhere
And everything around me
Surrounded by the emptiness within
Consumed by the righteous
I’m immune to the inevitable
So confounded by the sin that I’m
forgiven
So I don’t pray for nothing
True or false
Up and down
Round and square
Regarding what I’m saying
Deaf and dumb
Lost and found
Discarding what I’m praying for
I don’t pray for nothing
I don’t pray for nothing
Nothing?
I never pray?
I pray for something?
I pray for a reason?
I don’t pray for oblivion?
I don’t need to pray?
Pray, what do you mean?
Prey?
Don’t prey on me
Prey
503
U just wanna get it together
N U just wanna keep it together
But you’re talkin shit as usual
Yeah you’re talkin shit as usual
I’m like fuck it
And I’m like fuck it
I’m just tryin to kick it yes
Now I’m just tryin to kick it
I’m talkin shit as usual
Yeah just talkin shit as usual
Fuck it
I’m just tryin to move it
Yes I’m just tryin to groove it
Don’t ask me to prove it
‘cause I don’t need to prove it
I’m talkin shit as usual
And I fuck that shit as usual
Shit
504
Angel of the Lord be with me now.
Think of me as I am; simple and full of the joy of life. Warm, comfortable and
safe in the womb of the Gods. Surrounded by laughter and music on earth as it
is in heaven. Grounded in the softness of silken breeze and living easy. The
sunshine like my love my lord everlasting. Passion dissolving into ecstasy
easily constancy assured and purified. Truth honesty and openness the rule
rather than the exception of conception. Collected and organized along the
lines of perfection concocted of happiness rare and priceless. Questions in no
need of answer through obviousness. Seeing through each others eyes as glass or
the crystal clear tri-color sea. Absorbed in ultimateness limitless in
possibility infinity in front of me stretching out endless behind. Lightest
caress infinitesimal oblivious to needless rule of rhyme and reason timeless.
Attached by the slimmest strand unbinding yet strong as stainless steel
unrusted and trusting thee unconditionally a thousand miles hence betwixt yet
close as trees whose roots run together and become one love under god
indivisible with power and equality tremendously tight in rightness excited by
the reality of reality unflinching clinched by the one true light of being
beautiful true unbending un ending unending unending unending unending unending unending unending unending
unending the end
Unending unending unending unending
unending unending the end
505
What is it babe?
Does it burn like fire?
Does it rock like stone?
When you’re alone
Do you think of me?
On the brink of you?
And is it true?
Does it hurt like hell?
Does it feel like steel?
And is it real?
Inside you beside me we hide from the
twilight
Forever a moment a moment that’s lasting
forever
Forever and a day
What is it babe?
Does it turn to ice?
Does it melt like that?
Like a baseball bat?
Are you satisfied?
Are feeling full?
Pushed and pulled?
Full speed gone
Ahead ‘til dawn?
Inside you beside me we hide from the
twilight
Forever a moment that’s lasting
forever
Forever forever
Forever and a day
506
Sing in the
rain
Walk with the stars
Dance
on the ocean
Run
through the sand
And it makes
me happy
Talk to the
flowers
Speak
with the trees
Lie
on the grass
Soak
up the sun
And it makes
me happy
Laugh with the
children
Play
in the street
Jump
to the rhythm
Forget
what you knew
You can be so
happy
Carve it in
stone
Sculpted
in clay
Write
it in water
Wash
it away
You can be so
happy
507
Now I’ve been
And now I’ve seen
Now I hear
And now I know
Champagne Charlie told me so
And I go
I shall fear no man
I and I and I shall fear no man
For
I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to
the Ital way
I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to
the Ital way
Rastafari!
Now I’m the leaf
Leaf to the limb
Limb to the trunk
Now I’m the root go
Champagne Charlie told me so
Now I know
I shall fear no man
I and I and I shall fear no man
For
I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to
the Ital way
I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to
the Ital way
Maximum respect now!
Walk so smooth
Feel so sweet
All all right
When you move so
Champagne Charlie told me so
Now I know
I shall fear no man
I and I and I shall fear no man
For I to the eye to the Rastafari eye
to the Ital way
I to the eye to the Rastafari eye to
the Ital way
508
What do you want? You get what you ask
for
What do you need? Take what life deals
you
What do you think you feel like?
Pressure on three balls and two
strikes
Hit it! Don’t you worry baby it’ll be
all right (in a round)
Where do you go? Where can you run to?
What do you know? We’re going nowhere
Why do you think we’re running?
How ‘bout the engine we’re gunning?
Honey! Don’t you worry baby it’ll be
all right (in a round)
When do you stop? When do you think
about it
When do you pause? It’s time to rewind
When do you let the boy scout?
When do shut the lights out?
Shout about it! Don’t you worry baby
it’ll be all right
509
Marylin - the hurricane song
Prepare for the storm - she’s coming
Hurricane form - she’s coming
Wind in my trees I’m on my knees
She’s coming
Rip off the roof - she’s coming
The truth of the proof - she’s coming
The rain and sand I’m in her hands
She’s coming
Baby rip the roof off
She does like she feels - she’s coming
Thunder on your heels - she’s coming
Getting psyched for the lightning
strike
She’s coming
Put out the lights - she’s coming
Hot summer nights - she’s coming
Whether or not you like the weather
she brought
She’s coming
510
The sink is beautiful
The sink is beautiful
The spirit is willing and the wine is
fine
And the sync; the sink is beautiful
The flow is comfortable
It’s so comfortable
The flesh is weak and the meat is
wasted
And the sync; the sink is beautiful
The verse is lyrical
Vertical versus spherical
The room keeps spinning and I can’t
think
The sink; the sink is beautiful
Out of sync out of sync out of sync
out of sync
Think blink stink sink
The sync
The sink is beautiful
The sync
The sink is beautiful
The stomach empties the pain within
The sink
Sink sink sink sink
My favorite recent work....naturally
stolen
511
Run your fingers through my hair but I
don’t care
Caress my cheek and kiss my lips but I
won’t flip
Trip over overnight feelings denied
Melt like an icicle burning inside
Tell me how you need me so if you
can’t go
Say you want me day and night it’s all
right
Listening to limitless silence so loud
Proud and unbending I step from the
crowd
Stand up and walk away with me
Stand up and walk away
Slip your number under the table call
when I’m able
Meet me at midnight we’ll dance in the
moonlight tonight
Electric contact the contract
fulfilled
I’d still stay with you if only you
will
Fill me with sunshine and that’s fine
Go on tell me how you feel ‘cause I
can deal
Passionate motion emotion so strong it
Steel razors cut me with feeling so
strong
Stand up and walk away with me
Stand up and walk away
512
It’s too full in here
Choking on smoke and drowned in beer
Better take the wheel baby better
steer clear
Please dear God
Let me out of this place
Broken down town in the rat race
Come here dear and get out of my face
What the fuck is this shit?
Where the hell did this come from?
Why the fuck am I even bothering?
Who the fuck knows?
513
Bass baby
Bass baby
Let me be your bass baby
Bass baby
Bass baby
Let me be your bass
Let me feel your body move
Slip me right into the groove
If you use it you can’t lose it
When I am your bass
There it’s sliding into place
See hear smell you touch and taste
Sorrow is erased when you
Let me be your
Let me be your
Let me be your bass
You do what you need to do
If you let me be with you
Have no fear you’ll soon be with me
When I am your bass
I’m the novel that you write
I’m the apple that you bite
Let’s make love for love’s delight I
Feel that funky beat then I
Feel that funky beat
Drop
And let me be your bass baby
Let me be your bass
Space: the final frontier
514
I can feel you from here
I know you’re sleeping
My ears are ringing
I’m missing you
I remember this
I sense your feelings
I know you’re thinking
It’s nothing new
And I begin to wonder...
Do you understand?
Am I getting through?
This is something different
I kneel at the altar
And I’m faltering
Wild horses bolting
I’m kissing you
Two concentrate
At a constant rate
Bent into straight
The false lie is true
And I begin to want you
Much more than I can
Forget about the fruit
For I am just a man
But this is something more than
different
This is something more than something
different
This is something
515
How does it feel my love?
On the inside looking out...
Like a rapist you won’t try to escape
As if you didn’t know what this was
all about
But I think you know what it’s all
about it’s all
About you
Are unhappy and you are so lonely if
only
I weren’t such a dope I would hope
For something something something
something real
Are you okay my love?
Did you fall down the stairs
Like a rubber ball bouncing down the
hall
As if you knew it all but did not care
I know you know but you do not care
About you
Run unhappy through dead fields of
glory
The story’s not over until it is over
Or something something something
something real
516
Couple of six packs
A bottle of pills
Marlboro cigs
And a handful of joy
Passing out
On the couch
It’s getting boring
But everything’s boring
After a while
I felt up the sunrise
Under an angel
I can still smell it
Happened today
Everything’s here for a moment
A lifetime of seconds awaits
How I want to keep it together
But nothing’s built to last
I sit and I wonder
My lifetime away
And if I can figure
It out it’s too late
Couple of six packs
A bottle of booze
A day at the races
A handful of joy
Oh boy...
517
Holding onto something I can not reach
You’ve been trying so hard to learn
what I cannot teach
Got a dragon to chase keep on running
in place
I’m sick of your schtick so get out of
my face - bass!
Listen babe I know who you’ve been
kissin
You know that I am dissin the style
that you’re wild with
The wings that you fly with piss me
off and I’m tired of it
Wired up tight and it’s time to step
off
It’s like stepping on a land mine
It’s like finding my love at the five
and dime
Did you just want to do it on the
phone call?
Or do you like kickin men like a
football
A simple QED and if you’re down with
me
But getting back to the facts you
can’t front on me
You know you used to have the juice
that I savored
But lately it doesn’t seem the same
flavor
I slipped outta the noose so now I’m
on the loose
I got my acey deuce in ya juice
caboose
They tell me what you see’s exactly
what you get
And in case you haven’t heard you
ain’t seen nothing yet
So you turn and you burn and yes
you’re livin hell
But when the surfin’s up baby then you
ride the swell
518
First there was the word
The word becomes the light
The light becomes the tree
The tree becomes the bird
Who next became the stain
The stain became the blood
The blood became the truth
The truth becomes the pain
Helpless
Helpless he cried
Naked inside
Tears are the price
Of insolent pride
Passions collide
But who can decide?
Better to run
Better to hide
Ashes turn to dust
Dust becomes the earth
Earth becomes the flesh
The flesh’s empty lust
The arrow landed home
A muffled sound was heard
The victim screamed in vain
Insane became the word
Helpless
Helpless he cried
Naked inside
Tears are the price
Of insolent pride
Passions collide
But who can decide?
Better to run
Better to hide
519
I’m nothing but useless
I hate myself
Hypocrite asshole
I’m used to myself
Sick of this bullshit
I’m just getting old
My fire is burning
My icicle’s cold
520
There was a dream
I’m riding my motorcycle
Around a sharp curve to the right
My friend Thad is giving me shit
We lose control
And drive off the edge
It’s a long way down
We land in the mud
I am surprised to be alive
There are many Hare Krishnas
Who wish to help us
Meanwhile I have discovered a secret
door
In the mud
There are many tunnels and
Many strange things there
But the upward passage leads to
A Chinese laundry
Which is full of gangsters
I do my best to walk out
As if I owned the place
But I am followed by a man
With a very large gun
I jump over the wall
To avoid his gunfire
And land in the mud
Amongst three rows multi-colored
flowers
And I was thinking
Damn! This is my day for mud
Then I woke up
521
Then I was dreaming
Of a girl
In a car
The back seat of a Cadillac
Covered in sheepskin
It had a depression
With a seat like a hot tub
And shoulder pads
For any sexual position
You would care for
And then the cop knocked on the window
522
And then I was dreaming of a girl
In a blue Pinto
And we went to this parking lot
To neck
And these people surrounded us
Gang members - warriors
Bloods and Crips
And they wanted to rape the girl and
kill me
In one dream I begin to fight
And my brothers pull up in a graffiti
covered Chevy
Four strong black men
Who disperse the Ruffians
In another dream I kill several of the
men
And then another of the group
Tries to trade me drugs for the girl
He hands me a half rolled joint
And we climb into another car
And he is offering me many joints for
the girl
And I drop the drugs on the floor
And wave to the police who are driving
by
And I wake
523
I was in my love’s house
Our house actually, for we lived
together
She had gone out with a friend to do
some shopping
I was naked but for a towel
A good looking spike-haired blond man
ascends the stairs
He is naked except for a bright yellow
overcoat
He says he knows my love from the
institution
He is menacing
And I cannot get him to state his
business
Suddenly my love and her friend return
I am frightened and she does not
understand
He sits at the table and beckons her
to him
She goes and I can read his mind
“Grab her wrist with the left hand,”
He holds the ugly evil knife as a
child holds a crayon
“And rip the knife into her ribs
beneath the heart!”
I lunge and push her out of reach of
the knife just in time
And we wrestle
The knife I have grabbed from the
table is much smaller
A boy scout blade
And I am loath to cut with it though I
fear for my love’s life
He raises the knife to finish me
And I stick my knife in with a
sickening squish
And twist
I rip him open
And wake up crying and screaming
524
Bent
Rent
Sent away
Went
Spent
And I meant it
Kissed
Missed
Blissed out
Pissed
Dissed
So I twist it
Pride
Lied
Hurt inside
Denied
Cried
But I hide it
525
Looking to
Something new
Why don’t you
Think it through
Burning undenied
Hiding deep inside
Rivers deep and wide
Why do you hide it?
Some one believes it’s true
Paranoid troubadour
Thinks that you want what you want
What you want is more
And more and more and more and more
and more
Something cries
Behind your eyes
The feeling dies
Paralyzed
Turning you decide
Wait ‘til our worlds collide
Yearning you’re satisfied
Biding your time with it
Some one believes it’s true
Paranoid troubadour
Thinks that you want what you want
What you want is more
And more and more and more and more
and more
526
Light swirls around me
And I’m lost in time
The world revolves around me
And then I unwind
The wind whips around me
In that wasted space
The sky trips around me
And I lose my place
I stop and take a drink
An empty glass of rain
I think it stops the pain
But then I think again
The thunder bolts surround me
And I’ve lost my way
The noise and flame confound me
And I turn away
The chain of love unbound me
Now I’m safe and sound
The storm no longer pounds me
Now your power grounds me
I used to take a drink
It used to kill the pain
Now I live again [now I see the truth]
High upon your plain [now I live
again]
Satellite
I’m your satellite
Won’t you let me hold you
In my arms tonight?
527
Beautiful you
Praise the Lord
Ties that bind you I unwind you
I replace you and erase you
How I hate you fascinate you
Dictate and eradicate you
Beautiful you
Praise the Lord
First I taste you then I waste you
I caress you I digest you
I disgrace you and deface you
Rant you rave you none can save you
With all God gave you I enslave you -
Jones
Cut you burn you slash you smash you
Shred you slice you crush you bash you
Hurt you bleed you tear disease you
Scratch you squeeze you kiss you kill
you
528
I was a young man
Now I feel too old to kiss and I have
Wasted my existence
On a mouthful of the lies
That you call promises
Promises
I’m like the blind man
Who remembers what he’s seen I can’t
Believe the dreams that I exchanged
For the dearest pound of flesh
And all those promises
Promises
Lies
I used to know what confidence was
Self respect a little pride
All I have left is hopelessness
A pocket full of change
And promises
Empty promises
Lies
529
Well I never
I never wanted anything
I never wanted anything so badly
I never wanted anything I didn’t want
so badly
I don’t think you think about it much
And I don’t think you think I think
about it
Too much
And I don’t think it matters
But then I don’t think that anything
really matters
Much
I don’t care
At least I wish I didn’t care
I only wish I didn’t care so badly
I never cared so much about anything I
don’t care about
Much
I don’t think you think about it much
And I don’t think you think I think
about it
Too much
And I don’t think it matters
But then I don’t think that anything
really matters
Much
I wonder
I wonder if you miss me
I wonder if you’d miss me so badly
I wonder if you miss me and do you
feel this badly
530
I loved everything you know
I loved everyone
I longed to spread my love around
Before my life was done
I loved everyone you know
I loved everything
The world was my oyster palace
I was the king
Then you came along your song
Like a siren swan at sea
Now your sound surrounds
I drown unfolding into me
Passion spark a burning flame
Volcano you erupt
Twist my mind and body
All that’s pure is now corrupt
And i want to die
I hate everything you know
I hate everyone
I only want to die
Before my time has come
I hate everyone you know
I hate everything
A victim of the loneliness
This emptiness brings
And i want to die
531
Sometimes i hate my life
I don’t know why i’m miserable
I’ve got it all but i don’t know what
to do with it
Sometimes i get so cold
I don’t know why i’m so afraid
I’ve got all the time i need but i’m
just wasting it
When i talk about loneliness
When i speak of unhappiness
Do i think i really know what i’m
saying?
When i scream for your caress
When i cry from the emptiness
Who cares? Do you know what i’m
saying?
Who cares if you know what i’m saying?
Sometimes i burn myself
I don’t mean to it just happens
My god! Why do i feel so helpless?
Sometimes i get so sad
I just want to shoot myself
I want a drink so bad i can taste it
532
Let me feel your sweet intensity
Burn me and turn like the sun
Wind me up like a tape deck reel
Beg borrow steal me
My love deeper than the sea
My love understand me
My love constant and free
Wild and hungry
Shock me with your complexity
Cut right down to the quick
Pick me up like a little bitter pill
Thrill fill me still me
My love deeper than the sea
My love understand me
My love constant and free
Wild and hungry
533
Night
Goin home see ya
Night
Black as coal
Night wouldn’t wanna be ya
Night
Empty soul
Night
Kiss me good
Night
Time
Night
Watch man
Night
Flight
Night
Of darkness
Night
Of light
First star
I see two
Night
Can’t keep me down at
Night
Sweats
Night
Shift
Night
Lover
Night
534
There’s more 2 u
Than meets the eye
Intangible orange
Juicy and sweet
I can’t wait 2
C u
So sexual
Sex you all
Funny i feel like i’ve
Known you for years
I can’t quite put my
Finger on it
I want to give it all
2 u
So sexual
Sex you all
I see you
I touch you
I smell you
I taste you
I hear you say
So sexual
Sex sex
Sex you all
535
Give in to it
Don’t be afraid of it
It won’t hurt you
Go on
It’s free you know
There’s no cover charge
It’s the supporter of large
Go on
Compromise it
Deny it
Despise it
Lie to it
Go on
Commit to it
Get fit to it
Get high with it
Go die with it
Go on
536
The music history song (educational
music)
(white boy version)
Vivaldi verdi
Haydn tellemann
Mozart beethoven
Bach debbusy
Shostokovitch
J.j. fux
Palestrina
Mussourgsky
Stravinsky
Shoenberg
Webern
Etc etc
The music history song
Black version - is this list too long
to even start?
This bears the creation of another
document.
537
Emotion and fire
Compulsion desire
In
Connection
In the dark
Matches striking
The spark
Deep insider
I
Nsider
Devotion respect and
An object direct
In
Formation
Information
A sign of devine
Inspiration
Insider
(live in give in
Break in fake it
Sit in fit in
Do it to it)
An ocean of violets
In bloom in your room
In
Temptation (temptation)
The mark of
Eternal
Damnation
Insider
538
Hush - don’t speak
Don’t you say a word
I heard what you were thinking
And i flinched but i’m not blinking
No salt no tears
The years go by too quick
I’m sick of where they’re is going
And knowing isn’t helping
Everybody wants a little something
Everybody needs someone to care
Everybody always ends up somewhere
I’ll let you know when i get there
Now it’s give and take
It’s time to make your bets
Everything goes away someday
But tomorrow isn’t here yet
So break or bend
The end is at the start
The last part’s at the beginning
And we set our hearts on winning
Refrain
539
Outside
Looking inside
I want on the inside
I want on the inside
Getting closer
To the father
Farther
Away from you
Inside
I want on the inside
Let me
Get on the inside
Lover
Sooner or later
I’m going to hate her
You mother figure
Inside
Now that i’m inside
Let me out
Get me out
Set me free
540
Thumbelina tumble - ing
Couldn’t stand
Picture perfect
Wants to make it
Wants to make it
Big
Too
Too big
She’s sister anesthtesia
Surprise surprise survive alive
Caught me with someone old
Caught me with someone new
I caught cold and i died
Never knew the truth
Is it any wonder?
I wonder if [why] i lied?
Every time
We get close
We get close
We get closer
541
Spastic
Electromagnetic
Erotic fantastic
I just can’t get past it
Seismic
Photo orgasmic
Erratic fanatic
Unwrap the plastic
Truth or dare?
Cosmic
Connected fabric
Collected samples
Of larks tongues in aspic
Sarcastic
Iconoclastic
Fascinated masturbating
Unwrap the plastic
Truth or dare?
542
Suicide bridge
I know where i’m going
And i don’t care where i’ve been
I’ll see you all the way up on
heartbreak ridge
I’m thinking of jumping off suicide
bridge
I know what she gave me for those
diamonds and pearls
I wanted everything and she gave me
the world
But now i’m all alone on heartbreak
ridge
And i can see the lonely lights on
suicide bridge
I know what you wanted
And i know what i got
A one way ticket up to heartbreak
ridge
And a long, long fall off of suicide
bridge
543
I’d like to give you some peace of
mind
But you’ve got this great big axe to
grind
Summer come and some they go
But there’s something i’d like you to
know
I get wound up tight and i unwind
Like an apple core or an orange rind
You might get fleeced at least it
feels fine
When it’s overkill on overtime
Slip slide away leaving today
Don’t know if i’ll stay or where i’m
going
It’s too late for excuses and i don’t
have any use for it
The candle’s burnt out and i’m blowing
If you’re gonna give away a piece of
your life
I suggest you know who holds the knife
Summer comes and some they go
But there’s something i’d like you to
know
544
THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE IN THE MORNING
AND THE WARMTH OF YOUR SWEET TOUCH
EACH NIGHT
MAKES ME SMILE
THE LILT OF YOUR LAUGH IN THE SUNSHINE
AND HE BRIGHT LITTLE SPARK OF YOUR
FIRE
MY DESIRE OVERFLOWS
WHEN YOU’RE AWAY I ALWAYS LONG FOR MY
COMPANION
WHEN YOU ARE GONE I WISH THAT YOU WERE
HERE
I DRY A TEAR ‘TIL YOU RETURN AGAIN
THEN
WHEN I BECOME YOUR CHAMPAGNE CHAMPION
I KNOW YOUR WATERFALL IS NEVERENDING
THE LUSHNESS OF YOUR FOREST EVER GREEN
LEAVE ME SINGING
THE OVERWHELMING WAIT OF CONCENTRATION
DISSOLVES INTO A PASSION KISSING BLISS
I ALWAYS MISS THIS
WHEN YOU’RE AWAY I ALWAYS LONG FOR MY
COMPANION
WHEN YOU ARE GONE I WISH THAT YOU WERE
HERE
I DRY A TEAR ‘TIL YOU RETURN AGAIN
THEN
WHEN I BECOME YOUR CHAMPAGNE CHAMPION
545
USED TO BE A HARDER TIME
OVERSTEPPING UNDERLYING
REASONS FOR A CHILD DYING
KILLED IT OFF AND I QUIT TRYING
THIS SONG IS FOR YOU
Wanderlust
THEN I SAW A BRIGHTER SUN
UNDERSTOOD AND SET OUT RUNNING
OVERLOADED UNDERGUNNING
A CUNNING BEAST ALL SHOCKED AND
STUNNING
THIS SONG IS FOR YOU
THIS SONG IS FOR YOU
Wanderlust
NOW I LOOK TO BETTER DAYS
PRAY THEY HEAR THE PRAYER I’M PRAYING
THE BEAT TO BEAT THE BAND’S STILL PLAYING
IT’S OVERWHELMING I’M STILL STAYING
THIS SONG IS FOR YOU
THIS SONG IS FOR YOU
THIS SONG IS FOR YOU
My One true LOVE
Wanderlust
546
GOD BABY
GOD BABY
O GOD
GOOD BOY
WHAT A GOOD BOY
BABY
YOU’RE A GOD BABY
O MY GOD BABY
YOU ARE A GOD BABY
O GOD
BABY
O GOD
BABY
O GOD
BABY
O GOD
GOOD GIRL
YOU’RE A GOOD GIRL
BABY
O GOD
YOU’RE A GOD BABY
O MY GOD BABY
ON THE NOD MAYBE
YOU’RE GOD
HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE
You’re a God Baby
HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE
you’re a god baby
O God
HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE
HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE
HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE
HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE
HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE
HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE
HELL IS JUST A PLACEWARE
HELL IS JUST A PLACE WHERE
547
THE BUILDING WAS ON FIRE
I WAS TRYING TO GET YOU OUT OF THERE
YOU WERE HOLDING A LITTLE BABY
THE TELEPHONE WAS MELTING
I WAS GETTING FRIGHTENED
I CALLED THE FIRE DEPARTMENT
I RAN DOWN TO THE BASEMENT
THE BATTERIES IGNIGHTED
THE FAMILY STARTED CRYING
THE SIRENS WERE WAILING
THE LIGHT WAS SLOWLY FAILING
THE FIRE FINALLY DYING
I WENT BACK TO THE BASEMENT
I WAS TRYING TO GET ME OUT OF THERE
I WAS TACKLED BY A POLAR BEAR
HE LOOKED HUNGRY HE SAID "HELP
ME"
548
I NEED MATERIAL SHE SAID
I LAUGHED AS IF SHE ONLY KNEW
THAT EVERY SMILE WAS A TEAR
AND EVERY LIE SHE TOLD WAS TRUE
WE DROVE FOR MILES SAID NOT A WORD
I HEARD THE ROAD GO ROLLING BY
GOT HIGH AND DROVE TOO SLOW THROUGH
TOWN
THE CRY OF BIRDS SING SADLY OUT
THIS IS GOING NOWHERE
IS IT?
OR ISN’T IT?
I’M NOT GETTING ANYWHERE WITH THIS.
BETTER TRY HARDER.
TOO MUCH BULLSHIT AND NOT ENOUGH
SUBSTANCE.
SING ABOUT SOMETHING.
WHAT’S ON YOUT MIND?
THIS WEEK’S WAR?
LAST MONTH’S PUSSY?
LAST YEAR’S HIT?
YESTERDAY’S FIT?
A NICE PAIR OF
SIX SHOOTERS?
FUCK IF I KNOW ALBINO.
JUST A RAT TRAP
STOP GAP
CLAP CRAP
D.I.L.L.I.G.A.F.
IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN ...
549
SPARKLE
EXISTENTIAL
CONTROVERSIAL
CENTRAL
CONFISCATOR
LIBERATOR
GENERATE HER
CRYSTAL
BLISTER KISSES
CONFIDENTIAL
INFLUENTIAL
CONDEMNATION
LIQUID
ALLIGATOR
FIRE WATER
ALTERCATION
DEGRADATION
DESECRATION
550
ONCE AGAIN I SAY
WHY DID THESE LAST FIFTY
TAKE AS LONG AS THE PREVILOUS
TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY?
MY CONSISTENCY SEEMS TO BE FUCKED
EITHER THAT OR MY PERCEPTION IS
WAY OFF
551
CHALLENGER
CONTACT
FIRE
PRIMARY THRUSTERS
OVER ROGER
COUNTDOWN
ALL SYSTEMS GO
WILCO BABY
LIFTOFF
ENGAGE IGNITION
ALERT CONDITION
ALL SYSTEMS GO
TELEMETRY
TRAJECTORY
ENERGY
BOOM!
552
You come on with an attitude and I
don’t know what to say
You’re a rude little interlude why
don’t go away
cut it out - leave me alone [repeat]
cut it out
The Needle’s Pinned
you’ve always got the same complaint
how everything’s a drag
got no patience or restraint but
you’ve got your little bag
cut it out - leave me alone [repeat]
cut it out
The Needle’s Pinned
I’m getting fucking sick of you so why
don’t you cut the shit?
putting out and up with you and I’m
tired of it
so I
cut it out - leave me alone
The Needle’s Pinned
553
I found you and I drowned you
I wished that I could be complete
I bound you and I unwound yu
I’m tasting the bitter sweet defeat
of
Loneliness
I kissed you and I’ve missed you
I want something I can feel
I touched you and I erupted you
I’m just a dream but you’re so-so
so real
Loneliness
I decieved you and I disbelieved you
I just want someone I can trust
I tried for you I lied for you I cry
for you I’d die for you
I’m consumed by self disgust
I’m on self destruct
I’m in two
Loneliness
I held you and I felled you
I only try to be discreet
I tossed you and I lost you
The battle’s won by I retreat
yes I retreat into
Loneliness is slavery I need someone
to hold on to loneliness is slavery don’t takw it away from me slavery someone
to hold on to
554
PUT THAT RIFLE DOWN
BETTER LISTEN TO THE SOUND
GET YOUR FEET BACK ON THE GROUND
‘FORE THEY SURROUND YOU
AND IT’S
LEATHER LACE AND STEEL
MAKES NO MATTER WHAT YOU FEEL
I HEAR SOME WOUNDS WILL NEVER HEAL
BUT THAT’S NOT REAL TO YOU
AND SO IT DON’T MEAN A THING
NO IT DON’T MEAN A THING
UNLESS YOU’VE GOT IT
THAT DIAMOND RING
SADDLE UP AND MOVE
GET THAT WHEEL INTO THE GROOVE
YOU’VE GOT NOTHING LEFT TO PROVE
TO HERBERT HOOVER
AND IT
DON’T MEAN NOTHING MUCH
IF I CAN’T GET THAT SILVER TOUCH
WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO THE CLUTCH
IT’S SUCH A BUMMER
THAT DIAMOND RING
AND IT DON’T MEAN A THING
NO IT DON’T MEAN A THING
555
HIP HOP
FLATTERING CLAP TRAP
SITTING ON A SLIT IN THE OCEAN’S SON
PICK UP
SNICKERING HAND CUFFS
HITTING ON A DANCER AT THE LOCAL CLUB
- YEAH
QUICK LET ME FIX WHAT YOU BROKE IN THE
MIX
THE FIRE’S NOT OUT BUT IT’S DYING
HERE LET ME TRY THIS I WANT TO GET
HIGH
YOU GET WHAT YOU PAY FOR
BUT I DECIDED TO HIDE WHAT I’M BUYING
SHIT HOUSE
GLITTERING SLAM GLAM
LICKING UP THE JOY JUICE ONE TWO THREE
FREAK OUT
SLIPPERY SOUL FISH
TRIPPING ON THE FLICKER OF THE FLAME
IN ME -YEA
556
A CLASSIC CASE OF A MAN WITH NOTHING
TO SAY
AND TOO MANY WORDS TO SAY IT WITH...
YOU SPURNED ME i BURNED u
I NEEDED YOU YOU BLED ME
YOU FED ON MY INSTINCT
I THINK THAT YOU USED ME
SLIT
YOUR TIRED DESIRE
NO LONGER INSPIRES
THE FLAME IS EXTINCT
THE FIRE EXPIRES
DESECRATE
DEVAULATE
YOU TERMINATE
EXTERMINATE
SLIT
YOU TRIPPED ME YOU DRIPPED ME
I FED YOU YOU STARVED ME
YOU CARVED UP MY INSIDES
BESIDE ALL THE LIES YOU
SLIT
YOUR BURNING EMOTION
AN OCEAN OF EMPTY
REDEMPTION SALVATION
ABSORBTION DAMNATION
ERADICATE
DEGENERATE
YOU SUBJUGATE
I HATE YOU
SLIT -Blister
557
Precisely.
The whole thing
let go.
Random
Sample
Hold
A holding pattern
of
Chaos
Nothingness
Nevermind
No matter
Just more
Rain
Drizzle
Fog
then
Sun
Heat
Desert
Dust
Endless empty cycles
in my washing machine brain.
SPIN
I hate rainy days.
558
A slave to the grind
Arrested by the page
Wound up to unwind
This blade cuts the rage
The wind blows me down
The sun blows me up
The cup is broken
the swimmer glimmers
then drowns
sinking peacefully
into the blue black gloom
of doom
thinking happy thoughts
of you
and dying
559
birds on my wire
bats in my belfree
beasts in my fields
shaking my tree
pits in my peaches
pears on my stairs
leeches in my rivers
and baby snakes in my hair
a managerie manager
but who the heck cares?
forests on my fireplace
and birds on my wire...
560
Black and Shiny
Crystal notes fall like rain
Fly like a hummingbird
Cut like a chainsaw
Brass and wood
Heroin high
And pianissimo low
So crooked and bent
He went straight
Smiles with Miles
And Funk with Monk
Blowing like breeze
Through Liquid
Chord changes running
Like rivers of melody
Into lakes of harmony
We miss you John
Happy 70 th Birthday
Where ever you are...
561
Today’s offering
Sweet and soft
delicate
wholesome
untouched
virginal
flower beds
flower petals
stems and stamens
strut
cut slice dice
hate scar break
shred the veins
smash the brain
drink the blood
kill
absorb the pain
insanity reigns
it always rains here
but I can’t complain
it’s a warm place
Notes fall like rain
on my sun drenched plain
I was dry yet now I drink
From a cup of the insane
Catatonic harmony or
Harmonic cacophony
Melodic schizophrenia
A nevermind symphony
No matter what the gain
a pain inspired loss
Resonant in my brain
Notes fall once more like rain
It’s nice to be writing again
562
*******************
Warning: Dire Negativity Ahead.
******************
Good girl dead
oh what a shame!
big deal we all die
why does everyone
make such a fuss?
Chaos cares nothing
for your moralistic bullshit
aids probably kills more
people than drunks every year
I don’t hear much about that
don’t share needles or lovers
a closer look at the blanket uncovers
dead babies aborted
or killed in a mortar shower
the only difference is
a vulgar display of power
on someone’s part
depends which side of the
sword you’re on
big deal we all die
everyday anyday anytime anyway
drunk, drivers, disease
war, famine, drought and freeze
bombs and bullets
.38 slugs for drugs
mowing you down
chaos cares nothing
for your high moral ground
there’s no easy answer
to the pain in your gut
the universe laughs and says
"So fucking what?"
563
THROWAWAY
taking up space
killing time
slapped in the face
but it’s not a crime
cut to the chase
now hit the rhyme
steel leather and lace
and that band sublime
maybe it’s a waste
but I’m doing fine
my mind’s erased
from whiskey and wine
I can’t see a trace
of what I’m trying to find
I just want a taste
of that little line
I’ve been replaced
by that steady whine
564
hate to splash blood
on your sundress Mary Poppins
but I have enough trouble
with the Brain Police
6
LOVE LOVE LOVE
y no to drugs
don’t drink and drive
keep off the grass
kiss my ass
where’s my chainsaw?
straightjacket homeboy
driller killer
packing a gun just
looking for fun
feeling’s nothing more
than feeling sucker
cold and hard
with an icicle heart
the flesh slowly rots
it’s my favourite part
everything comes
from the bottomless pit
and I hate being mistaken
for someone who gives a shit
go wash someone else’s brain
mind police dog
I’ve got bodies to burn
and time to spare
so kindly get out of the way
Blister
565
Polly Anna Sunbeam girl
Don’t you wish you were an angel?
sometimes it gets a little dangerous
playing croquet
Shiny yellow undressed days
overshadowed by a rain cloud
A little thunder understanding
but that’s O.K.
I heard she loves it with her leather
You know I’ve got to hand it to her
knocks me over with a feather
come on and be my handstand
Heaven’s seventeen today
fucking looking like the devil
wet and totally dishevelled
Are you here to stay?
Mary Poppins with a hairbrush
you never know when someone’s serious
boy toys can get delirious
under the crush
I heard she loves it with her leather
You know I’ve got to hand it to her
knocks me over with a feather
come on and be my handstand
Blister
566
Greetings All!
***********
SPARKLES
Silver and gold
Diamonds can’t rust
Riches untold
won’t hold you in trust
Bubbly champagne
glimmers insanely
and sparkles
The stars in the sky
and the sun on the water
the light in her eyes
grounds me to powder
daughter of fire
filled with desire
and sparkles
Earrings and necklaces
Jingle and jangle
I’m wrecked and I’m reckless
I’m hanging out dangling
sequins and spangles
baubles and bangles
and sparkles
sparkles...
567
Sun drenched plain
a wind washed field
the pain decides
what’s real or fake
hide and seek
I brake the tide
the lie is true
the wise insane
Paint in the sand
surrounded by sea
The hand of God
of me takes hold
rods of steel
cold and hard
the real illusion
canned and grand
I bide my time
God stands aside
I’m just a man
so guide me now
so outside in
I twist and bend
and all that begins
must someday end
568
Reached in and plucked out
my hollow hardened heart
Lay it on the table
get out the hack saw, axe murderer
Slice it up nice and
throw the pieces on he fire
just to watch ‘em burn baby
and when they’re nice and crisp
take tongs and lift ‘em to my lips
MMMMMMMMMMMMM
Delicious, crunchy and chewy by turns
how I love to at my heart out
like a flower
gossamer strands
of heart in my hands
I lick
my fingers
clean
569
Look out!
Agony
Anguish
Bottomed out
Brutally Beaten
Cheated
Crushed
Despair
Disdain
Destruction
Damnation
Death
Escape
Fear
Gutless
Horror
Hatred
Insanity
Junk
Kicked
Love
Mangled
Naked
Orgasm
Pin
Pain
Queer
Ripped
Shredded
Torn
Underground
Vacuous
X
Irradiated
Yellow
Zilch
Blister
570
Fire underneath the skin
Fire in the hole
From the point of no return
I burn
Fire on the bayou
Licking at the flames
playing silly games
I burn
Fire on the mountain
spreading to the floor
liquid fire fountain
I burn
Battery acid blood
a torch that I can hold
a love that you can spurn
Burn
571
What do you know,
I’m here again
blistering kisses
for lonely women
you say I’m lethal
just like a snake
tripping over and out
on the hearts I break
Ah, what do you know?
What do you know,
I finally slipped
the models in these
dreams are stripped
the pages of my
memory ripped
A burning bird
whose wings are clipped
Ah, what do you know?
What do you know,
I’m lost once more
found the ground
beneath me scored
Burnt from mountains
to the shore
dead from the hand
that held the sword
Ah, what do I know?
572
Ain’t that a bitch
some of us have to
scratch that itch
Don’t much care
for that vacuous stare
those vapid rapids
bore me to tears dear
Ain’t it a shame
to die in vain
just game to be slain
pain in the brain
the fame at that game
stained when you came
it’s lame to be blamed
but shame on you killer
whatever
it’s just more
newspaper filler
fuck it
who cares?
it’s bull
573
Bookshelf fire alarm
Iambic radio
Falsetto flagstaff
Esquimeaux in the cornfields
Thorns on the fieldmice
Thorns on the fieldmice? Cool! I’ll
bring beer!
Give up yet?
Where are we going with this anyway?
This is fun. . .what are we playing?
James Joyce on Saturday morning
cartoons.
Demi Moore on acid washed jeans naked.
Deep Blue Package Assembly by David
Byrne.
Carrot eating fanatics with ceramic
skid plates
Radishes eating Hari Krishnas with
catsup and onions.
Silver soup, so to speak, in babbling
baboons.
Burp, burp, a delicacy for boobling
babies.
Yum
: )
574
queer
was
everything
you
used
I
only
passed
forgiveness
hatred
jaded
kkk
love
zero
x
ing
cum
vitalis
better
not
marry
/./././.
men
bitter
victuals
casually
xenophobic
zippers
lifting
killing
jews
hitting
girls
dead
shit
pouting
in
useless
young
tyranny
everything’s
wasted
queer
575
Little miss faker fakes me out again
makes me whole and then
tears me limb from limb
Sometimes it makes me mad
This heart’s a breaker she breaks my heart again
Shakes me from her hair
Rips my roots from there
Sometimes I get so sad
I shouldn’t bother
I know who she is
I know what she does
She never forgives
and I’m not what I was
She’s just a killer
filling in time
looking for details
in this cracked soul of mine
And I’m just her lover
wasting away
tasting decay
slaving away just fine
I shouldn’t bother
I know who she is
I know what she does
She never forgives
and I’m not what I was
576
Linda’s Lips
**********
She says "Uh Oh!"
Baby it’s a no go
Don’t know what you want to do
And I just don’t know
Either
Live forever
Be together
Seperate as one never
Never never land
I’m a man with a fever
So we
Better wait and see
Better wait and see
You never know how it’ll go
but you can go with me
but we
Better wait and see
Better wait and see
Better wait and see
Yeah see ya
Have a baby get a sitter
It’s OK I’m not bitter
Make sense
Picket fence
Golden retriever
Get signed going blind
Make up your fucking mind
Shit or get off the pot
Move in or
Leave her
No we
Better wait and see
Better wait and see
You never know how it’ll go
but you can go with me
but we
Better wait and see
Better wait and see
Better wait and see
See ya
from Linda’s lips
Linda’s lips
577
Death and violence excite me
Blood and dripping gore
serial killer nightmare
shredding local whores
television daydream
fucking insane
once a year the dead walk
vengeance murder pain
stalking whispers
talking wisps
rotting lips
kissing caressing
knives slice
the putrid juice flows
dripping from the corpse
deliciously
mmmmm.........
578
*****************
Meanwhile
*****************
Sharktooth Sparkle
Glitter and grind
Shredding my flesh
Destroying my mind
Blood and salt
Water and sand
It’s all my fault
It got out of hand
The bone slowly splinters
The meat ripped away
I guess I deserve to be
eaten this way
The bloom finally flowered
The skin finely flayed
I’m being devoured
And left to decay
579
You’re in such a big hurry
Gotta save my soul yeah
No need to worry
You’re never too late or old to
Die die die
die for me
You’re in such big money
You can never have enough yeah
All milk and honey
Ain’t that tough luck go
Die die die
die for me
You’re such a big martyr
Just a sacrifice yeah
Beg and steal for a dollar
and my soul that’s nice so
Die die die
Die for me
You think you’re such a big deal now
Mr. TV Preacher
How does it feel now
If you really want to reach me
Die die die
Die for me
580
Slipping in
Beneath the skin
So sweet
This heat
What is sin?
Burning
Yet so wet
The spark of desire
Fanned into fire
Flame
Melting
Molding into one
Holding the torch
Closer to the sun
Exploding
Supernova
Over and over
And over and over again
Seismic
Cosmic
Orgasmic
Sex
581
Rapture
Comfort
Contentment
Capture
Constant
Confinement
Culture
Sorrow
Resentment
Torture
Violent
Containment
Sculpture
Silent
Arrainment
Scripture
Picture
Perfect
582
Erotic
Neurotic
Psychotic
Poetic
I can feel the images
But not her face
I sense traces of likeness
Can’t put my finger on it
So close so far away
I can’t touch it or hear it
Taste it or Smell it
Empty like the air
I run my digital fingers
Through her technical hair
Her echo lingers
She’s not here and I’m not there
I don’t know what I’m thinking
I know it’s my imagination
But I feel like I recognized you From
your fire
Before I knew who you were
But I don’t know who you are
So near yet so far I wait with baited
breath
I know not why What do I expect?
I guess I just suspect I bet I know
where this is going
I should stop but I can’t So I wait
and wonder
with trembling hands For her Fire
583
*******************
VIRTUAL
*******************
Virtual flowers
for a possible lover
theoretical kisses
for potential lips
cybernetic caresses
for digital breasts
technical hands
on pixelate hips
VIRTUAL
could be for maybe
might be for could
should you or shouldn’t
I would if I could
VIRTUAL
Plausible futures
ridiculous dreams
paranoid pulsars
in lurching I/O
gigabyte lust
and wanton extremes
from dust to virtual
dust do I go
VIRTUAL
could be for maybe
might be for could
should you or shouldn’t
I would if I could
VIRTUAL
584
Insight Inside
No wrong no right
Delayed Delight
No end in sight
Let go let love
Let love let go
In time and tide
Delight Denied
Cried out in vain
rained out insane
Let go let love
Let love let go
585
True dreams and fantasy
All lies and sorcery
Blue screams of infancy
Shake my reality
She draws another knife
Then cuts the cord of life
She waits for anarchy
Then slips it into me
I fall away from grace
I see a different face
All pride and vanity
Weeping insanity
Nowhere to go from here
Shed tears and shredding fear
All death and misery
Sadness eternity
Beautiful
Fucking Blister
586
Warning: Hate mail ahead
*********************
Home again home again
Jiggity Jig
A horse is a horse
unless it’s a pig
You did this to me
the tears remain unshed
Some day may be you’ll see
inside my fucking head
The hurt the hate the pain
disgust contempt disdain
revulsion’s saddest sorrow
I’ll see you there tomorrow
and when we’re dead you’ll see it’s
true
how much I fucking hate you
And the demons that you serve
It’s more than you deserve
Why should I recall
or think of you at all
Forget this little poem
I’m going fucking home.
Helen Highwater
587
Tongues across lips as
Fingetips slip over nipples
Gliding down sliding inside
Grace beauty power
devours the flower
It’s opening wider
That delicious divide
Submit to the kiss
That so tenderly
renders you helpless again
Hands in my hair
clutch this
bliss that we share
Tickle and tease to
"Please, oh please?"
It’s so nice when the parts fit
and the machine works fine
Flesh slowly meshed
entwined by design
overpoweringly erotic
exotic ecstatic
the rhythm increasing
engaging releasing
seismic to cosmic
it builds
to orgasmic
escape
and we calmly
drift away
into sleep
Bliss ter
588
Void
It was hot there for a minute
but now I guess it’s not
and yes there was a reason
but I don’t know what it was
So now I let it get me down
don’t know why Oh just because
Come and get destroyed
but don’t be paranoid
I wasn’t toying with you
So don’t go away annoyed
Hello little boy
and welcome to the void
Nice to see you where you been
a sin come home to stay
it didn’t hurt a bit
I’m allright, oh yes, just fine
What could I’ve been thinking
Well whatever, nevermind
Come and get destroyed
but don’t be paranoid
I wasn’t toying with you
So don’t go away annoyed
Hello little boy
and welcome to the void
I used to be someone who cared
I dared to feel I had a soul
Now I’m old and bored
It’ll kill you if you let it
I had a secret I won’t tell
Oh what the hell Ah just forget it
Come and get destroyed
but don’t be paranoid
I wasn’t toying with you
So don’t go away annoyed
Hello little boy
and welcome to the void
Blister
589
Look at me
I’m no sunshine
I’m no simple price you pay
Twisted broken bus stop rag bag
with a whole lot of nothing much to
say
Cry my son your melted wings
Sing a song of everything
Your simple truths and complex lies
won’t stop the apocalypse in your eyes
goodbye
look at you
broken angel
lost in ocean
tempest tossed
I’m not scared I feel the danger
save my skin my soul is lost
Cry my son kiss me goodbye
never stop to wonder why
Your simple truths and complex lies
won’t stop the apocalypse in your eyes
die
Blister
590
Stupidstar
*********
Tattoo nose ring heroin head
I’ll sell more records when I’m dead
Drug abuse and teenage angst
Just easy money in the bank
Happy Anti
Anti Stupidstar
New bandwagon freaks in drag
Think you’re queer? No, I’m the fag!
Media mogul in a hearse
I’m first in line but in reverse
Happy Anti
Anti Stupidstar
Makeup, trash and marketing
My image is my everything
Kinky sex and dirty hair
Talentless but I don’t care
Happy Anti
Anti Stupidstar
Radio and MTV
It’s all publicity to me
Hail all hail the makeup king
So what if I can’t even sing?
Happy Anti
Anti Stupidstar
591
STOP
Chronic Super Sonic
I’ve got it all and I’m on it
I don’t care I just wanna get high
don’t stop me now
Punked out super junky
all wired out and funky
Stupid dope hey where’d you get that
shit?
Up here in seventh heaven
with hot sweet gleaming demons
Gabriel baby why don’t you blow my
horn?
Don’t stop me now
I’m on a roll
I’ve got it all
Don’t stop me
This
party is more than just a verb
gotta sign here says "do not
disturb"
No one here is gonna get out alive
don’t stop me now
No don’t stop me now
This car’s a part of me now
from sea to shining sea now
don’t want to think just drive
Don’t stop me now
I’m on a roll
I’ve got it all
Don’t stop me
STOP
Crash
Boom
Burn
592
Lost in the jungle
tired and sore
traveling through miles
of thickets and thorns
At loss for direction
intention and style
which way do I go
desperation defiled
and I don’t much know
why I bother with this
I could just stay home
and cuddle and kiss
Rock and roll rubbish
punk rocking kitsch
steaming and screaming
in unholy bliss
rhyming inanely
sublimely insanely
I can’t figure out
where I’m going with this
I wish I could just
go home
A Deflated Blister
593
Sadness
*******
Broken doll parts
pathetic mannequin
strew about carelessly
no one loves you
your so empty
hollow limbs and
hollow heart
torn apart by
restless strangers
remorseless killers
relentless mortuary
permanent cemetary
Rusty Toy truck
cracked glass
fucked up
stomped on
dog bit horse shit
shoveled away buried to stay
never to see the sunlight again
the worst parts were all
done by your friends
tears drip down my face
and run away
594
Convicted
**********
I’m not guilty
that’s what you think
I didn’t do it
that’s what you think
you can’t catch me
that’s what you think
I always knew it
that’s what you think
I’m just who I am
pressure in a can
a race that no one runs
loaded up on guns
Convicted
Convicted
Convicted
I’m not dead meat
that’s what you think
hair and heartbeat
that’s what you think
I can get through it
that’s what you think
I guess you blew it
that’s what you think
I’m just who I am
pressure in a can
a race that no one runs
loaded up on guns
Convicted
Convicted
Convicted
595
Used to be conservative
Now I’m radical
Used to be serious
But it’s a gag
Used to be a good boy
Now I’m such a bad boy
Used to be a drag
0Now I get delerious
I am the
Shoe on the
Shoe on the
Shoe on the other foot y’all
Used to be a hot shot
Now I’m cold as icicles
Used to be a poor man
Wanting to get rich
Used to be a nice guy
God ain’t that a bitch
Used to be a slacker
Now I give it all I’ve got
I’ve got that
Shoe on the
Shoe on the
Shoe on the other foot y’all
Used to be a straight edge
Now I’m just a phreak
Used to be a waterfall
But now I’m just a lake
Used to be so passive
Now I’ve got a mean streak
Used to take all I could take
But now I simply break
into that
Shoe on the
shoe on the
shoe on the other
shoe on the other
shoe on the other foot y’all
Er, Um,...Blister
596
It’s over now
no more stress
no more relatives
and I feel blessed
another year
of tears survived
I may be nuts
but I’m alive
To face the pain
and hate and fear
the sturm und drang
and still be here
not riddled with holes
of miserable grief
it’s over now
and I kept it brief
It seems like heaven
after
hell sublime
this blessed relief
from Christmas time
Another Mr. Big Fucking Happy Head
[phew!]
597
97
Inches away I can feel it
So close to the juice I could steal it
So near to the fear I can taste it
One glance at the chance and I waste
it
Is it love? Is it success?
Is it sex? Are you undressed?
Is it a slap or soft caress?
Less is more? oh more or less...
Right next to fame
stand beside fortune
behind the pain
the same old tune
In front of cameras
there in the spotlight
above the crowd
beneath the moon
Is it love? Is it success?
Is it sex? Are you undressed?
Is it a slap or soft caress?
Less is more? oh more or less...
598
Machine gun
a hundred rounds per second
Dum dum bullets
cop killers
mmmmmm.....
sweet
the blood flows like rivers
through the streets
soaking the winos in the gutter
flowing down drains
spattering virgins
shattering windows
body parts
everywhere
death in the air
flesh in my teeth
feeding again
on the innocent
yum
599
Feel
Pain
Depression
Fear
Aggression
Hunger
Caged
Anger
Rage
Sorrow
Deranged
Horror
Torture
Nurtured
Chained
Insane
Darkness
600
Big Deal
***************
Big deal
Contract
Human
Contact
I just want an angel
Who can rock my world
Touch ‘n’ go
Wishbone
Hanging on the
Telephone
Feels so good
With that sweet young girl
Another name brand performer
With a mouthful of nothing to say
Conformity in death looks normal
But I hope I don’t go out that way
Hot shot
Record biz
Wet spot
Cheese wiz
You won’t get to rock
unless you sell your soul
Free dope
Cold as ice
Hopeless
Sacrafice
Body like a statue
With a head like a hole
Another name brand performer
With a mouthful of nothing to say
Conformity in death looks normal
But I hope I don’t go out that way
Please forgive this rant, but I simply
can not resist.
601
A Loopy Perspective
*****************
Picture this:
Black man comes home and finds his
white wife in bed with her white
boyfriend. He grabs a knife and cuts
them to ribbons.
[I know I’ve said this before, but so
fucking what?]
So they put the brother on trial for
murder. The television trial
lasts a year and becomes the legal
fiasco of the century.
They find him NOT GUILTY! Two years
later he’s on trial again, but
not for MURDER! No, this time it’s
WRONGFUL DEATH!
[What the fuck does that mean? Is
there a difference?]
So this time they find him guilty.
[Haven’t any of these people heard about that
rule that you can’t be tried twice for
the same crime?] In harmony everyone
screams "Yea, Justice!" and
I’m thinking what about the justice
homeboy dished out to his two timing
bitch of a wife and her cutsie
pie boyfriend who couldn’t protect
himself or her from the rage of
the man whose wife he was fucking. It
looks to me like justice was done a
long time ago. So now what? Are the
goldman’s going to use the brother’s money
to hire a hit man, and REALLY do
justice to their lost loved one, or are they
gonna just kick back and enjoy all
that cash? I bet I can guess which.
Yea Justice.
602
I’m so incredibly sick of everything
It all tastes like sand to me now
I can’t stand it anymore
I want to kill
You, me, everyone
This must be how it feels
to build an atomic bomb
I just wanted to do something new
Something special
Something that makes a difference
But it’s all just the same
rhyme
blather spittle shit licking mud boots
and smashed in skulls tattooed nail
head
full of hate and holes
needle eyed scum sucking
slum lord of illiterati
blasting bullshit
out into cyberspace
603
‘Scuse me while I whip this out...
********
$ T $ I $ M $ E $
********
I used to watch the clock for days
I was down and feeling blue
hours, minutes, seconds, moments
There was nothing I could do
Time was a measure of my value
I sold the units of my life
I must admit it went too cheaply
death and taxes, kids and wife
Then at once at last I realized
Life didn’t have to be so bad
I wiped the tears from sore sad eyes
Time was all I ever had
I threw my watch into the ocean
I watched it slowly drift away
After a while it started sinking
and as it sank I walked away
Blister
604
Fade to black
***********
fourteen year old boy
with automatic toys
fill you full of lead
bullet in the head
staring at the sun babies
love those shiny guns baby
love those shiny gun babies
better live than dead
the white is stained with red
skulls on bayonettes
I guess that’s what you get
Hand grenades and lemonade
virgin maids with razorblades
silken skies and burning flak
take the shot and fade to black
come and place your bets
I ain’t finished yet
blood is in the air
but I don’t really care
staring at the sun babies
love those shiny guns baby
love those shiny gun babies
thanks it’s nice to share
love and war are fair
we love what we destroy
and do what we enjoy
Hand grenades and lemonade
virgin maids and razorblades
silken skies and burning flak
take the shot and fade to black
605
Strictly commercial
****************
I want my MTV
Need you to feed your stupid lies to
me
I need to hear that ear splitting
sound
You prattle on my street’s a battle
ground
Tell me it’s so cool to get high
Lick me with tongues of lies
Well it should come as no surprise
We die and you advertise
Strictly commercial
Come tell me it’s OK
Everything’s meant to be this way
Violence hard drugs and a quick death
I smoke that cigarette with my last
breath
I want this misery
I wanna see what you want me to see
I wanna feel what you tell me to feel
You are the only one who knows what’s
real
Strictly commercial
Give my the sludge that I demand
Make me a real he man
Let me pretend I know the score
The only thing I really want is more
I want my cadillac
I want that knife in my back
Go ahead keep rolling in the green
Mr. Corporate death machine
Strictly commercial
Blister
606
This Disease
**********
Tongues touched
Hands met
Hard flesh
Hot skin
Soft smooth
Warm wet
Lets me
Get in
Give me
Everything I want from you
Come do
Everything I need you to
Show me
Everything I’d die to see
Inside
Give me your disease
One Crush
One Man
One hit
You gush
Tied up
Can’t stand
This pain
Get up
Let me
Do it all to you
Let me
Take it all from you
Let me
Make it all come you
Let me
Give you my disease
607
Icarus
*****
Look at me I’m no sunshine
I’m no simple price to pay
Twisted broken bus stop rat bag
I got nothing much to say
Fly my son your melted wings
sing a song of everything
Your simple truth and complex
lies
won’t stop the apocalypse in your eyes
Burn Icarus Burn
Look at you broken angel
crossed an ocean tempest tossed
I’m not scared I feel the danger
I saved my skin my soul was lost
Die my love kiss me goodbye
Never think to wonder why
your simple truth and complex lies
won’t stop you dropping from the sky
Burn Icarus Burn
Look at this fine existence
Supersonic big and bold
took the path of least resistance
chained and beaten bought and sold
Cry my dear your tears of fear
This may seem a bit unclear
your simple truth and complex lies
won’t help you see through this
disguise
Burn Icarus Burn
608
5 Oclock blues
************
All quiet
no sound
hot silence
surrounds
tied up
but unbound
whined up and
unwound
All clear
we’re here
no sorrow
no tears
tomorrow
or next year
I follow
without fear
No glory
no guts
no ifs and
no buts
no bruises
no cuts
no bolts and
no nuts
609
3/1/68
Happy Birthday to Me
*******************
Funny how things look
This side of thirty
I see a wheel chair
A Hospital bed
A nursing home
A doctor
A curse
Funny how things look
This side of thirty
I see a bullet
A gun
A bridge
A brick
A tombstone
Funny
I see fraility
feebleness
weakness
sickness
fear
and death
ha
ha ha
funny
I see
automatic panic
itchy trigger finger
pocket fulla shells
bucket fulla blood
I’m fulla shit
funny
clinging to a life
not worth living
by a thread of abject terror
scared of oblivion
and death
funny how things can look
This side of thirty
610
Animal desire
hungry and hot
the violent urge for sex
Propriety demands
I keep my hands to myself
at the office
but in my hard of hards
I want your cunt
I can smell it from here
When you walk past
your ass calls to me
Fuck me it screams
Tear me apart
I get thicker and sicker
Filled with beastly need
to grab you and throw you against the
wall
to bite your neck so hard you bruise
as I use my hands to shred the thin
dress you wear
the feeling’s so intense it scares me
Strip you naked
ripped bra and panties
panting as my fingers
slide inside you
demanding and forceful
Everyone watches
as I drag you to the ground
like an animal
the real me
in the urban jungle
unafraid of retribution
I take you like the wild doe you are
deer eyed and frightened
you submit
as I stroke your clit
into readiness
you’re wet enough now to enter
and I slam it into you
I’ve got you by the hips now
pumping the rhythm of the saints
your juice runs down my leg
it doesn’t take much
to make you clutch the floor
and beg for more
god made it feel good for a reason
and you’re in season bitch
and as I feel you coming on my cock
I reel from the shock
my juice begins to flow into you
and we explode together endlessly
forever and a day
another imaginary lay at the office
611
Infection
rotting in my head
a weakling
dripping snot
Immune
deficient apparently
white blood cells asleep
while the enemy attacks
it’s a Virus the doctor said
Hi Virus
Here take these
they’ll kill the pain
amazing
what good drugs will do
I have to admit
it crossed my mind
to take them all at once
with a nice bottle of wine
that’s one sure way to cure
an infection
612
A well oiled hate machine
spewing lies and eating green
grinding gears and I get caught
ripped away I slowly rot
hot shit for sale
Stupid words in endless rhyme
Sublime like violent crime
esoteric hysteria
a case vocal diarrhea
hot shit for sale
shot up and dying high
I got my license to fly
How did I end up this way?
Mr. Nothing much to say
hot shit for sale
Mr. Blister
613
Blind
To everything but this feeling
Designed
to send senses reeling
Combined
sensitive to the touch
Your mine
in the clutch it’s a crutch
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
or is it just sex?
Concentrate
but I can’t pay attention
Can’t wait
for release from this tension
We mate
and make a lasting connection
Is it hate?
Or just another erection?
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
or is it just sex?
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
or is it just sex?
I guess
it’s a mess
it’s a lesson
we learn
as we turn
and we burn
and we burn
and we burn
and we
just have sex
614
The Funniest Thing
*****************
rotting from AIDS
the crack Acid and smack
machie gunner’s flak
hitting right in the back
melting away
in a nuclear attack
shuffle the deal
on the cards we stack
Death is the funniest thing
cancer of liver
of lungs and of heart
terrorist bomb blast
blowing apart
another statistic
on top of the chart
Just when I finish
I’m back at the start
Death is the funniest
the funniest thing
choking to death
on the jewels I swallowed
die in the fire
of leaders I follow
going today
I’ll be back tomorrow
a great big loan
on the time I borrowed
Death is the funniest
Death is the funniest
Death is the funniest thing
615
True
******************
Used to be a harder time
Overlooking underlying
Reasons for the child dying
I killed it all and I quit trying
except for you
this song is for you
True
Then I saw a brighter sun
understood and set out running
overloaded undergunning
this cunning beast all shocked and
stunning
and you
this song is for you
yeah you
this song is for you
True
Now I look to better days
No feet of clay & the rope starts
fraying
Beat the beat the bands still playing
it’s overwhelming I’m still staying
and this song is for you
this song is for you
yeah you
this song is for you
True
An Unlikely Blister
616
Stranger
**********
I cut it off
you sew it on
Burn it away
it’s already gone
This feeling just keeps getting
stranger and stranger
Nailed on the cross
you drag me down
I scream so loud
you can’t hear a sound
I kiss your lips
you slap my face
This brand new me
you just replace
and this feeling just keeps getting
stranger and stranger
push me away
I pull you in
You keep the faith
but I still sin
So mother please
give me a taste
I saved it all
but it’s all a waste
and this feeling just keeps getting
stranger and stranger
Give you my skin
you take my heart
I build it up
you tear me apart
Blister [a little more like]
617
Some random thoughts
******************
Totally out of control
Wildly spin like a top
Flailing in every direction
Completely unable to stop
Slipping away from my soul
Into the drugs that I cop
Beyond any sort of correction
I’m just a theatre prop
A fresh cardboard cutout of me
Standing here blind on the stage
Cut me and I will not bleed
No feelings of anger or rage
I used to go nowhere for free
A wild beast trapped in a cage
A wilted plant now gone to seed
I guess I’m just coming of age
618
CRASH 1
********
Mangled steel twisted around phone
poles
Bodies in braces embracing
tounges darting road winding
wheels spinning sliding spinning
confined to a hospital bed
but still horny
Here let’s put it in high gear
and get in the back seat
let’s see if we can finish before we
hit
why worry the road’s straight [sort
of]
and there’s no traffic [well, not
much]
let’s see if we can do it at 100mph
again and again and again until
CRASHHHHHHHHHHHH
Blister
No I didn’t see the movie yet.
619
NOW
**********
I inspect you
I reject you
I regret you
I forget you
I connect you
I inject you
I select you
I infect you
I complete you
I defeat you
I defend you
I condemn you
I denied you
I’m inside you now
620
Jesus please us
make us happy
take us to your
heaven Dad
God is great and
God is good
Mr. Happy
Robin Hood
Just drink this
it tastes like Jesus
Smell like teen spirit
I smell a sucker
Perfect leader
shows us the way
you lousy rotten
motherfucker
Let’s hitch a ride to heaven
on a comet Cupid
"To conquer death you only have
to die."
621
strange memories...
Stripper
************
Mister Blister
Admit that you
kissed her
She was so young
and O so innocent
Twisted wrists
It was too
hard to resist her
brass in pocket
but money all spent
she says "Baby baby
let me be your baby
Charming darling
I want it all dear
Baby baby
let me be your baby
hide inside me
I’m the only one here"
Faster master
fuck me you
bastard
Amazing how quickly
she learned all those tricks
Plaster cast
and a new
stratocaster
those stupid groupies
will soon make you sick
she says "Baby baby
let me be your baby
Charming darling
I want it all dear
Baby baby
let me be your baby
hide inside me
I’m the only one here"
622
Precious
********
What are my precious things?
Exactly what do I hold dear?
Is there anything of worth
left in this world of fear?
Where are my memories?
the feelings that I’ve lost
endlessly reminding me
of the devastating cost
Who is my saving grace?
The muse abandons me
My leather turns to lace
enslaves what I set free
When then will I escape
this prison that I’ve built?
How then the size and shape
of one man’s hidden guilt?
Where are my precious...
Where are my precious
things?
623
HOPE
******
My hope is locked
in a little black box
more or less safe and sound
for the moment
what will I do
when I open my box
and find that my hope
has been stolen?
I used to have faith
and charity too
I lost them forever
when I gave them to you
Now I am bitter
and brutal and cold
and I sometimes forget
that I’ve got what I hold
In my little locked box
it’s under the stairs
I’d show it to you
but nobody cares
yet sometimes when I’m lonely
and I know I can’t cope
I go down and jerk off in
my small box of hope.
624
Gluttony and Temperance
Greed and Charity
Pride and Humility
Lust and Chastity
Sloth and Fastidiousness
Wrath and Forgiveness
Envy and ...Desirelessness?
GRRR! I hate it when I can’t find
words I want! Does anyone out there know
an antonym for Envy? What are the 7 virtues? ARRG! My catholic upbringing fails me! No wonder I was thrown
out of Sunday school.
625
RATS
*****
crawling in my head
biting off my ears
playing on my fears
scurry ‘neath my bed
clawing out my eyes
screaming
rats! red eyed rabid rats!
flea infested
yellow teeth
one
turns to ten
turns to thousands
engulfing me
nawing my flesh
from my bones
blood drips
from my finger tips
to splatter on the floor
my eyes hang
from their sockets
I am devoured
by rats
626
Sorrow and disappointment
rejection disrespect digust
anger fear aggression
misery conflict strife
Sorrow and disappointment
demands made and unmet
expectations failed
discontent and violence
Sorrow and disappointment
Chaos and disorder
complaints derision division
defend attack decision
Sorrow and disappointment
A. Blister
627
Manic D
*******
Up and down
happy sad
so in love
and raving mad
I’ve got it all
but I don’t want it
what the hell
go ‘head and flaunt it
In and out
and up and down
fly so high
crash to the ground
I know it all
but I have to guess
manic depression
makes me such a mess
Up and down
I’m in and out
Mr. Nice guy
inside out
back and forth
I can’t decide
Die inside it’s suicide
On this rollercoaster ride
B...B...Blister.com
628
car fire
********
You know it’s going to be a bad day
when your boss walks in at 9:15 monday
morning asking who’s car is on fire, and it’s yours.
Wayward cigarette
thrown out the window
crawls back into the car
snuggles up in my back seat
in my favorite hat
it’s the one I brought back
from the bahamas
it said bahamas on the front
now it says mas
because half of it’s gone
along with my back seat
better quit smoking they said
I’m thinking tell it to my car
I’m not the one who was on fire
I should’ve let it burn
I’m not that crazy about it anyway
besides the insurance
would’ve covered it
plus what a great excuse to get out of
work
sorry boss
my car looks like burnt toast
won’t be coming in today
sorry
Oh well
whatever
nevermind
629
The Habit Trail
*************
a broken hinge
a hammer and a nail
just another binge
on the habit trail
what’s in a name but a broken rose
nothing’s been the same
a soaking string in glue
my eyes burning tied to you
there’s nothing much left to do
have another drink another screw
another board to drive it into
besides I’m bored and you know it’s
true
another broken hinge
hammer and nail
another binge
on the habit trail
630
Bread knife
still life
hot to trot
butter on the plate babe
seafood fillet
fish fry today
baby
give it to me I’m hungry
don’t make me
steak knife shine
steak knife shine
I just pulled it outta my back
get outta line
don’t make me
steak knife shine
steak knife shine
‘cause boy you know
it’s so easy to go
that way
taking it on
quick pick
lip stick
mirror
drawing up a line babe
snow cone all lone
momma love bone
gimme it I’m hungry
Lame brain
cum stain
hot shit
go get oveer it babee
and I won’t say
that that’s the way
but it certainly
starts to look like it
Over and over
little dinner time crime
split the scene quick
if you know what I mean
over and over
little TV slime
I’m a rent a car star
that must count for something
something
‘cause boy you know
it’s so easy to go that way
taking it on I’m gone
631
S.O.S.*****
I want I want the rider and the ride
Why would I want to decide?
Why would I want to hide it?
Well, I’d deny it
I denied it
‘Cause I’m afraid I’m afraid
I want I want the newspaper tonight
Why am I set for flight?
Why do I want to fight?
Why would I want to fight it?
It’s delightful
That’s why I like it
‘Cause I’m afraid I’m afraid
I want I want another little hit
Why should I give a shit?
Why should I care for it?
Why would I want to try it?
Just buy it
Get high
‘Cause I’m afraid I’m afraid
632
Bloodseed
***********
Just because it used to be that
doesn’t that it was me
it doesn’t mean it has to be this way
- Bloodseed
Down on bended knee I scratch until I
bleed
Passed out because I need to stay -
Bloodseed
The bottle’s open bottle’s empty
There’s no need to try and tempt me
I get the message you just sent me
I’m easy
Tight lips and gritted teeth
spit those words out as you seethe
So hard that I can barely breathe
breathe easy
breathe easier
Just because I’m on the ground Doesn’t
mean I’m always down
Doesn’t mean i’m always down to stay -
Bloodseed
Just because I used to be doesn’t mean
I’ll always be
Doesn’t mean I’ll always be this way -
Bloodseed
A tense and aggravated Blister
633
Release
***********
Feelings I can’t express
my life is such a mess
I miss your soft caress
It’s so depressing
I’m unrehearsed
I wanna cut
I wanna curse
I wanna cry
I wanna live
I wanna die
Feeling bent out of shape
Been cheated beaten raped
I got it all on tape
There’s no escaping
Release me
I wanna crash
I wanna burn
I wanna love
I only hate
I’m so unhappy
It’s just great
Release me
I miss your face
out here in space
I’ve been replaced
what’ve I been chasing?
Release me
I wanna take
I wanna give
I wanna bend
I wanna break
I wanna lose this
feeling I can’t take it
Release me
Release me
Release
Release
Release me
634
Maybe a little late but...
A poem that doesn’t rhyme
**********************
Why?
Why would anyone want to know what you
think about it?
Why would anyone ask for your opinion?
Why would anyone want to be judge,
jury, or mind cop?
Why would anyone care what you thought
if you were?
Why would anyone join a forum for
expression just to express
disapproval of someone else’s
work?
Why would anyone want to express
themselves under a watchful and
disapproving eye?
Why would anyone want to be a
critic?
Why would anyone want to be such a
dick?
Funny thing about critics. They never
seem to make
anything worthwhile themselves, and so
must content themselves with
cutting up the achievements of others.
I hear hell is full
of them. If you think this is about
you then maybe you should think
about what you say. I’m the last
person to tell anyone on bobshoe
what to write, but the first to say if
you need to criticize someone
else’s work either address them
directly [and not over bobshoe] or
better yet do us all a favor and fuck
off. End of poem.
Are we poets, or critics?
A pissed off and critical Blister
635
Scream
********************
I drown in empty poetry
I sink in waves of pink
nothing but my soul to sell For $ale
Broken dreams balance beams
Is this really what it seems?
I’ve got this new hate machine
I think it’s time to make it scream
I climb to heights of extasy
Fall to the rocks below
I’m getting tired of the grind
I start to lose my mind again
I hate to make a scene
But it hurts so much I want to scream
Broken dreams balance beams
Is this really what it seems?
I’ve got this new hate machine
I think it’s time to make it scream
Love is love and not fade away
Dream away start to scream
I start to lose my mind again
I hate to make a scene
But it hurts so much I want to scream
Broken dreams balance beams
Is this really what it seems?
I’ve got this new hate machine
I think it’s time to make it scream
636
Some thoughts on the subject of SEX
[What a surprise! Coming from
me!?!?!?]
Whoops, I said coming...huh huh huh
huh
Sorry.
**************
I can’t understand
why both woman and man
get so out of hand on this subject
A simple act of GOD
based on procreation
enhanced for recreational purposes
you never hear of porpoises
having sexual hangups
Men with their
virile often juvenile
penile pole projections
they casually smashingly refer to as
"My Dick"
and girls with their
frilly lil curls
ringing the lips of their sexual
flowers
they ususally only refer to as
"Down There"
Strike me as heavenly
but they keep getting steadily
more fucked up
when they should be out
FUCKING
God made it feel good
for far more than one reason
one would think
I just don’t see why
everyone’s so uptight
about something that feels so right
jealousy
vanity
infidelity
sexuality
hmmm
sorry
I guess
I’m going
nowhere with this.
So I think I’ll go out
and get me a kiss
Bye.
637
Blinded
******************
She’s so beautiful
I can’t believe her
she’s in demand
with a rose in her hand
and I can never leave her
I’m blinded
She’s got it all
and I want it
She always got
what she wanted
when you’re built like that
you flaunt it
I’m blinded
I just applied
for a permanent connection
She’s justified
She don’t need no correction
She’s sanctified
She don’t need no one’s protection
She’s undenied
total satisfaction
She’s total satisfaction
total satisfaction
and I’m blinded
638
The Wait
********
Time Spent
Time Wasted
Time to go
Time to stay
Time after
Time before
Time to made friends with
Time on my hands
Time on my knees
Time in
Time out
wait
wait
wait
wait
DIE
639
Holly
*****
My friend Holly tends the bar
She’s a deadhead highway star
She’s got every little thing
It takes to make this birdy sing
She’s sweet desire
She’s on fire
I gave my friend Holly a rose
I watched her put it to her nose
As I walked down walker street
I felt the sandals on her feet
walk over me
Over me
and she smiled at me
all over me
I went to see her once again
Just to play this little game
I had to see her just to see
If she had something for me
I have to wait
but I’m not afraid
Let’s go down to Holly’s bar
I don’t think it’s very far
She gets closer she gets near
I’m just trembling in fear
She’s a river
She’s a giver
Once again
Once again
I, Blister
640
This is a stupid junkie rant.
You probably want to delete this now,
especially if you smoke, but
don’t worry. I’ll be back on the
nicotine drain train before I
fucking A know it. You see, right now
I’m crawling with nicotine
bugs. The urge to painfully burn the
sensitive tissues of my lungs is so strong I want to puke. I hate my life, I
hate food, I hate
everything. I just want that miserable
foul smelling smoke in my
eyes, in my mouth like a rapist’s cum
on my tongue. I feel like
licking an ashtray just for the fuck
of it. Nicotine is so fucking
nice. Such a nice legal happy harmless
little drug. Wouldn’t hurt a fucking
little fly joe camel, would you? Phillip Morris is your pal boys and girls. The marlboro man’s a FAG but
that’s OK ‘cause he’s so fucking macho. It’s hard to be macho when you’re lungs
are made of liquid. It feels so great to be out of breath while you’re trying
to FUCK. It’s a good thing I like to fuck so fucking much because
otherwise I’d just say FUCK IT and
have another cigarette. I love
this so much. I must because I do it so
FUCKING OFTEN. On again off again
jiggety jig a horse is a horse unless it’s a pig selling heroin flavored bubble
gum in the form of little rolls of paper
filled with the dried leaves of a plant that used to be considered STRONG
MEDICINE by wiser men. That is, until it was sprayed with even more deadly
chemicals and became a big fat happy grinning fucking death’s head. Here, have
one. Care for a smoke? Got one? Have one? Want one? Need one? Lungs bleeding?
Good, have another. That’ll make it feel better. There, see? Isn’t that better?
But it’s OK, I’m not bitter. Much.
Blister
641
I want
I need
I got it
Love Life
I Love Life
She want
She need
She got it
Love Life
She Love Life
Love it
We want
We need
We got it
Love Life
We Love Life
You want
You need
You got it
Love Life
Do you Love Life?
Love it
642
A heavy metal borderline punk tune
about a comic book anti hero.
[picture fast pounding drums &
grinding guitars]
Inspired by an unmet friend...
******************
G.D.B.G.
******************
flesh and blood
the feel of steel
fresh blood
make it squeal
grand dad
bone grind
grand daddy
dead weight
cast off
cold freight
blast off
grand dad
grand daddy
grand daddy
bonegrinder
GRIND
skull crush
bone lust
moon beam
coffin dust
grand daddy
bonegrinder
chaos
unauthorised
uncompromised
unrecognised
grand daddy bonegrinder
grand dad
bone grind
grand daddy
bonegrinder
GRIND
643
Tired
*******************
I crawled into insanity
My eyes wide open in
sanctity
devoured
I’m deflowered
I’m tired
I babylon inanity
insentient entity
invent me
cement me
Devoured
I’m deflowered
I’m tired
I slipped into this
sensual delusion
into clarity
desired
retired
I’m tired
goodbye
644
SHIT
*************
No soap
jump rope
try to keep
your hopes up
dope fed
dead head
trying to cope
with federal agents
orange only
rhymes with orange
she’s so pretty and I
don’t give a shit
shit
hand maid
land mine
mime faced
paradigm
I’m fine
crime wave
and jesus saves
jesus slaves
orange only rhymes
with orange
and she’s so pretty
I still don’t give a shit
shit
hip hop
flip flop
ragamuffin
mop top
go and cop
acid drop
flippin out
never stop
orange still rhymes
with orange
yeah and she’s so fine bitch
I don’t give a shit
shit
645
Ponderables:
Just how far is too far? How hard can
you push that
envelope? I was talking with Curt
about the cutting edge. What is
that? Where is it at? Is something art
because it’s
offensive/frightening/disturbing/uncomfortable?
Is it art because
it’s pretty? How about pretty ugly? If
I write the
most offensive nasty shit ever just to
provoke a reaction, is that
reaction meaningful?. Could I get
myself thrown off bobshoe because of my
content? If I could would that be a victory? Who or what would I be fighting for / against then? What does
it all mean? Do I even
want a reaction? Why would I? I’m sure
I couldn’t care less what
anyone thinks [least of all non
creative people], but if that’s
so
then what’s my purpose? Why post
anything? Why create anything? For
myself? What do I want it for? Do I want it? And what is it I want? I’m really just asking these questions out
loud for the fuck of it. ART; The bottom
line: Who cares? Fuck it; Back to work.
646
Hi.
Actually, I was more pondering the
nature of art in terms of being
the creator. Writing "for
yourself" versus witing "for an audience", and the meaning and / or goals thereof. Much
of what passes for art
these days has mostly to do with shock
value and / or marketing
etc...
I was thinking more along the lines
that when people create for an
audience often the goal is to get a
reaction. Applause, shock, hate fear,
lust, envy, who knows what. As opposed to writing for yourself in which case
again who knows why one would do it. Lord knows I don’t know why I do it. This
all sprang from a conversation with Curt and he suggested I post it. See, I got
an email from someone on bobshoe which I took to basically mean "fuck you,
you suck and so do your poems". Mostly I get comments like "right on
cool" so it got me thinking about
reactions, why I’m here [on earth and bobshoe], what the fuck I’m doing with all this art stuff
what it means, do I
care what people think, what doees it
mean if I do or don’t, etc. I wanted to
see what other people thought.
By the way, I knew that whatever I sent would get forwarded [though I
could be removed from the list and receive no other bobshoe posts]. I was
thinking hypothetically. Anyway, that’s that. Folks who want to talk more about
this can mail me. Bobshoe’s for poetry. I just wanted to provoke a reaction.
647
Happy Friday
***********
hib dooby wabby bobby do me now
hoop oopy doopy frimpy poppy sow
snip gibben du frangen hap slappy
giddap
I wanna fuck nancy spungen
but she’s dead so I guess I’ll shaddap
648
Crash 2
********
I looked into the water
saw you floating out there
I splashed
I drank
I touched
I kissed it all
I try
I die
I crash
I fly
I killed
I repent
I’m filled
with resentment
and
I try
I die
I crash
I fly
I turned into the light
falling into the night
I looked into the sun
I think you are the one
I tried
I died
I crashed
I fly
I listen to the sound
I let it turn around
I get up off the ground
I throw
I throw it away
I stay
I crashed
I’m going away
649
yes mother
of course I’ll kill the neighbor’s cat
here kitty kitty kitty
meow hiss scratch claw
strangle
mangle
buried him out back mommy
johnny’ll never know
yes mother
of course I’ll kill the teacher’s pet
slip up from behind
with a hammer
bam
wham slam
thud
blood
he’s dead
buried him
behind the shed
teacher’ll never know
but mommy
I don’t want to kill the little girl
but mommy
but...
but...
yes mother.
mother?
yes son?
slice
dice
slash
crash
goodbye mother
blis
650
Just Words
**********
Infidelity
Faithlessness
Adultery
Fornication
Prostitution
Masturbation
Impurity
Dishonesty
Disloyalty
Lust
Greed
Desire
Envy
Fixation
Desolation
Damnation
Death
_B_L_I_S_T_R_E_
651
Mystery
********
How can I control this naked emotion?
How can I express what I want to
express?
What do I want to express?
Fear anxiety anger resentment?
Pleasure comfort peace joy?
Why? And who cares?
And why? What is this thing?
and why does it keep following me
around?
colors in painting
painting in sound
keeping me up
and getting me down
Silver and gold
Devil and God
Coffin dust nightmare
or heavenly sod
[soil that is, black ground]
Ah, I have it!
Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch
Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch Bitch
When you have nothing better to do
you might as well complain
poor me
poor me
pour me another one
Bury the moon and dig up the sun
652
A Goofy Limerick
****************
Mary had a litle lamb
skin condom in her purse
The doctor died of shock
because his cock had gotten worse
She promised she would make him better
If he’d only letter
Sign upon this dotted line
A scrip to percoset her
he quickly checked his clock
to find some time in which to heal her
feeling senses reeling as he got the
chance to feel her
the doctor had a head of hair as white
as fleece’s snow
he blew his chance and cursed in verse
for Mary had to go.
653
eloquence eludes me
when I try to write this down
derided and deluded
it’s the cheapest place in town
concentrate on consequences
you get what you deserve
put up doors and walls and fences
obey the one you serve
elephant developments
a mouse beneath your feet
jump and run envelopment
accept your great defeat
love is blind and so am i
i stop to wonder why
dumb numb and cumbersome
i gradually retreat
654
hi
it’s a small day
it’s a small small small small day
not a big day
not a large day
not a huge day
not a gigantic day
just a day
a small day
a small small small small day
it’s monday
rats.
655
BEWARE OF GOD [or something]
*****************
Bury me
Under you
like an avalnche
coming through
touch me
like a photograph
scratch me like a record
on your phonograph
Drawn like a line in the sand
a moth to the flame I’m a man
something I don’t understand
crushed like a bird in your hand
Kiss me
like baseball bat
you flatten me
like a diesel CAT
stroke me
like an old guitar
choke me
like a scimitar
A chalk outline in the rain
spilled like a permanent stain
something I don’t understand
crushed like a bird in your hand
Taste me
like a glass wine
drink me
like strychnine
shake me
like cheap champagne
Rape me
like I go insane
a frog in a blender
fender bender
defeated defender
total surrender
Blister
656
When you don’t understand something
look for the financial aspect.
For years Phillip Morris et al have
had carte blanche to sell the
death sticks free from litigation
[making millions] and the doctors are
making millions treating the cancer patients. Whose making money on the ballistic anti
smoking campain going on now? Whose
going to
make millions on the negligent homicde
[or whatever] cases brought by smokers? The lawyers and the insurance
companies? On a related note, how long before liver cancer patients [read
drunks] start bringing law suits against anheuser busch? How long after that
prohibition [again?]Responses may be sent directly to me to avoid a huge
smoking flap on our poetry group. Thanks. And now a poem.
SMOKE II
*********
Nicotine filter fiberglass tar
iron lung priests gonna litigate
prosecute persecute confiscate
purple salt peter eater smoke it up
jack
nicotine gum patch legalized crack
break thise cigarette addicts right
down
burn winston/salem NC to the ground
tight cunt witch hunt save us from ourselves
besides that tabacco smoke really
fucking smells
might makes right a new drug war to
fight
while we’re at it lets make alcohol
illegal agin
cause I miss that good old bathtub gin
wouldn’t it be nice to have a new
illegal substance
we can put on ice more mob shooting
sprees
bring the junkies to their knees
and double up our profits I mean
everyone knows
how much more illegal drugs are worth
than legal ones
just ask the fucking Kennedys and
their philandering sons
an addicted blister
657
toss and turn
crash and burn
live and learn
no return
What are you gonna do
when they come for you?
Breakout
give and take
bend and break
sweat and shake
sleep awake
what are you gonna do
when the sun comes down?
Breakout
taste that smell
crack that shell
time will tell
wishing well
What are you gonna do
when your dreams come true?
Breakout
leap that wall
jump or fall
heed that call
standing tall
What are you gonna do
when you hit that ground?
Breakout
658
I don’t mind
**************
the bottle is open
the bottle is empty
the battle is over
but I’m still tempted
redemption
the brick’s right there
and the circle is square
and I don’t mind
‘cause I don’t care
the door is open
the room is empty
the wires touch
but they’re disconnected
correction
the brick’s right there
and the circle is square
and I don’t mind
go ahead and stare
the casket is open
the coffin is empty
the knees are bent
and the fee’s collected
rejection
the brick’s right there
and the circle is square
and I don’t mind
I’ve got time to spare
659
Can Do
*********
can’t hear the music for the noise in
my head
can’t see the reason for those toys
I’ve been mislead
can’t feel my heart beat but my soul’s
on fire
can’t taste the sweet meat I’m a bird
on a wire
can’t won’t don’t
will can do
forget the pain
can’t kiss the twilight or the moon or
the sun
can’t stop the race I’ve started once
it’s begun
caught in the headlights like a deer
on the run
can’t help the feeling that this might
be the one
can’t won’t don’t
will can do
walk in the rain
can’t feel the spotlight I’m lost upon
the stage
can’t fall in love tonight I’m all
disengaged
can’t fill that god shaped hole I’m
stuck inside the fence
can’t make you honey and I can’t make
sense
can’t won’t don’t
will can do
over again
660
super size
*********
elephant irrelevant
you’re super sized
devastate you elevate
those great big lies
but all those great bigs lies are true
to all those who depend on you
you drive it in and turn the screw
you hypnotize
Heavyweight recalibrate
your hate machine
I don’t know or care
if you know what I mean
All is fair in love and war
I guess you’ve heard it all before
all you need is to know the score
and make the scene
orange juice from concentrate
you had to try
contemplate your lover’s fate
she had to die
a mouse underfoot and you squeak by
and I just stand here asking why
all I’ve left to do is is cry
say goodbye
661
different degrees
**************
concious superconcious
subconcious unconcious
taking over
science super science
high finance unbridled
taking over
sonic supersonic
subsonic catatonic
taking over
human superhuman
subhuman abusing
taking over
662
A lesson
********
I can’t get it out of my head
That’s why I’m going out of my head
There’s only room in here for one
and let me tell you it’s no fun
I can’t get it out of my eyes
this vision that I despise
I’d claw the eyes out of my head
I’d rather drink myself to death
instead
I can’t get it off of my hands
the blood of this innocent bairn
the murderous deed is done
but the pain has just begun
I can’t get it out of my lungs
this scream remains unsung
something I don’t understand
a lesson for less than a man
663
NAILED
***************
It’s all so gratifying
watching you cry
seeing those useless tears
stream down your face
I love to see you cry
I love to make you cry
I don’t love you
I don’t need your love
I’m above you
I inflict the wound you’re dying of
I don’t want you
I don’t need your love
you get nailed
to the tree when push comes to shove
It’s all so satisfying
listening to you
beg for mercy
eternal damnation
forgiveness release
knowing full well
the pain will never cease
I don’t love you
I don’t need your love
I’m above you
I inflict the wound you’re dying of
I don’t want you
I don’t need your love
you get nailed
to the tree when push comes to shove
664
The Beast
***********
Give me back
my happiness
my emptiness
my loneliness
my sorrow
my anger
my fear
Give me back
my ugliness
my wastedness
my drunkeness
my horror
my violence
my tears
In this boat without a steering wheel
I no longer know how to feel
lost in unknown territory it
holds this holy terror for me
Give me my stupidity
Invalid invalidity
Misery
self pity
and pain
Give me my insanity
my vanity inanity
calamity
god damn it
give me back
the me I know
retsilb
665
A Love Story [sort of]
*******************
pins & needles
pins & needles
numb & dumb
it’s a hum drum
conundrum
It’s a love story
hammers & nails
hammers & nails
snakes & snails
pieces of tail
it’s weak and pale
It’s a love story
purple & orange
silver & gold
the story’s told
it’s getting old
dead & cold
It’s a love story
[sort of]
666
Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!
Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!
Devil Dog’s got my Aunt Jemima
Devil Dogs got my Little Debbie
Devil Dog’s got my Suzie Q
Devil Dog’s got my Betty Crocker
Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!
Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!
M & M baby Chocolate glistens
in my hand band stand better listen
M & M baby peanut candy
Reeses Pieces Hershey’s kisses
Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!
Help! Ring Dings rolling over me!
And my twinkie’s bigger
than the green Giant’s pinky
when the sun goes down
667
blast
*************
Why?
Why do I lie?
Why O why
Do I feel this way?
Mud underfoot
Baggage in hand
Misunderstood
Head in the sand
Sinking
I
Try try to find
Way away
A way to get away
Feet in concrete
Wrapped in rubber bands
Sleeping on the street
Do the best I can
Drinking
Cry
cry yourself to sleep
keep away
stay no keep away
668
Ah the senseless glorification of the
unnecessary...
Needless Things
************************
Just a little bit
not too much but just enough
to getcha feeling kinda tough
over come warm & numb
it’s ok I can quit anytime
I need to get the cure
for the pain that it brings
at least I’m sure it’s pure
that is I think that it’s the real
thing
Just a little more
I’m going down town to score
here’s the local drug store
wait in line I’ll be fine
I can still quit anytime
I need to get the cure
for the hatred that it brings
at least I’m sure it’s pure
that is I think that it’s the real
thing
Just a little sick
I know what we’ll do the trick
grab a quick lick and stick
just a dime’s worth of crime
and I still quit everytime
I need to get the cure
for the sorrow that it brings
at least I’m sure it’s pure
that is I think that it’s the real
thing
tomorrow never comes
tomorrow never comes
tomorrow never comes
tomorrow never comes
669
I came rolling in
early this morning
you’d been waiting up
I didn’t have any warning
It’s been a long time coming
been a long time gone
You were breaking the news
that I was moving on
There are so many things I want to say
to you
There are so many dreams I’ve had
There are so many dreams that came
true with you
I never thought it would get this
bad
It’s getting way too hard
to try and write this down
The palace of peace
becomes a battleground
I never wanted to hurt you
cause you undue distress
I’m sorry I left you alone
cold and emptiness
There are so many things I want to say
to you
There are so many dreams I’ve had
There are so many dreams that came
true with you
I never thought it would get this
bad
670
No Reply
**************
mind’s to make up
love’s to break up
and I can’t take this
anymore
things to take back
and boxes to pack
memories stacked by
the door
This mountain’s just too high for us
and we can’t get around
The palace of peace so sweetly built
has now become a battleground
with nothing left to say and no reply
Tapes & Cds
between you and me
we must be
getting old
what’s yours or mine
a once divine
state of mind
grown cold
This mountain’s just too high for us
and we can’t get around
The palace of peace so sweetly built
has now become a battleground
with nothing left to say and no reply
671
an hour or two
==========
Coffee in my ever present coffee mug
me in front of my ever present
computer screen
I left it at 5 pm last night
At 9 a.m. this morning it feels like I
never left
in fact it feels like I never leave
here at all
I’ve been here 6 years 2 months 2 weeks 2 days and 2 hours now
feels like forever but it doesn’t much
matter
because I never leave
I just go outside every now and then
for a minute or an hour or three
to get some alcohol
hangover my other constant companion
day and night
putting one on
or sleeping one off
for an hour or two or three
I’m wearing one now like a crown that
fits too tightly
but hey I made it back here
to sit in front of my ever present
computer screen
with my ever present coffee mug
think I’ll go have a smoke
that’ll help
for a minute or an hour or three
672
a little empty
**********
knock knock no one there
an empty footstep on the stair
and I don’t mind ‘cause I don’t care
not bitter cold or lonely
just a little empty
ring ring phone call
But I don’t pick it up at all
on the floor and off the wall
not home when you phone me
just a little empty
heigh ho no one here
stay inside my room for years
sleepless now and no more tears
I packed me up and sold me
just a little empty
673
cut off my arm again last night
hurts like a motherfucker
blood everywhere
can’t seem to stop doing it
shit happens
one more dumb mistake
like cutting myself shaving
only more so
I hate it when I do that
Blister
674
dope
********
Spin control
Surrender
Get a grip
and lose it
freak on a bender
frog in a blender
head hung
on a pole
lack of all
restraint
get a gun
and use it
blood on the floor
love out the door
damage maintainance
customer complaint
completely
off the ball
heaven’s gate
in hell
might as well
go through it
naked unsheltered
overload sweltering
heart of a whore
and a head like a hole
soul for sale
to sell
675
2000
**************
bombs bombs
everywhere
but nary a gun to shoot
my computer
packs a punch
but I don’t give a hoot
everything goes boom at once
kabam kapow kaput
new sublime paradigm
for a military coot
hee hee haha hoho says he
another horn to toot
another infant’s skull to crush
beneath my bovver boot
[whatever, whenever, who cares?]
676
release me
*****************
wrapped up in chains of reason
tied down with ropes of gold
another guest at your bloody feast
release me
trapped inside a cage of comfort
strapped onto destiny
another stab at a friendly beast
release me
a fly stuck in your vasoline love
a fish caught on your silver hook
another man just begging please
release me
a simile to imply I’m lonely
another meaningless metaphor
another whore for ya oiled and greased
release me
677
release me II
*****************
wrapped up in ropes of reason
shackled in chains of gold
I’m getting old but I’ll die at least
release me
trapped in this cage of comfort
strapped on to destiny
I might be dumb but I’m not a beast
release me
a fly stuck in your vasoline love
a fish caught on your silver hook
another man just begging please
release me
a simile to imply I’m lonely
another meaningless metaphor
another whore for ya oiled and greased
release me
678
release me III
*****************
wrapped up in ropes of reason
shackled in chains of gold
I’m getting old but I’ll die at least
release me
trapped in this cage of comfort
strapped on to destiny
I might be dumb but I’m not a beast
release me
a fly stuck in your vasoline love
a fish caught on your silver hook
took a look just begging please
release me
a simile to imply I’m lonely
another meaningless metaphor
another whore for ya oiled and greased
release me
679
Lips & Assholes
***************
I don’t need to drink
to have a good time
I need to drink
to quiet the voices in my head
I used to love you
but now I think
You’re an asshole
I don’t want to see you anymore
I have a dinner date
I don’t want
with someone
I don’t even like
just to get on with my life
just to get back at you
I had to tell you about it
just so it would hurt
does it hurt?
I hope it hurts
No actually
I couldn’t care less
you’re an asshole
I used to love you
but now
I have
to kill you
you bastard
you betrayed me
you used me
I want my
fucking records
back
nice lips
hey thanks
it’s been great
nice to see you again
old friend
be sure to keep
in touch now
y’hear?
680
the way it used to be
*****************
cold and bitter
worthless words
thrown in anger
hardly heard
a strike for you
a strike for me
a trusted friend
an enemy
and I just want it
to be like
the way it used to be
sticks and stones
and broken bones
aching hearts
in battle zones
anger lust
and envy
with just a hint
of
jealousy
when I just want it
to be like
the way it used to be
puppy dogs
and children’s toys
we love the things
that we destroy
sweet words that
could comfort me
you say will never
come for me
but I just want it
to be like
the way it used to be
681
freedom’s just another word for
nothing left to lose
freedom’s just another word
free free
set them free
free for you
free for me
a monkey in the apple tree
a missile on a bombing spree
battlements and towers tall
free to have a free for all
push those buttons
one two three
we’ll set everybody free
everyone knows
you get what you pay for
everyone knows
and loves our war whore
money’s tight
nothing’s free
free nothing!
get your free nothing here!
free nothing!
geet you free nothing here!
Free nothing
zilch
682
Violent death has entertainment value.
OOOO! Gay designer murdered by gay
psycho serial killer.
DETAILS! WE WANT THE GORY DETAILS!!
Was he sexually assaulted before he
was killed?
Was he? Hunh? Was he?
[drool drool pant pant]
Did Jon Benet’s mommy and daddy kill
her? Can we see the pictures?
MURDER! RAPE! VIOLENCE! BOMBS!
BULLETS!
[stay in your homes and watch it on
tv. don’t go out it’s dangerous]
[shop from home, work from home, stay
in your hole]
Some folks’ll do anything to be in the
headlines, eh Clarice?
You’ve gotta kill or be killed to get
any notoriety in THIS buisness.
Violent death has entertainment value.
Funny how those people get their real
fifteen minutes of fame because
of the way they died. Violently. They
are forgotten tomorrow.
Replaced by a new set of killers and
victims.
DEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEAD
nonetheless, they are still dead.
That’s life.
Blister
683
...and for more great fashion
commentary...
www.alt.binaries.deadfashionfigures.com
www.alt.binaries.homoserialkillers.com
and my personal fave...
www.alt.binaries.deadguysIcouldntgivelessofashitaboutifItried.com
and now for an admittedly crass [or
joyfully irreverent] poem:
There once was a man named Gianni
who made clothes and liked it in the
fanny
he got offed by a nut
who liked it in the butt
just a serial killer named Andy
[no relation]
Stop that! Stop it! You ought to be
ashamed!
Bad Blister! Bad!
Sorry about that folks. He gets out of
hand once in a while.
Whoop!
See ya.
684
I got a beer belly
but I used to be thin
I got wiped out
when she let me in
I got baptised
to a life a sin
It’s all over now
so it’s time to begin
[la la la lala la ]
living
I got a good deal
so I go get high
I got a get real
so I got t’ cry
I got a good job
so I get by
I got no motivation
but I got to try
[la la la lala la ]
living
685
I’m so happy
***********
I drink my rage
just to drown my sorrows
I kill the pain but it
comes back tomorrow
I hate my parents
and love my sadness
I can’t let it go ‘cause it
feeds my madness
chorus*
yay yay yay
going home
yay yay yay
going home
yay yay
going
I’m so happy
home
yay yay
going home
yay yay yay
going home
yay yay
going home
yay
I choke on the air
but the smoke still lingers
I rip out my hair
and I eat my fingers
I hate my family
‘cause they’re all liars
I feed those flames and then I
throw it on the fire
chorus
I’ve got this fucking
great idea
I’d just love for you
all to know
I’d like to get them all
right here
laugh and tell them what
to blow
me don’t want to go
but I’m going
chorus pt II
686
DAGMAR
**********
a meeting
greeting
merci, bonjour
an invitation’s
quick acceptance
anxiousness
desirous
honey lemon
sweetest satan
darling lover
over me
dressed in blue
and yellow sunshine
stiffened nipples
sucking me
soft sensation
warm temptation
dripping down
from wells of salt
thick and hard
liquid slippery
fantasy and
separation
wings of reason
broken off
a butterfly
in white and purple
smooth and supple
overjoy and ecstasy
a hot explosion
overloaded
undergunning
cunning finger
lingering in
twirling swirls
of satisfaction
soul reaction
spasming
and then
an airport
a plane
a farewell
back to Paris
adieu cherie
au revoir
merci
Blister
687
I’ve got a secret and I won’t tell...
************
Insight inside
delight denied
nowhere to hide
this foolish pride
Let go let love
let love let go
It’s light outside
this great divide
our lives collide
but our hearts decide
Let go let love let go
Into the light
No black or white
No longer night
No wrong no right
Let love let go
Let go let love
Go
The end’s in sight
This crazy flight
This dizzy height
Well we just might
let go let love
Let love let go
Let go let love
Go
Blisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssster
688
There’s a guy who bought a company who
controls some of the
last remaining redwood forest. He
plans to "liquidate it" in the next 20 years. When met with public
outcries against this he responded "I believe in the golden rule. He who
has the gold, rules" Fuck him.
Generation F
**************
Mommy and Daddy
spilt milk on the floor
and rolled out the door
tomorrow
twenty first century
crime they’re the slime
we pay for the time
they borrow
and they take it all ‘til
there’s nothing left
just call us generation F
chiefs of state
and industry heads
sell out the dead
and dying
they take our wheat
and leave us the chaff
have a laugh and leave us
crying
and they take it all ‘til
there’s nothing left
just call us generation F
lies and deception
taxes and death
heavy water and
politicians
rape mother earth
what’s it all worth
for a purse and their
possesions
and they take it all ‘til
there’s nothing left
just call us generation F
Blister
Opinions; Like many things,
everybody’s got one.
I’ve never seen a redwood tree in
person and I, for one, would like for
there to be some left to see. Excuse me all over the place.
689
Dildo or Dilbert
***************
Living in a cartoon
my wayward world
a great big day to day joke
syndicated in cynicism
a trendy bender
the best imitation of myself
pretend world
artificial life
manufactured conciousness
jump started and set on autopilot
don’t question don’t think
drink the pain away til it
comes back another day
living in a great big
commercial cartoon
get one now
slices dices julienne fries
don’t answer yet
now how much will you pay?
blister
690
guilty but unrepentant
full of bad intentions
planned out in advance
with full consent of the will
resentful pretentious
consensual connection
taking chances just to
get my fill
I want you
and I want to
and more to the point
I’m going to
sin sweet sin and
satan my sweet satan
stain sweet stain and
pain sweet pain
again and again
Blister
691
all quiet wind whistling through the
halls
invisible blood on the floor
empty desks gathering dust
and office chairs grown cold
noises echoing from the walls
none of them here anymore
gone beyond because they must
futures unpaid for bought and sold
the phones gone silent no one calls
the dollar junkies out to score
bean counter’s financial lust
knows not for whom the gold bell tolls
blister [nearly downsized]
692
Out and Down
************
Such a little baby always got to get
your way
if I could get a boat, a plane, a
train I’d ride away to stay
but I just stick right here with you
even though I know it’s wrong
I know you’d sell me out for a song
I only wanted to say I knew it
held on I tried to stay and I blew it
up inside out and down and over
sideways
up inside out and down
I hate to be a bastard but that’s just
how I was born
every I’s got a needle every rose a
pretty thorn
and I just stick it in you
Like you stuck it to me
Everyone’s who they want to be
I only wanted to say I knew it
held on long as I could and I blew it
up inside out and down and over
sideways
up inside out and down
and I’d sell you out just as quick
as you’d roll out on me
were all sick and tired of this
responsibility
and I see a bad moon rising
the tune is winding down
looking at the stars from the ground
I only wanted to say I knew it
held on long as I could and I blew it
up inside out and down and over
sideways
up inside out and down
693
HASSLE
********
Lucy Sue she’s a real gone gal
more fun than a root canal
so I take a hit
hit the street
got no reason to put up with the
hassle
one dark night I was staying in her
castle
got a little bit good a little bit bad
a little bit angry a little bit sad
got a little bit high a little bit low
ain’t no reason to put up with a
hassle
Joltin Joe at the microphone
he can only do it when he’s stoned
hits the spoon
sings a tune
he don’t want to put up with the
hassle
one more night passed out in Lucy’s
castle
he’s a little bit crashed a little bit
burned
he’s a little bit twisted a little bit
turned
a little bit high a little bit low
and he ain’t going to put up with a
hassle
gets a little bit good a little bit
bad
gets a little bit angry a little bit
sad
a little bit high a little bit low
still no reason to put up with a
hassle
Sara Smiles loves Rickie Lee
but it’s just not like it used to be
he wants it now
she’s asleep
he keep’s on putting up with that same
hassle
Rickie’s moving out of Sara’s castle
she’s a little bit crashed a little
bit burned
she’s a little bit twisted a little
bit turned
a little bit high a little bit low
and he ain’t goin to put up with the
hassle
Blister
694
cyclone ranger
**********
I cut it off you sew it on
Burn it away it’s already gone
This feeling just keeps getting
stranger and stranger
Nailed on the cross you drag me down
I scream but you don’t hear a sound
I’m not afraid even though
I know that I’m in danger
I’m a rearranger
I’m a cyclone ranger [cyclone ranger]
and I feel for her
want to make it real for her
One single kiss you slap my face
This brand new me you just replace
and this feeling just keeps getting
stronger and stronger
Push me away but I pull you in
You keep the faith you keep within
this phone call just keeps
getting
longer and longer
she says I’m all wrong for her
I’m just a cyclone ranger [cyclone
ranger]
I belong to her
I guess I sing this song for her
Solo
So mother please give me a taste
I saved it all but it’s all a waste
and this feeling just keeps getting
harder and harder
All skinned up knees and salty lips
captain crunch and captain trips
and the truth just keeps on
getting
farther and farther
She says are you my father?
I’m a cyclone ranger [cyclone ranger]
bang on that gong for her
and I sang this song for her
I’m just a psych lone ranger
695
Name
************
You think that you’re alright
you think you’re so out of sight
you think you’re in control
you’re on top of the pole
then you trip
and you fall
forget about it all
as you slip out of the light
and into the night
you really love hear the sound
you really think you get around
with your famous name
You think you’re so cool
you know you’re nobody’s fool
you don’t find it hard to sleep
you’re on top of the heap
then you trip
and you fall
forget about it all
as you slip out of the light
you really love hear the sound
you really think you get around
with your famous name
and into the night
696
Another Crash
************
A glass of whiskey
A paris hotel
A fallen princess and her rich lover
Another glass of whiskey
A swarming horde of growling paparazzi
A black Mercedes
A pack of motorcycle dogs
Speedometers pinned
A black tunnel
Swerve
Pole
The sound of screaming metal and
shattering glass
Mixed with screams of terror
Horror replaced by anguish
Blood leaking on the seat
On the floor
Flashbulbs Exploding Everywhere
Crawling like ants on cadaver
Trying to get the final death shot
Eyes wide open
Unbreathing
Coagulated blood on the floor
Sirens
Police
Media
More Media More and More Media
MEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIAMEDIA
Is anyone else tired of the endless
news coverage of this thing?
They’re fucking dead already OK? We
get the picture [no pun
intended]. I really don’t give much of
a shit that Mr. and Miss
Richer than God died this way.
Wouldn’t it have been easier to just
have your picture taken? Fuck she’s not even married anymore.
What’s the fuss all about? It’s great
that she was doing all this nice
stuff for the world and everything,
but why the photographer frenzy? What’s the big deal? I bet when the guy who
survived [if he lives]
will have an interesting story to tell
the tabloids. And I bet he
will be squelched or bought off to
keep his mouth shut. I’m sure the royal
family wants the whole thing over with as quickly and quietly as possible. It seems to me if the driver was
as wasted as they claim the passengers might have declined the ride, no?.
Unless of course they were all tanked. That seems pretty likely, but I bet you
won’t hear much about it. One more meaningless death for your viewing pleasure.
Oh well, whatever, nevermind.
Blister
697
National Expirer [Milk It]
**************
Feed me that blood and guts TV
I love that tradgedy
get me the shot in tight and close
give me a stronger dose
I got no life to speak of
No tenderness or love
Only that warm blue glow
your television show
I need that tabloid news
show me those close up views
fuzzy pictures and empty lies
My god how that shit satisfies
Let’s see the hurt I can feel the pain
and empathize with those famous names
I love that suffering and the way you
cry when you sing
it makes me feel better about being
such a great big fucking nothing
698
Your Famous Name II
*******************
The kids are alright
and you’re out of sight
in control
and you’re on a roll
then you flip and you fall forget
about it all
and slip into the night and out of the
light
they love the way you get around
they really love to hear the sound
of your famous name
It’s nothing new
and everything’s true
you can save the world
in your diamonds and pearls
then you flip and you fall forget
about it all
as you walk into light and out of the
night
they really love the things you do
they just can’t wit to hear about you
and your famous name
a perfect rose
that everyone knows
and you’re so pure
you’re sure to find the cure
before you flip and you fall forget
about it all
as you walk into light and out of the
night
they really love the way you talk
they really love the way you
shock
the way you walk up and down their
block
the way you rock with your famous name
699
Sleep
Ah to sleep
perchance to dream
That lovely state of bliss
wherein the world and it’s troubles
cease to have meaning
warmth and comfort
happiness and joy
to sleep in
and not have to get up
untilyou want to
IF you want to
Ah to sleep
perchance to dream
of didacts and narpats
towers and waterfalls
and naked maidens in distress
wampeters and granfalloons
puppy dogs and red balloons
racing round chasing tails
just for fun
to sleep
Ah to sleep
sleep
perchance...
A tired Blister
700
PERFECT
*********
free and easy
calm and cool
soft and smooth
tried and true
and perfect
you make it perfect
strong and silent
sleek and sexy
sweet and sticky
ripe and ready
and perfect
you make it perfect
hot and heavy
wet and wild
mother and child
meek and mild
and perfect
you make it perfect
701
some that didn’t make it : )
sturm and drang
dry and brittle
sound and fury
dead and buried
soup and salad
ham and cheese
eggs and bacon
lox and bagels
ren and stimpy
sweet and sour
day and night
right and wrong
702
Divine inspiration
***************
Deus Rectum Domine
Cum and pray Ad Hoc
Fellatio and Agnus Dei
Suck the holy cock
Look out everyone, the bonegrinder is
back!
Woo Hoo!
703
Let Me Be
*********
You know I always wanted someone like
you
To do those things I know you know I
need you to
But now once more I guess it’s hit or
miss
a simple curse or a passionate kiss
and you say
let me be the one let be the one
and let me be and let me be and let me
be the one
You know I never have been much good
at this
Don’t know about happiness but I know
about bliss
So now once more I guess it’s do or
die
and I know I can’t do it but I can
try
let you be the one let you be the one
and let you be and let you be and let
you be the one
You know we always wished that we
could be like you
Simply complicated easily amused
So now once more we hit the fence
all dressed up and full of confidence
we can be the ones we can be the ones
we can be we can be we can be the ones
704
Recondemned
***********
I’m a victim
I’m a king
I am nothing
I am everything
I am iron
I am steel
I feel nothing
but is that all I feel?
Condemned to Redemption
I’m a killer
I’m a clown
I am filler
I am down
I am jello
I am lead
I look alive
but I feel so dead
Condemned to Redemption
I’m a blister
I’m a boil
I am sadness
I am soiled
I am bliss
I am empty
I resist
but I’m so tempted
Condemned to Redemption
Blister
705
Over It
*******
I can’t eat
and I can’t sleep
don’t think
I can keep it up
choking down
what empty brings
drink to forget
that I know everything
I can’t get over it
get over it
I can’t sob
and I can’t sing
can’t find my voice
I ripped my wings
tripping out and
falling down
a clown who
wants to be a king
I can’t get over it
get over it
I can’t stop
what I can’t start
apart from that
hey I’m OK
just stay behind
this heart of gold
oh by the way
it’s getting old
I can’t get over it
get over it
Blister
706
Make The Break
********************
One day I broke the rules
just because I could
I took the right to choose
by the way it felt so good
my neck slipped the lead
the knot betrayed the noose
for now the weak shall feed
because the beast is on the loose
and we get
down d
down d
down d
down down
down d
down d
down d
down
down d
down d
down d
down down
down
and Make The Break
had to cross the line
to get that precious fruit
I’m not afraid of dying
so I point the gun and shoot
and as the evening fades
the sun’s begun to set
for an end is a beginning
because I take what I can get
and I get
down d
down d
down d
down down
down d
down d
down d
down
down d
down d
down d
down down
down
and Make The Break
Blister [Broken]
707
A True Story
**********
Late at night
a little buzzed and gettin cold
time to take in the A.C.
And squeeze that breeze
Slide the panel aside
Get a good grip
[a real good one now...]
open the window a crack
annnnnnnnnd......
WHOOPS!!
out it goes.
I grab for the cord and GET IT!
JUST IN TIME!
Now the deadly pendulum
swings to and fro
a good seven feet
above my neighbor’s
brand new $20,000 Land Rover
I heave with all my might
and get a very tenuous grip on it
If I let go of the cord to grab it and
pull it in it’s gonna be gone Perhaps now would be a good time to get some assistance!
DAVE!!!!!!!!
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAVVVVVVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A good 2 or 3 minutes of solid
screaming
It wakes up my neighbor instead
He comes out side and sees me
his eyes bug out like roger rabbit
Ah
WOOOOOOOOO
gah!
I take the opportunity to be glib
Excuse me...could you ring the door
bell
and get my room mate’s attention
please?
Before I drop this hundred something
pound box
on your new $20,000 car?
The door bell rings
I hear a little light converstation
In walks Dave calmly
"Hey. What’s up?"
HEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Together we managed to get it in out
of the window
I fell on the floor and laughed til I
cried.
The End
Incidentally, somehow my third room
mate Seth managed to sleep through the whole thing, yet I woke up most of the
rest of the neighbor hood
The Moral: When installing or
uninstalling air conditioners, it’s
wise to get some help. Just a little
friendly advice from a guy who nearly
got yanked out of his window mostly naked to land on the air conditioner that just landed on his neighbors
$20,000 Land Rover.
A bruised Blister
708
It’s not spot remover Sparkey,
it’s like licking honey
off the wings of a butterfly.
............................................
a sexy look a passing glance
the smile on her face
apparently she liked the way
I play acoustic bass
I smiled back and took a break
to have a drink and change
the way she looked and spoke and
smoked
a phone number exchange
another day a date a drink
a foot massage I rubbed
I didn’t quite know what to think
when she dragged me to the rug
so if you want to stay she said
tonight it’s no big deal
there’s lots of room upstairs in bed
I’d like to make you real
elfin face with eyes of blue
and golden hair surprise
whispy wonder willow tree
in photograph disguise
liquid passion firey grace
an angel on the wing
sweetest lips and salty lace
in lust for everything
with skin so hot and flesh all
wet
the spark turned to a flame
the fire bred and fed with sweat
a beast that can’t be tamed
so now it runs both wild and free
each day a brand new dawn
and we see what we want to see
and so we carry on
Blister
709
PostIt
*****
If I only had a PostIt I’d stick it to
my forehead
in efforts to remind me to not be such
an asshole
If I only had a PostIt I’d write these
words of wisdom
you lose some and you win some end
some and begin some
If I only had a PostIt to communicate
my feelings
"I hate you and I’m leaving"
you’re acting like an asshole
If I only had a PostIt a note to
reinforce and
describe another course on and not be
such a moron
If I only had a PostIt I surely make
the most of it
I’d write a little toast on it and
leave it in the ashtray
to burn like all my bridges my ruffles
and my ridges
my nameless empty poems left naked and
alone
If I only had a PostIt...
Blister
710
Fuck Conventional Wisdom
**********************
judgemental jury
convicts on the evidence
of their narrow experience
devoid of the facts
the moral chorale
devilishly clever
damnation forever
for those who won’t bend
the social commitee
for acceptable mores
draws snores from the audience
and drowns in self pity
minions of opinion
hand down a sentence
of true unrepentance
in the form of a fool
Fuck Conventional Wisdom
Blister
711
ASS
****
this guy I know he had a plan
a man and his formula won
he can’t but he can’t understand it
so he reaches down and pulls out his
gun
Ritchie itchy trigger finger
blow up doll can’t wait to blow up
stitched up scratched up mother sucker
show down man don’t wanna show up
Alcoholic Schizophrenic Suicide
Pride Envy Lust Degeneration
It’s our generation
his woman once she had a man
unraveled came completely undone
she can’t and she can’t understand him
he’s overloaded she’s overwhelmed
Master Blaster honey gunner
stick up man don’t wanna suck up
stitched up scratched up super nova
step down doll can’t wait to step up
Alcoholic Schizophrenic Suicide
Pride Envy Lust Degeneration
It’s our generation
712
It’s all over now [I guess]
********************
Looking ‘round for an answer
Cancer lurks in the sweetest of buds
mud and vaseline covers me
we lie alone in the fields like the
dead
Could be I’ve been mistaken
Could be I’ve been that way all along
Could it be I’ve been taken?
Could be that I’m in the wrong song?
It’s all
It’s all over
It’s all over me
now
Tripping out on a daisy
Lazy susan’s out jumping the gun
wonders which way the wind blows
knows no more crying her eyes full of
red
Could be I’ve been mistaken
Could be I’ve been that way all along
Could it be I’ve been taken?
Could be that I’m in the wrong song?
It’s all
It’s all over
It’s all over me
now
It’s all
It’s all over
It’s all over me
now
Repeat 1st verse, prechorus, and
chorus simultaneously in harmony.
Then they’ll think we’re all faggots
and they won’t take any of us.
Blister
713
Freeloader
*********
I’ve got an unwelcome house guest
don’t want him there but he stays on
anyway
the homeless friend of my roommate
you try to be nice there you go that’s
the price you pay
sitting in the rain on my doorstep
waiting for a handout when I came home
one day
my room mate hadn’t come home yet
get fuckin lost would’ve been the
right thing to say
now I’m stuck with this big stupid
asshole
drinks my beer begs my smokes watches
TV all day
I now know I should never have let him
in
one night turns into a one year stay
I didn’t want to be the one to ask him
to leave
I guess I’ll just have to change the
locks anyway
The cops told him "If we see you
on the street again
you’re going back to jail." I
didn’t want to see anyone going to jail
for no reason. Now I’m stuck with this
freak for the season.
*sigh* No good deed ever goes
unpunished.
Blister
Oh, what the hell.
714
Talk Show
*********
I fell in love one day with a band I
used to hate
I used to think that they could only
imitate
I never thought that they would
innovate
I finally learned to love the sound
that they create
[maybe just ‘cause the radio filled my
head]
there’s only one thing see
that kinda worries me
the singer is a junkie like so many
before
[they always seem end up dead]
why do the artist types
buy into all the hype?
can’t wait to do the drugs they score
[at least I heard that’s what they
said]
three albums later now
a detox jail and a big cash cow
the band broke up cause he can’t hang
[dirty boy unclean]
they got another voice it was a lousy
choice
I really hate the way he sang
I wish the band crashed with a bang
[you know what I mean]
so now they limp along sing their wimpy songs
all the feeling’s suddenly gone
and now the junkie man islooking for a
band
just trying to keep on keeping on
now all the names have changed and
royalties exchanged
but where’s the music gone?
but where’s the music gone?
Where’d the music go?
Out on some stupid Talk Show
Blister
715
Thirsty
*******
Just another day
I don’t know what to say
One more simple rhyme
To help me kill the time
My pen goes to the page
I try and vent my rage
It never seems to work
I guess I’m just a jerk
I’d write a song but takes too long
Besides it always comes out wrong
A letter or a curse
I’m feeling better
but getting worse
I’m always thirsty
Always thirsty
Thirsty
and I’m thinking about drinking
It seems like such a drag
Choking on this gag
What can it all mean?
I’m all done making a scene
That’s all right with me
You see what you want to see
And I don’t really care
It’s so much wind and stale hot air
And it makes me thirsty
I’m thirsty
Thirsty
and I’m thinking about drinking
I’d sing a song but it takes too long
and it keeps coming out all wrong
A chorus and a verse
I’m feeling better
but getting worse
I’m always thirsty
Always thirsty
Thirsty
and I’m thinking about drinking
716
Twister
*******
beg borrow and steal me
I don’t mind too much
it’s not the real me anyway
come in close you can feel me
It won’t hurt too much
it feels good in the same old way
what’s the story mourning angel?
those tears of ice could melt the
hardest of hearts
you made it with a psych lone
ranger
now he tears you apart
Twister
hold my hand you can heal me
I need your touch
just to fix me everyday
you go bananas and peel me
off your couch
you’re in love and I’m in the way
what’s the story mourning angel?
those tears of ice could melt the
hardest of hearts
you made it with a psych lone ranger
now he tears you apart
Twister
Blister
717
St. Christopher on the half shell
**************************
time in tide
a boring whore
april wine
on august shores
of tinsel towns
and tin pan grave
and jesus saves
his jesus slaves
a theme park dream
and demon seed
frightened screams
and madness freed
motion dark
and dreary gone
pitch fork peace
and carrion
at devil’s gate
he satiates
with evils great
he medicates
while laughing
bhudda meditates
on birds awing
and everything
and random eyes
with silky hair
chained to melting
iron chairs
the dog eared beasts
at mighty feasts
turns heads to gold
in battle zones
and crucify
the christian drones
to pacify the queen
but buried soon
a martyr’s tomb
of dank and cold
eternal gloom
for a slice of life
a piece of pie
to dwell in hell
high in the sky
in infamy
and blasphemy
Blister
718
Wrong
******
I sit alone at the station
a broken killer just
looking for one free ride
starting to grow impatient
tastes great less filling I
can’t wait to get outside
tell me a story
sing me a song
which way to your mourning glory?
where did you go wrong?
where did it all go wrong?
I stare at the sun
overcome undone
the battle’s begun
I’m under the gun
I got a good education
a silly fool standing
out in the pouring rain
a simple sweet deviation
by the pool I was
drowning in sane
tell me a story
sing me a song
which way to your mourning glory?
where did you go wrong?
where did it all go wrong?
wind up and unwind
busted and fined
Deaf dumb and blind
and out of my mind
Blister
719
Strange wounds
**************
I reached into the tool box
to pull me out a hand tool
foolishly found a razor blade
carelessly left open
gashed open
the tip of my first finger
straight in nice and deep
blood everywhere
spurting
shouting out curses
hurt like hell
but worse
in ten minutes
I had to play a four hour concert
got out the bandages
and wrapped it like a mummy
giant throbbing digit
I went on with the show
bleeding on my bass neck
every note agony
tears on my cheeks
the things we do for love
of money and of art
shock my bleeding heart
strange
I look at it today
and can’t believe I did it
in such pain
I can’t imagine
how I’ll make myself
get up and play tonight
knowing what it will feel like
but I will
Bloody Blister
720
Circle
*****
an timeless love a far off friend
coming back around again
waiting here for something undefined
summer comes and winter goes
I see her taking off her clothes
naked in the mirror of my mind
She’s not around
circle around
head in the clouds
feet on the ground
She’s not around
circle around
it gets me down
circle around
She’s just around
the corner
circle ‘round
lost in time but she returns
looking fine desire burns
deep within mysoul she’s on my
side
far out on an endless sea
she comes sailing back to me
to carry me away out with the tide
She’s not around
circle around
head in the clouds
feet on the ground
She’s not around
circle around
it gets me down
circle around
She’s just around
the corner
circle ‘round
A Missing Blister
721
Empty Evening
*************
fast forward porn
a late night alone
plain unadorned
unringing telephone
Stupid TV
cold glass of wine
an angry sea
of wasted time
wish I was done
au revoir salut fini
beneath a dying sun
unfolding into me
broken dreams aflame
an old remembered fling
a game without a name
when the telephone rings
there’s someone out there
who’s not showing up
I read it and weep
and finish the cup
Blister
722
Dry as a bone
asleep everyday
telephone ring
drifts me away
I guess I’m alone
but that’s O.K.
they say the game’s fun
but I don’t wanna play
Leave me alone
Go away
A poet without
nothin to say
I’ve nothing within
and don’t care anyway
A v
ictim of youth
the truth’s on holiday
I love my gun
I shoot it everyday
Leave me alone
Go away
723
Eye
***
Now I’m part of the machine
I’m afraid
I don’t know
I don’t understand
Deep shit I don’t know what it means
I can see
I don’t care
I don’t understand
Now I’m a piece of broken dreams
It’s obscene
but I’m clean
down in
I keep on thinking that it seems
like I feel
like I’m superman
I can see
I don’t know
I don’t care
I don’t understand
I’ve got to take it to extremes
I can’t sleep
I’m in deep with the contraband
on the scene
she’s the queen
of the sleeping damned
in the promised land
I can see
I don’t know
I don’t care
I don’t understand
Blister
724
Life
****
Possibility
Change
Poetential
Philosophy
Dog
Comprehension
Decision
Difference
Similarity
Clarity
Disparity
Conclusion
Delusion
Completed
Deleted
725
Sin
***
deep thoughts and shallow hearts
gone insane and torn apart
wide eyed
inside
come plain
in vain
Sin
Depression
Confession
Forgivness
Redemtion
Ascension
head set phoneline
un-met deadlines
burn out
turn out
descend
the end
Sin
Depression
Confession
Forgivness
Redemtion
Ascension
726
It’s just a game
for your famous name
a fresh freeze frame
I think it’s lame
it makes me numb
and I feel dumb
a little crumb
and it’s cumbersome
I don’t want to think about it now
Clueless
and endless line
that ends in rhyme
no thanks I’m fine
some other time
um...
I guess it’s over
what is more
and moreover
I don’t want to think about it now
Clueless
blister
727
Moving packing flying leaving
For that warmer spot out west.
To be gone before the first snowfall
hits
Shaving suiting interviewing
Landed a new job to test.
I’m going away soon before the first
snowfall hits.
Beaches palm trees bathing suits
sunning and reading while I rest.
I’ll
be thinking of you
when I hear on the news
that that first snowfall has hit.
-Todd Hagar
728
hate the cold
blubber wrapped
fur whisker
shiver me timber
icicle thong
snow sleet hail pain
freezing and miserable
suffering in silent scream
awaiting springtime
to thaw again
and deliver me
from this awful impending hell
known as winter
ah, for a warm sunny spot
to lie in and snooze
comfy and warm
the ocean wrapping my toes
in warm abandon
time
to move
to barbadter
729
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730
HI all.
I just realized this is my second
halloween post on bobshoe. It's
actually been thirteen months since my
first post. So thank you all
for listening. It's been a hell of a
year and I managed to write 194
poems on this list. I'm pretty happy
about that. So anyway, happy
halloween.
Helloween
********
spooks and goblins on my streeet
but I shall have no fear
of got my hell shoes on my feet
my fists are ringed with tears
my eyes are bleeding slightly
to the corners of my mouth
the killings happen nightly
the vampire is out
Happy happy happy
Helloween
Frankenstein and heineken
wolfman's full of beer
the mummy's wrapped in EZ wider
the spider's creeping near
my eyes are bleeding slightly
to the corners of my mouth
the killings happen nightly
the vampire is out
Happy happy happy
Helloween
-blister
731
Sister Anesthesia
Thumbelina
Tumbling
Couldn't stand
Picture perfect
Wants to make it
Wants to make it big
Too
Too big
She's sister Anesthesia
Surprise surprise
Survive alive
all foolish pride
her heart decides
She's sister Anesthesia
Mother Mary
Crumbling
Hard to fall
into pieces
wants to fill
wants to fill her big
Shoes
they're too big
for sister Anesthesia
Surprise surprise
Survive alive
all foolish pride
her heart decides
She's sister Anesthesia
Dumb becoming dumber
Numb becomes number
over done and slumbering
out gunned and cumbersome
she's my sister
Sister Anesthesia
-Blister
732
HIT
Hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hit you
Hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna
have to make you cry
Hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hurt you
733
Hit
***
Hello boys and girls
Turn on the radio
Listen well
It'll bring tears to your ears
Our brand new invader
tuned in stereo
Hellified sensation
numbs your fears
Hit don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hear you
Hit don't wanna
have to make you cry
Hit don't wanna hit
Don't wanna show you
Hit don't wanna hit
So go get high
Hello one and all
Hook up your satellite
Strapped in two
your chair we're on the air
multi pan injection
in your cortex
We can hear you scream
but we don't care
Hit it
Hit don't wanna hit
Don't wanna hear you
Hit don't wanna
have to make you cry
Hit don't wanna hit
Don't wanna show you
Hit don't wanna hit
So go get high
Hit it
-Blister
734
whatever
*******
Doing all I can
is that enough for me?
is it enough for you
or do you care?
it's all a lie in jest
it's simple destiny
or is it just a
question in the air?
Lost in tempest tossed
crossed that final line
whine about the cost
yeah well OK, fine
whatever
I know that soft caress
feels more like less to me
I think I might be
falling out of grace
when I feel my worst
it gets the best of me
I feel right at home
when out of place
Lost in tempest tossed
crossed that final line
whine about the cost
yeah well OK, fine
whatever
-blister
735
Y N B
******
Searching for what I've never seen
I think you might know what I mean
An angel and a queen
So young and beautiful
Young and beautiful
I don't know who or what you are
a supernova star
But I want you to know
I think you are
So young and beautiful
Young and beautiful
It feels like I looked everywhere
But you were never ever there
I found you out at sea
I never knew that you could be
So young and beautiful
Young and beautiful
736
Poetry *sigh* where have you gone?
You know, I bet a lot of people are
going to be let down if the
worlds ends in 1998. Think of all the
gen x-ers who want to party
like it's 1999? Then there's all those
people who think the world
will end at
millenium doesn't start 'til
those poor people will be so
surprised. Myself I think I'd be kinda
relieved but that's beside the point.
See I'm figuring that no just
and loving GOD would damn his child to
eternal suffering with out a
damn good reason, so I have a good
chance at heaven. By and
large I'm a nice fella. I haven't
killed anyone or developed any
weapons of mass destruction. I bet he
hates it when they do that.
Imagine?
"I damn thee! It took me six days
to make this thing and
you two just cooked two thirds of it
in thirty seconds! Bad! Bad
Saddam! Two eons in the clink for you!
And you Clinton! Who made
you world cop? Two centuries in the
corner and put on this dunce
cap! Jesus what a mess! Hunh? Oh,
sorry, I didn't mean you son.
Now what am I going to do with all
these buddists and taoists and
such. All you folks on the left go
through that door into limbo.
What's with all the complaining? You
wanted to get out of yourself.
Besides you weren't baptised in my
name. What, what?!? I'm supposed
to tell you what to do? No, no, no,
this is a game of chance and you
lose. *ring ring* Hello? Oh! Lucifer,
nice to hear from you! How's it
going bud? You busy down there? Oh
yeah I imagine so what with all
those lawyers, politicians, right wing
militant whakos. So what's
your biggest turn out? Music critics?
Really? Well I can't say I'm
surprised. Anyway, I gotta go. Gotta
get busy cleaning up the
world for the cockroaches. Happy
brimstone bud. Oh and say hi to Bill
Gates for me, will you? Tell him my
Mac is running great. Bye!"
Ich Bin Maroon!
-Blister
737
Forget
******
Sometimes I wonder
How it all happened
How did I get here
And where am I going?
Why do I bother?
Then I remember
I forget
Got scratches on my arms
And all down my back
In a breathless attack
By a beautiful girl
She just couldn't wait for me
To remember
I forget
Chewing on my nails
I'm hungry and able
A little bit unstable
May be I'm going crazy
I just can't wait
To remember
I forget
So my lover's out at sea
My head is in the sand
While a woman holds my hand
While I'm still a young man
I only hope to remember
I forget
-Blister
738
J.C.S.
*****
Happy holidays!
get one now!
slices dices julienne fries!
heat up your little one's
christmas eyes!
at the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)
It's barely thanksgiving
so it's time to give thanks
to all of the money
you've got in the bank
you'll spend it all happily
on gifts and what's more
you'll do it all here
at the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)
Crochet for mommy
croquet for dad
a coal lump for Johnny
'cause he's been bad
a dildo for Sissy
she knows what it's for
we raped her right here
at the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)
So bring all you babies
your toddlers and tykes
we'll fry them up nicely
and serve them up right
we're Disney magicians
for the corporate whore
merry christmas to all
from the Jesus Christ Superstore (tm)
-Blister
P.S. Fuck commercialism, Fuck the
holidays, Fuck Jesus and any
and all other religious figurines,
Fuck life after death, Fuck
doomsday, and most of all, Fuck this.
739
I woke up this morning
you were leaving for work
I said goodbye I love you
and you said OK see ya
yeah OK whatever
OK FINE WHATEVER
I guess it hurt my feelings
but I don't know why
I let you make me cry
I know I should know better
yeah OK whatever
OK FINE WHATEVER
I guess it doesn't matter
I'm not your little puppy
I'm not your little pet
In case you should forget
I used to be your lover
yeah OK whatever
OK FINE WHATEVER
You used to make me happy
and we used to get along
but I guess that I was wrong
so now the story's over
yeah OK whatever
OK FINE WHATEVER
I guess it doesn't matter
-Blister
740
Subject:
Re: ...on another topic
And the big question in my mind is
[drum roll please...]
What does the bumper sticker say????
And since we seem to be suspending
poetry for the moment...
Regarding violence in general, I think
as animals we are inherently
violent. We were hunters first and
foremost. The natural
instinct to kill and eat is as strong
as ever, but frustrated by
burger king and supermarkets. Even
people who hunt do so mostly with
big guns or bow and arrow. But how
many of us know what it feels like
to physically [like with a club] bash
a living thing into a dead
bloody pulp and howl in victory? How
many people choose to do
violence in a variety of other
interesting ways because of the
supression of that urge? I think we're
hypocritical in our approach
to violence. It's not OK to go cut the
throat of the motherfucker who
just raped your wife, but it's OK to
drop weapons of mass destruction
on innocent civilians. BUT, only for
us, not for anyone else. The
bottom line is they're gonna kill the
unabomber [most likely] in
revenge [not justice] for the people
he killed, as well to teach a
lesson to the rest of us not to step
out of line. It's OK for big
brother, but not for us. I didn't read
the manifesto and probably
won't because how right can he be? After
all, he got caught. George
Carlin had a good suggestion: One
legal murder per month per person.
No fair saving 'em up and going on a
shooting spree at McDonald's
once a year. You don't use it, you
lose it. Every now and then though
some asshole deserves to be offed and
you should be able to do it.
Likewise, if those people who love him
come after you for it the next
month, so be it. And if they don't,
who cares? It'd be a little
violent for a while, but I bet you'd
see a marked improvement in our
social condition, as well as a drop in
crime, less crowded prisons,
economy up [gun sales], and who knows
what all? A win / win
situation I say. BTW All comedians are
serial killers.
"Ha ha he must be joking."
you think.
Good! That's what we want you to
think.
-Blister
741
Subject:
media induction
I hate to say it, but I think you're a
little bit late on this one
Barry
>do we realize that the romans used
to watch people being eaten by
>animals as entertainment?
When animals attack!!! Woo Hoo!!!
>do we realize that the english
used to have public displays of
>floggings? do we realize there are people in this
country who want
>to bring back public executions,
floggings, and branding of
>criminals?
That's entertainment!!!! Didn't you
see the caning in
Don't forget the amputations and
ritual mutilation at 9.
>we'll watch police beat down a man
on live tv and cheer.
I saw that in a bar when they aired
the Rodney King footage.
They were screeaming "Get him. Beat
that motherfucker!"
A little while later it was "Go
O.J.! Go O.J.!"
>these things won't deter
crime. if anything, they will feed our
>hunger for violence and we will
seek other outlets.
This stuff is going on NOW. Our
huinger for violence exists as a part
of us. We're just looking in the
mirror. This stuff boosts ratings
because our natural violent streak is
totally repressed.
>authoritarianism breeds decadence
breeds collapse.
Welcome to the second fall of
decadence! Come to the dark side! AH
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Seriously, aren't you looking forward
to it? The new dark ages.
No police. No laws. No holds barred.
One way or the other some will
roll with it, and some will be rolled
over by it. Good luck.
-Blister
742
another commercial
***************
mother and child
out on the street
wild and hungry
nothing to eat
frightened and starving
we're carving the bird
this third world country
right here at home
this is not a movie
it's a commercial
man and his bottle
hurtles through space
hand on the throttle
running in place
empty and lonely
he's only a bum
his thumb in his mouth
south of insane
this is not a movie
it's a commercial
the boy is a man
gang at his back
gun in his hand
pipe full of crack
now he's a killer
filler with lead
dead to the world
and doing some time
this is not a movie
it's a commercial
-Blister
743
Hey
****
She says it's much too convenient
She says she's feeling used
She says she needs some time away
Can I please be excused?
Oh well if that's how you want it
Oh well I'll go away
Oh well if that's how you want it
Oh well hey
She says she's got a problem
She says low self esteem
Says says it's almost over now
She starts to scream
Oh well if that's how you want it
Oh well I'll go away
Oh well if that's how you want it
Oh well hey
These things happen
These things happen
These things happen everyday
These things happen
These things happen
Oh well hey
I say I'm getting tired
I say it's getting old
I say it's getting boring
I say hey
Oh well if that's how you want it
Oh well I'll go away
Oh well if that's how you want it
Oh well hey
These things happen
These things happen
These things happen everyday
These things happen
These things happen
Oh well hey
-Blister
744
BLAM!
*******
"Don't come t' prayer meetin
mondee."
"Wha? Why?"
"Just don't come t' prayer
meetin.
Sumpin bad gonna happen. Sumpin real
bad."
"I heered tell summa them girls
is Satan worshipers.
I's gwine t' fix 'em. I's gwine t' fix
'em reel good.
Ain't nobuddy nose 'bout it yet, but
I's gwine t' fix 'em.
I busted inta the naybers g'rage and I
steeled his pistol
an a coupla his rifles. He's a NRA
member, so he's even got bullets
in thar. I steeled a whole bunch of
'em and I's gwine ta fix dem no
good nigger-lovin, satan-worshipin,
knees-glued-tagither, no-count
cunts but good! One of 'em's even my
own good buddy. But I know she's
puttin out for Satan an I gots ta put
her out her mis'ry. I know
she's doing it with Satan or else I'd be gettin some pussy too.
But she just wants ta be friends. I'll
fix 'em. I'll fix 'em all. No
good hippo-crites! They be alla time
kneelin down worshippin Jesus,
but them thar boys 'n' girls is
sinners. They ain't no better 'n' me.
Oh but they pretend they is. They gots
them fancy lipsticks and that
perfume they got from Caldors. And I
seen 'em! I know what they do at
night up by the crik. I know that and
that's the devil's own work.
And I'll fix 'em by GOD. They shall
kneel down and know that mine is
the wrath of GOD and I shall smite them
with mighty and furious anger
and they will know the name of the
lord.
Monday morning:
"Good morning Brothers and
Sisters. As the senior member of our group
I'll be leading the prayer circle this
mor...
BLAM!
What in God's name?
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
Sweet Jesus!
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM! BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!
Jesus Christ! What the fuck are you
doing?! Put down the
fucking gun!
BLAM!
Just a thought. A scenario. Maybe it's
so and maybe not.
I have to admit I like it when things
like this happen. Kids form a
prayer meeting [it ain't allowed in
school unless the kids do it all
by themselves with no adult
supervision] and start reading the bible
and praying and one little fucked up
teenager high on hormones
decides "fuck this!", and
decides to start shooting. Hysterical!
Cynical I admit, and I probably
wouldn't like it as much if my little
sister was in the line of fire, but so
fucking what? Our children
are completely fucked up by religion,
double standard morality,
sub-standard education, sexual
repression, fear of utter
annihilation, skin cancxer and who
knows what the fuck else?
How can anyone be surprised that one
by one they're starting to go
*snap* like little twigs under such a
heavy load? I'm just surprised
it wasn't me fifteen years ago. Or was
it?
-Blister
745
Get it
*****
Lust
dripping moist
hoist it up
out of the way
look out below
Oh no prepay
Get it
trust
tripping daisy
lazy susan
jumped the gun
having fun
all the way
getting hornier I must
Get it
Fussed
over a trifle
rifle through
a thing or two
take a shot
it's OK
'cause you know
diamonds never rust
Get it
-Blister
746
Whatever happened to Mary Jane?
Whatever happened soul train?
Whatever happened to G.I. Joe?
Whatever happened to Lego?
where did all the flowers go?
with children in their hair?
I guess we may never know
and no one cares
Whatever happened to MTV?
Whatever happened to LSD?
Whatever happened Levi's jeans?
Whatever happend jelly beans?
Where did all the ancients go?
far underground
nothing left but memories
and the stones the workmen found
Whatever happened to hula hoops?
Whatever happened to peace?
Whatever happened to MacArthur's
troops?
And what happened to me?
-Blister
747
A Sick
***************
Every now and then
I miss that piece of ass
that pinkly snatch of gash
which she'd flaunt for other men
A stripper by her trade
a naked living made
the Italian word for peace
she was good for that at least
'Twas years ago or so
and a nightmare hell to bear
but she was best when bare
all hot and good to go
She boasted that she swallowed
and a demonstration followed
she always aimed to please
when down on bended knees
tattooed tracks and pierced
shaved down greased and spread
she was doubly good in bed
and the head she gave was fierce
I could write a thousand lines
about this stripper that was mine
a dangerous dainty faun
I'm thankful that she's gone
-Blister
748
Lost
*****
swim
clear logic
vibration
consistent
trim
sharp edges
education
resistant
ham
bacon
incantation
rye
bread
dead head
pork
beans
a celebration
tie
die
said
milk fed
slim
starvation
relation
compliant
dim
revival
damnation
degradation
-Blister
749
morning
*******
memories
sleeping late
falling through
remedies
isolate
thoughts I knew
wide awake and dreaming of you
wide awake and dreaming of you
and I'm wide awake
all wide awake
wide awake and dreaming of you
melody
revolving round
my head at night
ecstasy
keeps me up
but it's all right
wide awake and dreaming of you
wide awake and dreaming of you
and I'm wide awake
all wide awake
wide awake and dreaming of you
-Blister
750
ManChild
*********
Baby took a look
at the movie she lived
she said your life adds up
to the love that you give
she did everything she would
maybe more than Jesus could
you know the good may be great
but the bad's just as good
It's a trip to the fall
she ignores the warning
but heeds the call
Do what you can, an you will
taking the pill - God be a man
Child
Lady read the book
took its secrets to heart
said your love life's grand
til it tears you apart
doesn't matter what you give
no one cares what you take
'cause your love tumbles down
and then it slams on the brakes
It's a trip to the fall
she ignores the warning
but heeds the call
Do what you can, an you will
taking the pill - God be a man
Child
Maybe I could see
away past the stars
far through the clouds
loud as the sun
one with the earth
birthed from the womb
straight to the tomb
out of the fire
Set free by you
Set free
Set free by you
It's a trip to the fall
she ignores the warning
but heeds the call
Do what you can, an you will
taking the pill - God be a man
Child
God be a man
God
Damn
Boy
Shit
-Blister
751
This A.M.
First, a couple of definitions:
Graphic: 1. Being written, drawn, or
engraved. 2. Vivdly described.
Explicit: 1. Clearly and precisely
expressed.
Why would anyone object to anything
vividly described or clearly and
precisely expressed?
This is a little long, but what the
hell.
It's not every day the gods return.
Strange Morning
*********************
It was a strange morning.
I was at the end of my driveway at
home
sitting on my motorcycle drinking a
beer.
The beer: Budweiser long neck bottle.
The bike: Suzuki 1000 L.
The German Shepherd and the cat
were both trying to get a sip of my
beer.
Suddenly this woman is walking up the
street.
I feel I recognize her but I can't
place her.
I take my beer and walk up the
driveway and into the house.
I'm looking surreptitiously over my
shoulder
because I fear she'll notice me
gawking
while still trying to place her.
Once I'm in the house a knock comes at
the door.
"Are you the only person who
lives here?" she asks.
"I live here"
"I can't say" says she.
I notice she is rolling what appears
to be a joint
from one corner of her mouth to the
other and back.
I get the hint while thinking
"Talented tongue"
I invite her in.
She sit's in a chair and I kneel at
her feet
arms folded across her knees.
She feels warm and comfortable to me
like a mother or a lover.
I light the joint and she smiles.
The look in her eye is geting me
really hot
and I can tell she knows it.
She gets up from the chair,
walks over to the couch,
and takes a long deep hit.
I walk over to the couch and
bend over her lips to breathe it in
as she breathes out.
She touches my face,
drawing my lips to hers,
slipping her tongue into my mouth
and drawing the soul from my heart.
I give in freely and reach in under
her dress
she is hot and wet and I slide my
fingers into her
I stand and guide her to the bedroom
We undress each other slowly and
passionately
and she draws me into her.
She fucks me like I've never been
fucked before,
like I've never even been, and then it
comes to me.
I know this woman.
Astarte
Diana
Hecatate
Demeter
Kali
Inanna
She sees the recognition in my eyes
and laughs.
I can't help thinking:
"Shit!What's Osiris going to
say?"
She smiles and kisses me,
and says "Thank you Darling."
"I can't wait to see you
again."
"When will that be?" I ask.
She starts to laugh again low and
husky
and slowly dissolves into the air like
steam
and I hear "See you soon
lover" as she disappears
The alarm goes off and I'm thinking
"Damn! It's going to be a strange morning."
But it's not every day you meet a
goddess.
Thanks
-Blister
752
R.R. and The Mute Desire
R.R. and The Mute Desire
**********************
She's wearing a green crushed velvet
dress today
It perfectly accentuates her beautiful
ass
Her body sweetly undulating
as she walks down the hall
perfect poise and poison grace
her red hair hangs down exactly
complementing the color of her dress
hypontized I stare eyes ablaze
desire overflowing through my veins
I have to walk into her office
just to have another look at her
hark! she speaks to me! We discuss
trivialities
the weather, her brother, a bridge,
the commute
I love this moment for I can really
look at her
study her face and her body intimately
caressing her face, her breasts, her
creamy thighs with my eyes
if she knows or notices she doesn't
seem to mind
I can smell her perfume delicately
masking her musk
She is married [to a cop no less]
I know I have no chance
nor any particular desire to be killed
by her humongous cop lover / husband
even if I did have a chance
so I must content myself
with a longing look
a nice hard stare at her perfect body
a whiff of her delicate form
in mute frustration I stand
yet she is so sweet
and delicious
it is enough
-Blister
753
'tis the season
Death destruction mayhem blood brains
scattered everywhere strangling
on blood intestines wrapped around
throats stomachs spilt from crotch
to throat eyeballs dangling from optic
nerves ripped out by hand,
and, and, and...
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
-blister
Babe
****
Ciao
I'll hit you in the morning
with all that stuff
we talked about
Wow
it gets a little boring
I've had enough
and I'm walking out
Now
Babe
Don't leave me alone
No
Don't leave me alone
Alright
Go
How
d'ja spose I think you're doing
it's getting kinda rough
and I'd chalk it up
Pow
tumble down in ruin
up in a puff a smoke
and I'm choking up
Chow
Babe
Don't leave me alone
No
Don't leave me alone
Alright
Go
-Blister
754
Scream II
Scream
********************
I drown in empty poetry
I sink in waves of pink
nothing but my soul to sell For $ale
Dragon dreams
Splitting seams
Is this really what it seems?
I've got this new hate machine
I think it's time to make it scream
I climb to heights of ecstasy
Fall to the rocks below
I'm getting tired of the grind
I start to lose my mind again
I hate to make a scene
I don't care who knows what I mean
Dragon dreams
Splitting seams
Is this really what it seems?
I've got this new hate machine
I think it's time to make it scream
Love is love
that will not fade away
Purest thoughts have turned obscene
Trip all day and you get mean
I start to lose my mind again
I hate to make a scene
I don't care who knows what I mean
Dragon dreams
Splitting seams
Is this really what it seems?
I've got this new hate machine
I think it's time to make it scream
755
PIG
Hi all.
Just a little alcohol fueled poetic
humor for new year's eve
courtesey of Jim Croce, R.I.P.
Remember: If you're drunk don't drive.
You might hit a bum and spill your
drink. [That's bum, not bump.]
-Blister
PIG
***
It was the last day of December
As near as I can remember
While strolling down the lane in tipsy
pride
Not a word did I utter
as I lay down in the gutter
when this pig come up and lay there by
my side
Not a soul was I disturbing
as I lay down by the curbing
when this high toned lady come and I
heard her say:
"You can tell a man who boozes
by the company he chooses."
and that pig got up and slowly walked
away.
756
Fool
****
Spitting it up out into the wind
Tripping out on a daisy chain
Forget about your innocent sin
Thinking about it is a pain
Fall in Fall out
Fall in Fall out
I know you're a battleship blonde
I know you're a real cool fool
Carried out carrying on
dropped out in the mud with your
jewels
Insane insane insane insane insane
Innocent innocent innocent innocent
Fall in Fall out
Fall in Fall out
Insane insane insane insane insane
Innocent innocent innocent innocent
Fall in Fall out
Insane insane insane insane insane
Fall in Fall out
Innocent innocent innocent innocent
-Blister
757
HI!
Don't want your new pollution
give me that candy bar
don't get your revlon comedy
no solution revolution
evolution devil-ution
I just wanna say wait
I just wanna stay
Hi!
Free plastic conversation
implanted in your brain
give headline hibrow validation
consolation deviation
congregation segragation
I just wanna say wait
I just wanna stay
Hi!
758
Kill Baby
********
If you hear this fear this
we'll connect you all inside
normalized conformity
direct on live t.v.
condom nation
sans sensation
embryonic sheep
Kill Mommy
Kill Daddy
Kill Baby
Concentration falters
all in supersonic size
legalized depravity
erect for all to see
education
degradation
electronic sleep
Kill Mommy
Kill Daddy
Kill Baby
-Blister
759
Go Home
*******
I think
at least I think I think
I try
to forget how to try
get out of my way
I'll drive
I would if I could
but I can't so I won't
Go Home
I breathe
as deep as I can breathe
I choke
the smoke it clouds my eyes
I cry
the tears of the forgiven
get out of my way
I'm driven
I would if I could
but I can't so I won't
Go Home
I beat
my self into submission
I drink
but only to survive
I eat
the words of the forgotten
I die
but I ought to know better
get out of my way
I'll drive
I would if I could
but I can't so I won't
Go Home
-Blister
760
Moment
********
sleek fluorescent incandescent
promise true a lie in essence
tide in time a slice of lime
a lemon on the edge of lemonade
blessed peace a moment after
laughter at the foolish games of love
big band beat a poltergeist
a wound so deep and wide
will not suffice to say a labor day
poet will forgotten be begotten
after all it's a party socialize
and mingle single men devout
and soon devoured flower
power children bewildered
filled with the here and now or
there and then I try to stay
so quiet out of sight and sounding
silent violent thoughts eclipse
my brain and heat my blood
the bread and wine inspired
words of hot impassioned fire
while desire moot and poignant
burns away the spark goes out
in water as I write to satan's
daughter on this, the holiest of days.
-Blister
761
Subject:
bitchin dip
A Poem About Food:
*****************
I love to eat some chips
and watch a flick that's hip
everything is fine long as I have
my Cheesy Spinach Dip.
For those of a culinary bent here's a
recipe for some yummy dip.
Take:
1 bag of lipton vegetable soup mix
sour cream [amount varies to taste. I
like less. 1 pint or so.]
1 cup grated cheddar cheese
1 cup frozen chopped spinach
Mix well and top with another half a
cup of grated cheddar cheese.
Bake for thirty minutes and serve with
crackers of your choice.
Delicious!
-Blister
762
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